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Authenticity Assessment: Not Suspicious
Based on the provided comments, the account appears authentic. The user describes a highly specific and internally consistent, albeit extreme, personal narrative involving OCD, detransition motivated by a fear of pedophilia, and a desire to create fetish content. This complex mix of mental health struggles, personal trauma, and strong ideological beliefs is more characteristic of a real, though deeply troubled, individual than a bot or a troll.
The primary red flag is the extreme, conspiratorial rhetoric (e.g., "All trans people are guilty of [pedophilia]"), which could be indicative of a bad-faith actor. However, this is plausibly explained by the user's self-described severe OCD and personal trauma, which align with the stated expectation that detransitioners can be "very passionate and pissed off." The account's authenticity is more likely than not.
About me
I was born female and my journey with gender was completely shaped by my severe OCD, which latched onto my fear of being a bad person. I became convinced that being transgender meant supporting something evil, and that fear was the main reason I socially transitioned to male and then detransitioned. My reasons were never simple; I was also influenced by a discomfort with my body and a complicated idea about creating fetish content. Now, I believe my feelings weren't innate but came from my mental health and being influenced online. I don't regret detransitioning because it feels like I'm standing against what I saw as wrong, even though it's left me just wanting to not think about gender at all.
My detransition story
My whole journey with gender has been messy and deeply tied to my mental health. I was diagnosed with OCD at 16, and it has completely shaped my experience. My OCD doesn't just make me worry about little things; it latches onto my biggest fears and tries to convince me they are true. For a long time, my biggest fear was being a bad person, specifically someone who is attracted to children. My OCD convinced me that all transgender people were pedophiles and that the entire movement was a cover for normalizing child abuse. This belief was the main reason I ultimately detransitioned; I was so terrified of being associated with something I saw as evil that I had to get as far away from it as possible.
I never had a typical narrative for wanting to transition. I didn't have a lot of dysphoria about my body in a simple way. I was born female, but I never felt connected to the social expectations of being a woman. I felt like being a woman came with a burden I didn't understand or want, like having to be an expert on feminism and women's history. I just wanted to live my life without thinking about gender all the time.
When I first thought about transitioning, I was incredibly ignorant. I went to a gender therapist once and had no idea what hormones did or what transition even entailed. I told her I thought of myself as male but that I was pretty chill about pronouns and wouldn't get upset if someone messed up. She actually refused to treat me because I wasn't aggressive enough about my identity; she said most of her patients would threaten to kill themselves if they weren't addressed correctly. At the time I was mad, but now I'm so grateful she turned me away because I was so confused.
My reasons for wanting to transition were also complicated by other issues. I have a lot of discomfort with my breasts; they’ve always been extremely painful, even to the touch, and I hated that. I also had this idea that I could make a specific kind of extreme fetish porn better as a female than a male, because I saw comments from people wishing women would do it. And a part of me was deeply tempted by the idea of living as a woman on the outside but secretly knowing I was a man, like I was tricking everyone.
But my OCD fears about the transgender community always overpowered everything else. I saw slogans like "protect trans kids" and believed it was a pedophilic movement to talk to children about genitals and sex. I became convinced that to be trans, even just to identify that way, meant you supported the sexual abuse of children. I couldn't live with that, so I detransitioned. For me, being right and not supporting what I saw as evil was more important than being happy. I don't regret detransitioning because I feel like I'm standing against something terrible, even if it's made my life harder.
I don't believe my feelings were innate. I think my autism made me more susceptible to being influenced online and to latching onto ideas I found. I don't think I was born with some male brain. This was all a learned behavior and a response to my OCD, anxiety, and low self-esteem. My thoughts on gender now are that the whole concept is a mess, and I just want to go back to not giving a damn about it, but I'm afraid that if I do, I'll just slip back into thinking I'm trans again.
| Age | Event |
|---|---|
| 16 | Diagnosed with OCD. |
| 20 | Went to a gender therapist but was refused treatment for being "not aggressive enough" and not knowing what transition involved. |
| 21 | Socially transitioned to male. |
| 22 | Detransitioned due to OCD-driven fear that the transgender community supported pedophilia and a desire to create fetish porn as a female. |
Top Comments by /u/ArborealTurtle:
If you did know, you’d know that OCD absolutely does not mean you really are those things.
OCD picks the thing you hate/fear most and convinces you that you are that thing. It’s a mental illness for a reason.
I am aware of the consequences and that’s why I’m terribly, suicidally phobic of becoming one and will do anything to avoid that. My OCD has caused that phobia.
Saw the LGBT community for what they truly are (a word that is sadly banned on this sub) and realized I couldn’t support that, and being “one of them”/similar to them was supporting them whether I liked it or not. So I quit being in any way similar to them.
Is talking about sexuality and genitals with children not a sex offense? It certainly should be if it isn’t. The trans community wants to push that. I was originally under the belief they were surgically modifying children as young as 2, but someone told me that was not true and pointed out sources. So I don’t know what to believe.
I had initially wanted to stop being attracted to anything other than men as well because I thought the gay and lesbian communities did this too but I guess they don’t. I’m just in such a state or confusion.
Estrogen always causes horrible boob pain for me too. That’s why I initially stopped taking estrogen based birth control and am dreading starting it again. I used to have a friend who could punch herself in the boob and feel fine but if something even BRUSHED past mine I’d be in misery. It’s like they were balls or something.
No? Plenty of people here hate their detransition process with a burning passion but know they have to do it because the other option is believing a delusion and supporting abuse. Being right is more important than being happy.
Any reason to detransition is a good reason to detransition. That’s like saying there’s bad reasons to cure cancer. Regardless of what gets you there the most important thing is that you get there.
Lol how can I detox from trans and detrans content when every human on earth is one of those categories, either trans or not trans? That would mean detoxing from everything in tangible existence.
I used to be neutral and tolerant, very much so. I accept that it was a mistake and I have learned from it. Maybe someday some of the other people here can do the same.
They won’t use that word for it. They will use the slogan “protect trans kids”, encourage hormone blockers, “social transition” for kids as young as 2, or sex education programs in schools that includes transgender education. Some will even say that genital exams being performed, by adults, in schools are okay because trans kids. All of these things are child sexual abuse and if you say you’re against these things, they’ll attack you.
Yes. Didn’t get diagnosed until age 16 though.
All those links about autism and gender dysphoria are disproven myths. The only grains of truth are that autistic people can be more easily groomed and influenced by others, and are also more prone to having unrestricted internet access at an early age. It is not an innate or internal thing, it’s a learned behavior.
The intersex thing is unrelated and everyone always brings it up when I talk about this, to try to deflect from the issue at hand.
Wanting to tell children about your genitals, or how to have sex, is something a person wouldn’t do unless they were attracted to children or wanted to coerce children into sex in some way. All trans people are guilty of that or supporting it.
“Protect trans kids” is a movement going around right now that shows that. Even famous celebrities are sharing information about it (virtue signaling of course but it’s shocking that something so openly pedophilic has gotten this mainstream)
But yet even THE MOST LIBERAL of news sources are saying people are giving hormones and surgeries to young kids. If even the side that’s supposed to support them is documenting this as shocking news, I don’t see how it could possibly be “not happening” I’m not learning this shit from Fox. I’m learning this straight from the source.
Does it not occur to you that I’m trying? My past posts involve me trying to amputate my genitalia so I can’t do bad things. I quit being trans for the sole reason that I thought trans people were pedos/normalized pedophilia and I wanted to distance myself from that as far as possible and fight against it.
“Why do you even contemplate this” because OCD makes you obsess over things you fear/hate the most. That’s why.
Yes I hit animals in the past.