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About me
I was born female and started taking testosterone when I was 18, living as male for nine years. My decision came from a deep discomfort with my body and a need for approval, but I wasn't prepared for the permanent physical changes or the health complications. Socially, the pressure to stay male was immense, and trying to present as female again was incredibly difficult and embarrassing. Now that I've stopped, I don't regret my journey because it led me to where I am today. I've learned that medical transition is a huge decision with permanent consequences that needs to be considered very carefully.
My detransition story
My whole journey with transition and now detransition has been a long and complicated one. I was born female, and for about nine years of my life, I lived as a male. I started taking testosterone when I was 18, and I was on it for nearly three years before I stopped.
Looking back, I think a lot of my decision to transition came from a place of deep discomfort. I’ve always really cared about what other people think of me, and that need for approval and fear of judgment was a huge mental obstacle for me. I hated my body, especially going through female puberty, and I think I saw transitioning as a way to escape those feelings. I was young and reckless, and I desperately needed a way out from how I felt.
Starting testosterone was surprisingly easy. I told my primary care doctor I felt like a guy and I was given a prescription that same day, no questions asked. I wasn't prepared for a lot of the changes, especially the bottom growth; nobody ever told me that would happen. It also had serious effects on my health. My red blood cell count got really high and my cholesterol spiked, which forced me to go on a strict diet and exercise five days a week for months to get it under control.
Socially, it was a struggle. It took my family six years to even come around to me being male, so after nine years of living that way, the pressure to stay that way felt immense. When I first started trying to present female again, I was so paranoid and constantly felt like I was being judged. My voice had dropped really low on T, and I was really anxious about how that would affect my life and how people who knew me as male would react. I remember one time, before I detransitioned, I tried wearing makeup and was denied entry to a women's dressing room. I was so embarrassed I just left. Things like that really stuck with me.
Now that I’ve stopped, I’m trying to take it one day at a time. I don’t regret everything about my transition. I feel like we write our own history, and every step, good or bad, had to happen to get me to where I am today. I learned from it. I might not have made the decision to start T if I knew then what I know now, but I was in a different headspace. I needed that escape at the time.
My thoughts on gender now are that it's a very personal thing, and medical transition is a huge deal with permanent consequences that aren't talked about enough. I would tell anyone thinking about it to really take their time and consider going to counselling for at least a year to be sure. It’s not a decision to make lightly.
Here is a timeline of my journey:
| Age | Event |
|---|---|
| 18 | Started taking testosterone. |
| 21 | Stopped testosterone after nearly 3 years. |
| 21 | Began the process of social detransition. |
Top Comments by /u/Adie2620:
I would tell them to consider going to counseling about it for at least a year. Now a days they don't even require that. My friend just starting the process told his primary that he felt like a guy and they gave him T that day no questions asked. I would make sure they understand the full extent of all the changes especially about bottom growth. (I was not informed of this at all) and about all the irreversible changes that go along with taking T. There are a lot of health risks as well. I got a really high red blood cell count and my cholesterol spiked so I ended up having to go on a diet and exercise 5 days a week for a few months. I don't think a lot of people are prepared for the aftermath of testosterone and it effects everyone differently
Yeah I know the beginning is going to be the hardest.. I do have a lot of body hair but I know time changes a lot. Thank you so much!😊💚 I tried once and wore makeup in public and a girl wouldn't let me in the female dressing room. I was embarrassed and ended up leaving. But things like that. I've always cared what others thought. Its going to be more of a mental obstacle than anything
I agree sometimes I overthink the little things. Especially right now with only just starting to detranision its thats constant feel like I'm being judged or paranoia when it's just me overthinking. I know a lot of the feeling will pass with time. Thank you 😊
That's tough now I would say I wouldn't have made the decision to start T but then...I was 18, reckless I needed some way to escape how I felt about my body and I think I would have said I didn't care and did it anway. I personally don't regret all of this. I feel like we write history. Everything that happened then good or bad had to happen to get to where we are today. So if I learn from it or end up meeting someone special from this. I know that none of it wouldn't have happened if I hadn't of gone through everything I have. That's just how I see it. It is a step in the dark but there is eventually a light at the end of every tunnel 💚
I definitely can relate personally. Feel free to message me if you'd like. 🙂 after nearly 3 years on T I find myself pretty lost with how my body has changed and how my deep voice will change my social life with those around me as I ease back into how my life was before all this.. Especially those I knew around me during my transition to be male in the first place. Its definitely not going to be easy but there's a lot of support on this page and a lot of understanding people 💚
Yeah 3 years is a long time.. I have been living as male for 9 years so I think thats where a lot of the pressure comes from. 9 years of those around me finally coming around to me transitioning to male in the first place. It took 6 just for my family to come around To it. I am trying to take it one day at a time. Thank you for the support 🙂
I feel like my voice was pretty high before T. I feel like it's pretty low now but that's only how I hear myself. If that makes sense😄 thank you so much :) not sure what kinda look im goin for yet haha I'm slowly learning to try not to let others opinions get to me. 💚