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About me
I was a sensitive kid, and I think being on the autism spectrum made everything feel more intense. I was encouraged by the adults around me to start testosterone at 14, which gave me a temporary high but caused permanent damage like baldness. I eventually realized I was living a dishonest life, trying to trick everyone including myself into thinking I was a man. Now, at 19, I've stopped hormones and feel angry at the medical system that profited from my vulnerability. I'm focusing on my job and building a real life, finally free from that web of lies.
My detransition story
My whole journey with transition started when I was really young and sensitive. I think I have a touch of autism, which made everything feel more intense. I was surrounded by people, including my ultra-liberal hippy mother, who never questioned what the medical professionals were telling us. They all just said "yes" to everything and profited from my transition through therapy, drugs, and medical procedures.
I took testosterone for five years. At first, it gave me a temporary feeling of euphoria and made me feel invincible and no longer self-conscious. It was like an antidepressant and steroids all in one. But the downsides were terrible. I got bad acne and, most permanently, I now have male-pattern baldness and hair loss that will never go away. I look back and don't know what I was thinking.
A big part of my experience was the dishonesty. Living as trans felt like I was playing a trick on the whole world, like I had a secret nobody knew. But I eventually realized that most people could probably tell I wasn't really a man. My whole life became a web of lies and misrepresentations. I even thought that straight women would have no problem dating me, a trans man, but I was wrong. That hypocrisy and the constant need to be sneaky to protect myself was exhausting. It's a terrible way to go through life and a terrible way to start relationships. Only after I detransitioned did I finally feel like I could be honest and authentic.
I never got top surgery. I'm so glad I didn't because my nipples are very sensitive and I love them. I think my subconscious mind knew what was best for me. I see now that the medical industry uses terms like "top surgery" to make young children more comfortable with the idea of permanent changes. I believe the whole system is driven by money; if these surgeries and treatments weren't so profitable, they might not even exist.
I've come to see the trans community I was in as a kind of cult, made up mostly of people with mental illness. I benefited from stepping away from my trans friends. The influence is powerful, and I needed to protect my own well-being first.
I don't really think about gender the same way anymore. For me, transitioning was an attempt to escape my own feelings and my problems, but it wasn't the answer. I have a lot of regrets, especially about the permanent changes from testosterone. I feel a lot of anger, but I'm trying to direct it outward toward the medical system that allowed me, as a young person, to make these life-altering decisions for profit, rather than beating myself up for choices I made as a vulnerable kid.
Now, I focus on my job and working out. Having a demanding job gives me structure and helps quiet the ruminating thoughts in my head. I'm trying to build a fulfilling life by focusing on different interests and activities.
| Age | Event |
|---|---|
| 14 | Started taking testosterone. |
| 19 | Stopped testosterone after 5 years. Realized I was living a lie and began to detransition. |
Top Comments by /u/Bicycle6844:
Looking back, it made be see the hypocrisy in my own transition. I used to think that straight women would have no problems dating a trans man. Was I wrong. I still went along with it for a while but between this hypocrisy and the misleading behavior, I was being dishonest both with myself and with others.
This is off topic but don’t you think that it’s odd that medical providers use the terms “top” and “bottom” surgery? I have to think that these terms were created to make young children more comfortable with the idea of “gender affirming care”- it’s a sick world driven by money and special interest groups.
I’m not sure about that. Males who took blockers then got off of them report multiple permanent problems such as low bone and muscle density and apparently small penile development. It’s not like you can pause puberty and restart it where you left off.
I learned that the medical industry is not your friend, and exists to make profits. If trans surgeries weren’t so profitable, would they even exist? Sometimes I wonder. Hopefully future lawsuits will put this to rest. I also learned that the trans community is a cult comprised mostly of people with mental illness.
There is no better motivation than this! A few pieces of clothes, a better job.. soon things will start to look up for you- when you look back you will realize this was a turning point in your life- you have to stay strong and focused. Better yourself, exercise, read, stay away from trans friends… soon you will be in a better place.
I would be protective of my own well-being first and foremost. The trans cult’s influence is very powerful. I would just throw the meds away and try to move on with your life. Part of that is disassociating from prior trans friends. It’s also technically illegal to give meds like that away.
I never had top surgery and my nipples are so sensitive that I’ve had orgasms from partners just sucking on them. So I love my nipples and don’t want a surgeon’s scalpel anywhere near them. I think that is the reason that I never ended up getting top surgery. Maybe my subconscious mind knew what was best for me. Once you fully remove your nipples there is no going back. Loss of sensitivity can also be regained over time. Good luck, I wish you the best.
The way I see it, if you have reached the age of majority 18+, you have to live by the adage that “choices have consequences”. If you are under 18, you should not be allowed to make life altering decisions like this. You should be made to wait until you are 18. Obviously the medical complex wants the age lowered since there is enormous profitability in the surgery, therapy, and drug regimens.
I am not butch, and although my body changed on T, I became and still am lean and muscular, more like a prepubescent boy or adult woman (which I am). The biggest affect T had on me was the good feels I got- like I was invincible. Was no longer self conscious. It was like an antidepressant and steroids all wrapped in one. Downsides sucked though. Acne. Hair loss. Etc..
Think about it from a different perspective. Many women have to undergo double mastectomies due to breast cancer or tumors. Obviously it’s a different situation, but these women still make a conscious choice about having it done and have the same feelings of inadequacy and regret afterwards. The point that I’m getting to is that these brave women have to push thru these difficult emotions and get to a point of acceptance. You can get there too. You are not alone, there are many women in your same situation. Find a way to get past the feelings of loss and regret. If you are a genuine person you will attract other genuine people into your life. One may become your partner. People should not best themselves over past mistakes, especially which were made when they were children. The blame lies with the medical establishment that allowed you as a minor child, to make these decisions. Take that for what it is, but a minor (under 18) is not allowed to enter into a contract as they are deemed to not have the capacity to do so. However somehow children are allowed to permanently mutilate their bodies. I don’t understand how is has come to this, other than the medical community putting profits first. Follow the money. They should be the target of your angst. The people who financially profited from your top surgery. You can sue them for damages and recover $$ and use it to partially reconstruct your breasts.