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Reddit user /u/Aprze's Detransition Story

male
took hormones
regrets transitioning
got bottom surgery
benefited from non-affirming therapy
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About me

I was born male and started taking hormones at 26, hoping it was the answer to feeling different my whole life. The hormones made me feel calm and I had surgery, but I realized I could never truly pass as a woman. I still take my medication because it helps my body feel right, but I no longer live as a woman. I don't regret my journey because I needed to go through it to find myself. My truth now is just about being me, not about fitting into a specific gender.

My detransition story

My journey with gender has been long and complicated, and my thoughts on it have changed a lot over the years. I was born male, and from a young age, I always felt like I was somewhere on the LGBT spectrum, that something was different about me, but I couldn't figure out what it was. When I finally learned what being transgender was, it felt like an answer. I had a hint of doubt, but I read online about so many people who waited to be 100% sure and ended up regretting not starting sooner. I didn't want to have that regret, so I decided to try medical transition. I saw it as a litmus test for myself.

I started taking feminizing hormones when I was 26. For the first 3-4 months, they made me feel awake and calm, and that's when I felt 100% sure I was trans. I liked the changes they brought. The hormones gave me a slightly more defined waist and made my hips a little wider, but I started too late for any hip bone widening. My body shape is still an inverted triangle. I also had genital surgery 11 months after that.

But my perspective on passing shifted dramatically. I began to feel that the trans community is not always honest about this. There's a lot of "hugboxing" online, where people tell you you pass even when you don't. I looked at surgery results and timelines and came to believe that most trans women, including myself, do not pass facially, even after surgery. When you add in height, bone structure, voice, and mannerisms, it feels like an impossible standard. I still take my hormones because they make me feel better about my body, but I no longer present myself to the world as a woman.

I don't regret my transition. It was an experience I needed to go through to find myself. Even if someone detransitions, I don't see it as a failure. Sometimes you have to try these things to know who you are. For me, the medical aspects—the hormones and even the surgery—were beneficial for my mental peace, even if the social aspect didn't work out.

My thoughts on gender itself are that it's ultimately about being true to yourself. The process is slow, and it's not the instant transformation people sometimes think it is. It's months to years of changes. And it's okay for that journey to change direction. If the medications aren't making you feel better, you should stop, because they do carry risks, like blood clots. It has to be about what helps you.

Age Event
26 Started taking feminizing hormones.
26 Began to feel "awake and calm" after 3-4 months on hormones.
27 Had genital surgery (11 months after starting hormones).
29 Wrote that I still take hormones but no longer present as a woman.

Top Comments by /u/Aprze:

6 comments • Posting since August 13, 2018
Reddit user Aprze comments on a post about detransitioning, explaining that if HRT isn't helping, one should stop due to potential side effects. They argue that the trans community overstates the ability to "pass," stating most don't even after years of hormones and surgery. They detail their own experience starting HRT at 26, noting that hip bone widening is impossible at that age and fat redistribution is minimal. They conclude that while HRT helps them personally, it should be stopped if it provides no benefit.
19 pointsJun 24, 2019
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If the medications aren't making you feel better, I would stop taking them because they aren't doing anything for you and they come with a chance of negative side effects even if low chance.

To be honest, I feel like what the trans community says about most of us passing is false. I think most of us don't pass. Look at /r/transpassing and /r/transtimeline. There is so much hugboxing. Yes, some pass, but most don't even years on hormones and after facial feminization surgery. Look at the gallery on The Facial Team in Spain, and in my opinion, most of them do not look like women to me. I think passing facially is unlikely even with surgery. Adding in height, bone thickness, body shape, voice, mannerism, I don't understand why we pretend that most of us eventually pass.

It is unlikely you'll get hips if you transition in your mid twenties or later because the hip bones growth plates stop by then. Fat redistribution can help, but it is usually minimal. For me, the fat redistribution made my hips slightly wider and ny upper body slightly smaller, and I got a little bit more define waist, so it does look more feminine but I am an inverted triangle shaoe still after >3 years on hormones and 11 months post genital surgery. I started hormones at age 26 too late for hip bone widening.

For me, the medications do make me feel better. I like ny body more. I still take feminizing hormones, but I do not present myself to the world as a woman. For me, the medications still help. If they don't help for you, stop. They come with negative side effects that could be deadly like blood clots. If they aren't helping in any way, why chance it even if the chances are low?

Reddit user Aprze explains why they believe trying transition is a worthwhile "litmus test" for questioning individuals, noting that most who start don't detransition and changes are slow and often reversible.
17 pointsAug 13, 2018
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I am not a detransitioner; I am transfemale (male to female). From what I've seen, people who detransition generally do not regret transition in the first place. It was an experience they needed, they knew they would regret it if they didn't try it, and it seems the majority do not detransition. I always knew that I was somewhere on the LGBT spectrum, that something was wrong or different from me, but I couldn't put my finger on it. When I finally learned what being transgender was, I immediately thought that's what it was, but I did have a hint of doubt. I read online of so many people who questioned and questioned, waiting to be 100%, and regretted not starting sooner for a smoother transition. Transition is slow. It is not what it is made out to be where you get a single pill or shot and you instantly turn into a boy/girl. We are talking months to years. Surgery is usually a late part of the process, and many do not get any surgery at all either due to choice (people are happy with their parts) or price (it can be expensive). Anyways, transition is generally a good litmus test, and after 3-4 months on hormones, I felt awake, calm, and became 100% sure I was trans then. As a transfemale, I hadn't even come out or presented. For transmen, there are concerns with hair and voice, but for many, this is not immediate, but months to years like I said. Very few instantly get a beard and deep voice immediately, but it is a possible risk you will have to understand. If you decide that transition is not for you afterall, there is laser/electrolysis to remove hair, and your voice can be trained similarly to any transgirl (we can get high pitch, sing, scream, etc), so you will not be completely hopeless if you want to "go back". I think that the odds you will be happy to try transition no matter which direction you end up going, but it seems most commit and are happy to continue transition. You generally just have a vibe.... like an inner voice... that just knows.

Reddit user Aprze explains that detransitioning isn't a failure, but a success in finding one's true self, and offers advice on how to step back from a trans identity.
8 pointsDec 7, 2018
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Being trans (or not) is about being trye to yourself. If you aren't trans, why live a lie? And coming out as trans, potentially starting hormones or having surgery (and informed that these things can be difficult or impossible to reverse), doesn't mean all of these things were failures. Sometimes people just need to do these things to find themselves, so I would look at it as a success. You can thank people for supporting you, but you've found that it isn't really you, and you can take step backs in whatever ways you want eg keeping your new name, going back to old one, using both (eg like use one or the other as a nickname).

Good luck!

Reddit user Aprze explains how Finasteride/Dutasteride works to treat hair loss, noting it increases testosterone by blocking DHT conversion but warns of potential side effects like depression and memory fog.
7 pointsJun 30, 2019
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It actually increases it. It is a 5 alpha reductase enzyme inhibitor, Finasteride (Propecia or Proscar) or Dutasteride (Avodart). The enzyme converts testosterone to dihydrotestosterone (DHT). If you block the enzyme, it converts less testosterone leaving more behind. The biggest issue with these medications is that 5 alpha reductase doesn't just convert testosterone to DHT, but it converts other stuff that is important for your nervous system. It is associated with depression, memory fog, and ataxia. The risks are low, especially at low doses, but low risk does not mean no risk.

Reddit user Aprze explains the effects of suddenly stopping MTF HRT, noting it causes temporary menopausal or PMS-like symptoms that resolve in weeks, and advises consulting a healthcare provider for a personalized plan.
5 pointsJan 4, 2019
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Honestly, suddenly stopping wouldn't be the worst thing ever. It would just give you menopausal-like or PMS-like symptons that would resolve after a couple of weeks. Before surgery, many people usually go cold turkey a week or longer without any major issue. Gradually reducing your dose is just to attempt avoiding these uncomfortable symptoms. Like someone else mentioned, developing a plan with your healthcare provider is best. Nobody can give you an estimate on your levels; Labs are needed for that and it is definitely different for everyone pre HRT, on HRT, or while detransitioning.

Reddit user Aprze explains the complex role of DHT in hair loss for both men and women, citing that even low, "normal" hormone levels can cause balding, and discusses why finasteride may be a more effective treatment than simply reducing testosterone.
3 pointsJul 1, 2019
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It's honestly complicated. Even at stereotypical female levels, without additional testosterone, DHT can cause female pattern baldness or thinning of the hair.

The hormonal process of testosterone converting to DHT, which then harms hair follicles, happens in both men and women. Under normal conditions, women have a minute fraction of the level of testosterone that men have, but even a lower level can cause DHT- triggered hair loss in women. And certainly when those levels rise, DHT is even more of a problem. Those levels can rise and still be within what doctors consider "normal" on a blood test, even though they are high enough to cause a problem. The levels may not rise at all and still be a problem if you have the kind of body chemistry that is overly sensitive to even its regular levels of chemicals, including hormones.

https://www.americanhairloss.org/women_hair_loss/causes_of_hair_loss.html

I was trying to look at some studies to see if cutting your testosterone would literally cut your DHT by 50%, but I couldn't find anything. Even if it did, 1 mg of Finasteride would block 71% conversion to DHT (note: the study was, of course, done on men), so it still seems more effective.

Drake et al (1999) reported on the biochemical efficacy of finasteride in men with androgenetic alopecia (AGA), demonstrating that median scalp dihydrotestosteroneDHT levels were decreased by 64% and 69% after 42 days of treatment at doses of 1 mg and 5 mg, respectively, compared to a 13% decrease with placebo. Median serum DHT levels decreased 71% and 72%, respectively, compared to a 1% increase with placebo. This study also demonstrated that at doses as low as 0.05 mg daily, finasteride significantly decreased scalp DHT, although only doses ≥0.2 mg were near-maximally effective in decreasing both scalp and serum DHT.

https://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/pii/S0022202X15529357

What's awful is that I think a lot of the positive changes that people get from testosterone cypionate is really from the DHT rather than the testosterone by itself. Again, if a non transgender man takes Finasteride, he'll start to experience some feminization like fairer skin, less oily skin, decreased libido, gynecomastia, decreased body hair, and his facial hair growth might slow down or become lighter. For a female to male, they might even get their period back. In my opinion, that makes the whole thing messier. It's kind of like you either have to embrace the baldness or be willing to accept less masculinazation. Hormones are a really difficult thing to play around with.