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The user's narrative is highly detailed, emotionally raw, and internally consistent. They express complex, conflicting feelings of regret, self-blame, and a desire to protect others, which aligns with the known experiences of individuals who have undergone medical transition and regret it. The account shows the expected passion and anger stemming from personal harm.
About me
I was a feminine man who felt out of place and believed surgery was my only path to a normal life. The medical system rushed me through with no real counseling, and I was completely unprepared for the brutal reality of the procedure and its lifelong consequences. Now, just two months later, I am in constant pain, trapped in a body that feels even less like my own, and filled with deep regret. I am not against being trans, but I want others to know this surgery is not a cure for dysphoria. My life has been destroyed by a choice I made when I was desperate and uninformed.
My detransition story
My name isn't important, but my story is. I want to share my experience with transitioning and the surgery I now deeply regret, in the hope that it might help someone else who is feeling as desperate as I was.
I was born male, but I was always a feminine person. I never felt masculine, and I was bullied for it. I felt like an alien. I think I started to believe I needed medical transition because I couldn't see a way to live happily as a feminine man. Society wasn't, and maybe still isn't, ready for people who don't fit neatly into a box. I thought transitioning was the only way to become a "normal" human being.
I definitely had severe gender dysphoria, especially about my genitals. I hated having a penis. It made me extremely uncomfortable every time I left the house because it was hard to hide. I just wanted to wear whatever I wanted, like certain underwear or a bikini, and not see that part attached to my body. I also never felt comfortable using it sexually. Someone tried to perform oral sex on me and I felt nothing. I tried anal sex as the bottom and it was a painful, horrible experience. I also hated being fetishized by men. I just wanted to be seen as normal and be able to have a normal sex life.
I socially transitioned first, and that worked for me because I was already feminine. I don't even really regret trying hormones. But surgery felt like a desperate move, the final solution to my dysphoria. I was 100% sure it was the right choice. I left school and started working to save up all my money for it.
The medical system failed me. I had a gender dysphoria diagnosis, but I never saw a psychologist because of financial reasons. The psychiatrist, endocrinologist, and surgeon just had me sign an "informed consent" form. That was it. Nobody truly informed me about the consequences. I wasn't told that after surgery I might need to take testosterone in addition to estrogen. I wasn't prepared for the reality of the procedure itself. I chose a technique where they use a part of your intestine to create the vagina. It's savage. It's digging a hole in your body and creating something artificial. I wasn't prepared for the daily, painful dilation forever, or that I would never have a functional genital. It's 100% better to have a functional genital than an artificial one.
Now, just two months after surgery, I am destroyed. What I have now is worse than what I had before. I have two swollen sausages that keep leaking from a hole they opened and covered with my intestine. I am in constant physical and mental pain. I think about ending my life every day, but I don't have the courage because I don't want to hurt the two people who love me. I feel trapped in a body that isn't mine. I just want to reincarnate into a new, normal body. I just wanted to live, and now it feels like my life is over. I've become a chronically ill person, dependent on doctors and medications forever. I have no college degree, no money, and a body I can't accept.
I feel completely alone in this. I signed a contract with the surgeon that basically says I'm responsible for everything and I can't sue him or go public about him. I'm stuck. I'm now seeking a psychologist who works with LGBT people, and I will share my story with them in the hope that they can help prevent this from happening to others.
I want to be very clear: I am not anti-trans. I still consider myself trans. I know gender dysphoria is real and it's a terrible thing to suffer from. But I believe there is no cure for gender dysphoria, only treatment. And I now believe that for me, and maybe for many others, this surgery is not a viable treatment option. It's inhumane. When you're blinded by dysphoria, you think any change is better than what you have, but that's not always true.
My goal is to make people think twice. I ignored warnings on forums like this because some detrans people had transphobic ideas. I didn't see any trans people talking about regretting surgery before I had mine. We need to be able to talk about these bad experiences without being called transphobic. We need to discuss the long-term effects and the brutal reality of these procedures so that people who are suffering can make a truly informed choice. I wish I had been stronger and explored other ways to feel comfortable in my body, like laser hair removal or other non-surgical options. I faked up my life, and I just don't want anyone else to end up in this position.
| Age | Event |
|---|---|
| (Teen Years) | Felt like a feminine male, was bullied, felt like an "alien." |
| (Young Adult) | Socially transitioned. Felt this worked well. |
| (Young Adult) | Saved money for surgery by leaving school and working. |
| (Exact age not given) | Started taking hormones. Does not regret this step. |
| (Exact age not given) | Underwent gender-affirming bottom surgery (vaginoplasty). |
| (2 months post-op) | Experienced severe physical complications and deep regret. |
Top Comments by /u/AdorableSquash997:
Thank you!
Of course, I had a lot of genital dysphoria. I hated having a penis. I was extremely uncomfortable everytime I left home, because it was hard for me to hide it. I wanted to be able to wear whatever i want. I wanted to wear underwear or bikini and not see that attached to my body. Also I never considered using it sexually. I had someone doing oral sex on me and I felt nothing. Also tried anal sex (me being the bottom) and it was painful and horrible experience. I think that other thing that added to this was being fetishized by man. I wanted to be seen as normal and be able to have sex.
Turns out it was all better then having what I have now. When we are blinded by gender dysphoria (which I know is real and it's a very sensitive topic) we assume there's always something we can do to stop it, but there really isn't. We can try to minimize it through hrt, plastic surgery. But srs? Srs is not humane. It's savage. Digging a hole in your body, taking part of your intestine to make the inside of the vagina (in the technique i chose), inserting stiff dilators inside of it every day forever. It's painful. You will not have a functional genital. And trust me it's 100% better to have a functional genital then an artificial genital.
This is just the beginning for me. Can't imagine the complications that will come with time. Spread awareness, we can't let this happen to human beings that are suffering with gender dysphoria. They are a very vulnerable group that should be protected.
That's what I thought when I came in this subreddit prior to surgery. I understand what you are feeling. If you authorize I can send you pictures of my post-op in your DM's. I am not lying and I am not against trans people. I still consider myself trans. But this surgery is brutal and inhumane.
Thank you a lot for this. It has been 2 months and it only got worst mentally. I think about ending my life everyday but I don't have courage and I don't want to do that to the only 2 people that love me in this planet. I don't want to detransition like you, but ye this was a very shocking experience and I can't believe I sign up for this. I hope I can figure out a way to cope with this body that isn't mine. The genital dysphoria is worst now that I have this between my legs. Two swollen sausages that keep leaking from the hole they opened and covered with my intestine. I am tired to be trapped in this body, just wanted to reincarnate in a new normal body. I just wanted to live. And now its over...
I am not anti trans and not anti detrans. Just wanna share my experience. I might have picked violent words, but that's because of what i am feeling right now. I really feel like I destroyed my body. I've just recently seen few more people regretting this surgery and I just wanted to share my experience so that any trans person considering the surgery will see that someone that had severe genital dysphoria can also regret the surgery. Because when I was suffering with dysphoria I thought this was my only option. I left school and started working to save money for this. Now I have no college degree and no money and I became a chronically ill person. I fked up my life, and now feels like I am a stranger in this body. Obviously I am the only one to blame but again I never saw a trans person regretting this surgery before I did it. We are not taken into considerstion. And what I pretend by posting here is possibly make people think twice before making a decision. I know what it feels like having gender dysphoria and I know how desperate we feel. Sometimes this seems like the only option but it is more complex then that. I just don't want other people to end up in my situation, because i will probably just end everything soon.
Wrong. They are supportive, they saw me suffering and even after making this mistake they are on my side. This was paid with my money and I made my own choices as I am an adult. Just a dumb one. It is for people like you that someone with gender dysphoria doens't pay attention to this detrasition/regret topics. And then ends up here. Be a better human being.
Def the worst mistake I did was not have a psychologist. The psychiatrist, endocrinologist and surgeon just made me sign an "informed consent" and that was it, nobody informed me about the consequences... Reminding you I do had and have gender dysphoria so I had that diagnosis for that, I just don't think this surgery was a viable option to deal with it. Ty
I can understand the comment above. Before the surgery I checked this subreddit and I ignored it because of some transphobic comments. I don't think is beneficial for us to go against trans people or talk about trans ideology. I mean no offense to your comment, just a point of view. We are hurt. But so are trans people. I still consider myself trans. I just think we should look at this topic more objectively... like now that I feel regret towards this surgery and that I am criticizing the brutality of such procedure, feels like the trans community doesn't validate me anymore. Even if I am not detrans, I'm just happy that I was able to share my experience in this subreddit, hopefully it reaches someone that is questioning themselves about this surgery. I just want people to know that I am trans, I had genital dysphoria and I regret getting the surgery. It's just my experience. We can't simply invalidate my experience or others like mine just because some people feel happy about it. And are they happy about it? For how long? At what cost? You know? I just which this was not ignored.
I don't know how to... I was 100% sure this was a good choice and now look at me. I don't think we can stop this from happening. Some detrans people have some transphobic ideas and that's what made me ignore the warnings. Now I am dealing with the consequences, and more people will be in this position...
Thank you, hopefully more of us can address this topic without being transphobic and denying that gender dysphoria is a real thing like I've seen some people do in this subreddit. Trans people need to see that this is not an option. There is no cure for gender dysphoria there is only treatment. I seriously hope this post can reach someone that is questioning if they should be getting the surgery and make them change their mind.
Hopefully it has a cure and hopefully that cure reaches them. For me it's to late. I just can't accept that this is my reality. Keep thinking of my childhood and how my body was healthy before. It is so heartbreaking more people will end up in this position...