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About me
I was born female and my deep discomfort started with puberty, as I hated the changes happening to my body. I found communities online that convinced me my pain meant I was trans, and I transitioned to male with hormones and surgery. I realized too late that I was trying to solve my mental health struggles and self-hatred by changing my body, which didn't work. I now deeply regret the permanent changes and mourn the fertility I lost. I am a woman again, working to accept myself and the body I altered.
My detransition story
My journey into and out of transition was a long and complicated one, rooted in a lot of confusion and pain that I didn't understand at the time. Looking back, I can see how my own struggles with mental health and low self-esteem played a huge part in everything.
I was born female, and I never felt like I fit in with other girls. Puberty was incredibly difficult for me; I hated the changes my body was going through, especially developing breasts. I felt uncomfortable and exposed. Around this time, I was also spending a lot of time online, and I found communities that seemed to have an answer for my discomfort: maybe I wasn't a girl. The idea was presented that if you didn't fit a very specific, almost cartoonish stereotype of femininity, you must be trans. I saw people online who, like me, had felt out of place, and they were celebrated for transitioning. It felt like an escape from the person I hated being.
I started to believe that my deep discomfort was a sign that I was born in the wrong body. I began to identify as non-binary first, and then later as a trans man. It felt like a solution. I thought that if I could just change my body to look more masculine, all that internal pain and self-hatred would go away. I was also struggling with depression and anxiety, and I now wonder if I am autistic, as many neurodivergent people seem to get swept up in this. I even worried that my obsessive thoughts about transition might be linked to OCD, that it was a fixation rather than a true identity.
I took testosterone for a period of time. It changed my voice and gave me facial hair. I pursued top surgery and had my breasts removed. I believed this was what I needed to be happy. For a little while, after the surgery, I did feel a sense of relief. It felt like I had solved the problem of a body part I hated.
But that relief was temporary. The underlying issues—the depression, the anxiety, the low self-esteem—were all still there. I had changed my body, but I hadn't fixed my mind. I started to realize that my hatred for my female body wasn't about being the wrong sex, but was more like a body dysmorphia, an intense discomfort that was amplified by the trauma of puberty and growing up. I began to see that a lot of young women, like me, fear growing into womanhood and see transition as a way to escape that.
I also started to question the whole ideology I had bought into. The trans community often reinforces the very sexist stereotypes that feminists have fought against for decades. It teaches that if you don't like dresses or want a career, you can't be a woman—you must be a man. Or that if you like things that are feminine, as a man, you must be a woman. It flips the script but keeps the same rigid boxes. It associates gender expression and roles with identity all over again. I realized I had been influenced into believing that to break a gender role, I had to change my entire identity.
I began to detransition. Stopping testosterone was a decision I made after a lot of painful self-reflection. I regret the permanent changes from hormones, like my deepened voice, and I deeply, deeply regret my top surgery. I am now infertile, and that is a profound loss that I have to live with every day. I mourn the body I had and the potential to have children that I gave up. My detransition wasn't prompted by any one thing, but by a slow dawning that I had been trying to solve a psychological problem with a physical solution.
My thoughts on gender now are that it is largely about stereotypes and social roles, not an internal identity. A woman is an adult human female, and she can be anything she wants to be—a mechanic, a CEO, feminine, masculine—without needing to change her body or identity. I benefited from stepping back from affirming therapy and instead focusing on why I felt such deep self-hatred and discomfort in the first place.
I don't identify as anything other than a woman now, a woman who has been through a lot. My sexuality has been confusing through all of this; I think I am probably bisexual, but it's hard to know after so much upheaval. I have serious regrets about my transition. I feel like I was sold a solution that caused more problems than it solved, and I am left dealing with the permanent consequences.
Here is a timeline of my journey:
Age | Event |
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13 | I started puberty and began to feel intense discomfort and hatred toward my developing breasts. |
16-17 | I spent a lot of time online and was influenced by trans communities. I began to identify as non-binary. |
18 | I started to identify as a trans man and began socially transitioning. |
19 | I started taking testosterone. |
21 | I got top surgery (double mastectomy). |
23 | I began to seriously question my transition and regret my surgery. I stopped taking testosterone. |
24 | I accepted that I was detransitioning and began to identify as a woman again. |
Top Comments by /u/Askonija:
Trans community works really hard to justify themselves by reducing cis-ness to absurd.
Oh, as a child you wore your
Hipocrisy level: cat as trophic
If someone is telling they are trans they are, there is zero chance of underlying psychological conditions, yet existence of transition regret is a fact (even though damage done to those does not matter) and detransitioners are chaos agents sent by Trump himself.
Honestly, the whole question is fundamentally flawed, because it is a very well disguised loaded question. The question implies an inherent binarity to personhood. And note I have not said anything about gender presentation. If you follow this question, you have to decide whether you are cis or trans, and then act accordingly.
The toxic trans activist community tries very hard to convince you that you have to either be cis and fall within stereotypical boundaries of your sex, or be trans and again assume attributes of the opposing gender. You yourself frame the question around surgeries as if that's the defining aspect of your personhood.
I want to encourage you to think about what and crucially if anything changes with different gender presentation. Does anything change if you wear a cute dress and makeup versus a baggy shirt and cargo pants? Social dynamics with strangers at best. It does not change who you are, peeling potatoes for dinner is totally agnostic to your presentation and when you grow out of being a teenager most things in your life are not social interactions. The only thing that is left is your self esteem, which should not depend on gender presentation.
You can look at this very sub. Way too often regret for permanent body modifications come from understanding that prior hatred to their bodies came from certain trauma of growing up. Many young women fear growing into women and dive into transition as a defense mechanism.
I would suggest exploring this topic via well focused self reflection, possibly with the help of a therapist. You have to first work with your fears that come with having breasts before you make the decision to permanently modify them.
I worry that this is all some weird obsession surrounding transition due to my OCD, and that I have been wrong this whole time.
Neurodivergent people are statistically more likely to seek help for and subsequently be diagnosed with gender incongruence. That's a fact.
This is a very good point to stop and reflect whether it's you or your OCD that wants to transition.
You almost hit the nail on its head. Trans movement is generally sexist af in the context of sex and gender and by extension anti-suffragist. Traditionally, stereotypically not only sex and gender were lumped together, but also gender and gender roles.
The core principles behind Sufragette movement were:
- Sex does not determine gender
- Gender roles are not / should not be rigid disjoint sets.
I other shallow words, a woman is free to become a blacksmith by trade and still be a feminine woman in other areas of life, a man is free to be a stay at home dad while still fixing a leaky roof. Later movements have brought the idea even further, leaving gender definitions much more fluid.
Trans movement generally flips the script, again associating gender expression and roles with identity. They don't explicitly say "only women wear dresses", but rather if you want to wear dresses you must be trans and (at least) imply that means coopting other aspects of femininity, to the point of sex reassignment. Anyone can be a woman as long as they are women descriptively. Of course there are more and less stereotypical views on manhood/womanhood, the community is too large for a single hive mind to dominate, however the general theme is highly uniform.