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About me
I started feeling like I was trans at 14, heavily influenced by what I saw online. I now realize I was trying to escape womanhood because of past trauma and internalized misogyny. I was on testosterone for three and a half years before slowly detransitioning at 20. Now, I’ve made peace with my body and understand I’m a masculine-minded woman who loves being a woman. My journey was necessary for me to finally find and accept myself.
My detransition story
My whole journey with transition and detransition started when I was a teenager. I began feeling like I was trans at 14, and I can see now that it was deeply influenced by what I was seeing on YouTube and Tumblr. The internet played a huge role in shaping my thoughts.
A big part of why I transitioned was because of sexual trauma I hadn't dealt with. The feeling of being "prey" became attached to the idea of womanhood for me. I had a social disconnect from other women that was incredibly painful, and I think I just wanted to escape from being a woman altogether. I realize now it was a lot of internalized misogyny; I thought being a woman meant being unintelligent, having to dress feminine, and being easily preyed upon. I didn't want any part of that.
I started binding my chest when I was 15 because I hated my breasts. At 17, I started taking testosterone and was on it for about three and a half years, until I was 20. I never had top surgery or bottom surgery. Around the time I stopped T, I began to detransition. It wasn't a sudden thing; it was more like a slow pull back to myself that I had to let happen. I needed to understand the reasons I transitioned in the first place before I could detransition.
The physical changes from detransitioning have been a process. My voice was deep from testosterone, but over about two years it lightened up. I pass as female 100% in person, but on the phone it's about 50/50. I tried vocal training videos but found it hard to maintain a higher voice, so I just let it be. My chest, which was a small B cup before T, deflated a bit on hormones, but it recuperated fully after I stopped. My breasts are actually larger now in my mid-twenties than they were at 15. The body hair from T has thinned out over the years; I went from shaving my face three times a week to about once a week now. The bottom growth I experienced has shrunk a bit, and my orgasms feel more like they did before testosterone.
Socially, it's been complicated. I legally changed my name when I transitioned and I've kept it, even though sometimes I think about going back to my birth name. My chosen name is weirdly similar to my birth name, and it can be awkward. My parents and everyone call me by my chosen name. I present very femininely now—I wear crop tops and skinny jeans, I have a feminine hairstyle—but I have a more masculine soul. I’ve realized I’m a masculine-minded person who is attracted to feminine-minded people, whether they are men or women. My relationships with masculine people tend to fail, and I'm much happier with feminine people.
I’ve struggled a lot with my sexuality. I went through phases of being obsessed with male attention to being repulsed by it. I came out as a lesbian, then took it back. I came out as a gay man, then took it back. I’ve realized that for me, sexuality isn't something simple to label. I don't really tell people I'm bisexual anymore because it feels like too much of a generalization. It's personal information between me and my partner.
Looking back, I don’t regret my transition because it taught me that I didn’t actually want to be perceived as male. I love women, and being a woman, too much. I missed the feeling of warmth and connection that came with being perceived as female. My journey was necessary for me to learn who I am. I do have regrets about the physical effects, like some sagging in my chest from binding, but overall, I’ve made peace with my body.
I benefited a lot from therapy, which helped me work through my trauma and my confusion about romance and sex. Taking a step back from dating and the internet was also crucial for me to see my life clearly, without the pressure of labels or other people's expectations.
Here is a timeline of my journey:
| Age | Event |
|---|---|
| 14 | Started feeling trans, heavily influenced by online content like YouTube and Tumblr. |
| 15 | Began binding my chest and socially transitioning. |
| 17 | Started testosterone (HRT). |
| 20 | Stopped testosterone after 3.5 years; began detransitioning. |
| 21 | Was 1 year off testosterone; chest had recuperated, voice was starting to lighten. |
| 22-24 (approx.) | Voice continued to lighten over a 2-year period; body hair thinned out. |
| Mid-late 20s | Living as a detransitioned female; comfortable with my body and identity. |
Top Comments by /u/221gp:
For me it was realizing that I supposedly didn’t believe in gender or sex. But if I believe in gender, and supposedly didn’t believe in sex.. why was I changing my body to physically pass as a different sex and gender? Ego.
Everything was about just not being a girl. Because girl = bad. And of course if you asked me at the time, does girl = bad? I would’ve said of “course not!! I just don’t personally feel like a girl”. But like, what is feeling like a girl?
Woman doesn’t have a feeling. I just didn't want to be a woman because woman = unintelligent, dressing feminine, and easily preyed upon. Total internalized misogyny on top of serious trauma from being sexually assaulted.
I experienced quite a bit of shrinking over the last 5 years off T. I also have more “female” like orgasms again. Every man I’ve been with hasn’t ever said anything negative about bottom growth, it’s just a matter of learning to use it since it’s just different. My partner now was born with a condition that basically made his sex organs unusable, so he had like 3 surgeries to get them functioning properly, and hes infertile because of it, so me and him both kinda bond over having “different” genitals.
Ive found that when I was masculine presenting, I was taken more seriously as a bisexual person, like a 50/50 attraction. Femme lesbians were into me. But When I’m feminine presenting, I’m taken as straight. It’s completely f’d up but even the Ls and Gs conform to some very traditionally conservative standards of gender expression being intertwined with sexuality.
So I don’t even tell people I’m bisexual anymore. It just feels like too much of a generalization to label my sexuality. If I want to “come out”, it would only be in real life conversation with a close friend, where I can just wait until they get to know me and understand my story (and occasionally hear my ex’s being “shes”).I have found when people are active online there’s this thing where you’re expected to parade your sexuality label around in your bio or on your story or something so I just don’t participate in that. It’s personal information between you and the person you’re involved with.
I'm in college and not high school, but was once (recently) an FTM in high school. I would recommend really just going for it, there's honestly no very easy way around this besides "hiding" or masking yourself longer and longer. You may already know the feeling. If you haven't taken hormones or had surgeries, the process will be much easier for you now then later on. I would highly suggest putting in the time now, working out the minor kinks, and not letting this flow through into your college years. Wishing you all the best.
I’m so sorry! I totally get it and went through that period for about 6 months. My voice naturally lightened back up over a 1.5-2 year time span FYI. I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t doing the vocal training exercises on YouTube in the beginning but honestly it’s hard to maintain the “head” voice thing. Kudos to people who can do it. I have a smaller frame and didn’t get top surgery so I used those things for my benefit, aka lots of tight fitting clothes (crop tops/skinny jeans). I don’t wear makeup but did get a feminine hairstyle and dyed my hair. I’m sorry you’re going through this rough adjustment period but you WILL get through this and we are all cheering you on in this journey! We are all here with you.
I strongly second the stay away from the internet part. I began feelings trans at 14 and it was deeply influenced by youtube, Tumblr, etc. I would really try to stay away from social media in general. Try to focus your mind on the fact that your body is much more that your gender expression. it moves you every day, it sustains you every day. It is worth the utmost care and respect. For a long time I didn't look into mirrors. I just let my body be. Take up a hobby, if you are to go on the internet, surround your medias with that hobby that has nothing to do with politics/idenitities/beauty/gender influences. You are worth it.
I have a similar line of thinking, perhaps not pull them out of school, but I would become very weary of who they’re spending time with at school and after school.
If it were mine or a close friends child, I would probably recommend what someone would do when they find out their kid is partaking in any kind of troubling social activity. Whether it be physical self-harm, substance abuse, an addiction of some kind. However you’d deal with that, is how I would deal with a kid who was suddenly trans. And I mean, suddenly trans. Not a kid who had clear signs their whole life of gender non conforming behavior. That would be a different path for me.
Hi. I don't know if this will apply to you totally because I was on HRT for about 3.5 years (FtmtF). Pre-T and around age 15, I was at about a small B cup. Binded from age 15-20 and was also on HRT 17-20. I'm 1 year off T now. In the beginning of Detrans, my chest was relatively small/deflated. It was obvious the "deflation" was from HRT, however the binding affect caused my nipples to be simply lower, as it was pulling down on my chest for so many years. I'm 1 year of T now, and chest has 100% recuperated, and my breasts are now larger (age 21) than they were at 15yrs old. No signs of binding either. They look completely natural/normal/untouched for all the years. So, I think with your age you will definitely "bounce back" and should not have anxiety about it. Naturally, you will. But all breasts are different and if you're worried about partners noticing, don't. Many people, men and women alike, understand all breasts look different and sit differently. There are many ways to feel confident about how you present your breasts on the day to day and feel comfortable, bras (I find unbearable after the back pain from binding) , no bras (awesome!) , pasties (I currently use to cover up the hard nipple look while at work with many older men who creep me out) etc. Good luck in your journey my friend.
Hello I've been off T for about 16 months and was on for 3.5 years. My voice has lightened- I pass 100% in person and about 50% of the time on the phone. Kinda depends on the day but overall it has lightened and I do the "scratchy" voice thing a lot. Look up some light vocal training videos if you're interested in that.
Hi there, first off, you have so much of life to explore still, and when I was your age I was going in the exact opposite direction, so kudos to you for having a longer term outlook on how the medical decisions you make now will affect adult you. Do remember that life is so precious and valuable, and you are making some very mature decisions and I understand how difficult it is to do that as a teenager, I went through the same thing.
Second, if you want to keep your name, no problem! If you want to keep binding, be aware it may lead to some changes in the development of your chest (I have sagging which in my mid-late 20s id prefer I didn’t have but it’s not the end of the world). I kept my my trans name, my parents still call me by it, as I legally changed it so pretty much everyone does.
There is a point in transitioning for some, and for me, it was to learn that I didn’t want to be perceived as male. I love women, and other women, and being a woman, too much and it led me astray from a feeling of warmth and coziness I learned that I missed a lot when I no longer was female presenting or perceived as female.
Take care and best of luck in your journey. Try to remember to be a kid still in the ways you can. Enjoy your teenage years and give yourself lots of love, patience, and compassion. Future you will much appreciate it.