Honestly? Expect it to get even bigger, there's a lot of side effects and situations that are getting out of control, the gender rhetoric is getting extreme and the binary stronger than ever.

We don't have women who like to express themselves as masculine anymore, they're all transmen now, just as men who express femininity have to be transwomen.

Oh god...... So you're telling me there's hope? I really want to get that feeling back, but I'm completely terrified of detransitioning, I feel like I will lose all my friends and people will look at me like I'm a joke.

But I need those full body orgasms back, I can't carry on with this superficial feeling anymore.

There's no wrong way of being a woman, please don't believe that you're a man because you don't fit into the society idea of what a woman is. I'll be completely honest to you: I would do anything to go back to being a cis lesbian, even in if masculine, even if awkward looking. I used to think this too, that I'd be a way better man than everyone around me, but it took me so long, years even, thousands of dollars spent on T and surgeries, to realize that the reason I'd be better it's because I was a woman, I could recognize their behavior and be better than them because I wasn't a man. And now I feel stupid because everyone thinks I'm a man and they think I'm really good at it, but I don't even feel like one anymore, I don't want to be one, everything I admired in a man's body I already have it and I don't want it, I don't find myself in the mirror anymore and I feel sad that this idea that women have all to be femenine or they're men never allowed me to express as the type of woman that I am , but I feel like a woman and now it's harder because I have a beard, I have narrow hips and I have no breasts, but still I'm sure I am a woman and I won't let anyone try to correct me and tell me I don't look like one or I'm not doing it right because existing as you, and expressing yourself as you wish to, is never wrong, so if you want to transition do it because you really feel like it's who you are, if it's because the world is telling you that who you are right now is wrong, trust me, it's a mistake.

Exactly. I totally agree, I did know that I would get a bigger clitoris but I didn't expect it to feel like that, I thought it would be an amp version of the smaller one. I didn't have the complication of it resting outside of my clitoral hood, but my changes were significantly deeper, it went to the way I experience pleasure all together. There is nothing I can do physically to experience stronger sexual pleasure, and orgasms. So yes, if someone would have told me that I would get a small fraction of the pleasure I usually had, for the rest of my life, I wouldn't have done it, beard and deep voice isn't enough compensation to this unsatisfactory sexual life. Thank you for your comment and linking it to a known experience, I do hope it gets better for you, did you get any procedure or treatment for your condition?

I had no idea this existed and got curious and only took a couple of post at the very front of the detrans tag to notice that this is nothing but porn sick people, please don't confuse them with actual trans or even real detrans, most of the times they're not even that, but cis or transphobic ppl that fantasize constantly with converting them to the "cock cult", they do that a lot to lesbians and you see those men running accounts where they call themselves lesbians but have a kink to be converted into straight women. It's actually funny because most lesbians already engaged with men and penises and that made them realize their sexuality. Anyway, most of them are probably men, if they're really sick, deranged actual trans people, they're consuming and creating this content to self harm, pornography many times take the shape of your own fears, things that disgust you, etc and people use it as coping mechanism without even realizing, this usually happens when you get a distorted view of the world thanks to the porn itself, it really sucks that they use you as an object to get off but remember that tumblr is mostly sick people too out of touch with reality, they don't reflect who we are, and we're not proving them right by existing and detransitioning.

I appreciate your answer. Very straightforward, I prefer that.

I've always been somewhat fixated with my self image, and I'm completely aware it is going to fade, that age is going to come, but I'm in my 20s, I'd like to be a bit shallow for a bit and feel like an attractive person. That's why I'm starting to regret this so much since I'd be waaaaay more attractive as a woman (9/10) than I am as a man (6/10)

I don't want to give up and be like fuck it, because I know for a FACT that I'll look myself in the mirror and depression will come and strangle me. I can't give up and just accept to be ugly for the rest of my life, I just can't, I'm still too young, I need to at least get something.

And the reason those relationships felt way more authentic to me it's because at least back then I wasn't obsessing over my gender, I could focus on the good things, now I simply can't, everything is triggering, uncomfortable, and too complicated to enjoy the good things anymore.

I'm just tired of it ...

Thank you for your answer, and yes, it's like I thought it would be if I went off T. But I just really hate this, the high sex drive is a waste when the feeling is so underwhelming, and my mind constantly, every time, compares it to what I had before.

I totally get what you mean, but it's not a physical thing so much, it's not about how sensitive I am now, it's about how my body processes pleasure. It's just less intense and less satisfying, and whenever I bring this up in trans spaces people immediately goes to "it's not that bad" and I'm like... Maybe they're saying that to feel better with themselves? Which I used to do at first, hoping it would pass and I would get better, but I never did.

I'm sorry I'm just really sad about this, I'm aware it's something I won't get back, but it's all I want now.

After 7 years on T... I highly doubt I will get it back.

And I agree with you, it is most definitely related to how I process emotions now. It's also waaaaay less intense, I have a harder time feeling empathy for others, before posting here I haven't cried in... Idk, more than 2 years probably, I bottle everything up and most of the times I'm just imitating expressions instead of actually feeling them.

It's fucking terrifying and I feel so empty inside.

Maybe I should detransition after all... I can't imagine going much longer feeling like this, I really don't want it.

I think I went through the same thing but in the opposite way. I used to date and engage sexually with gay men (while presenting as a FTM man) and they made me feel like a guy too, which was the only reason I did it because I kinda hated everything else about it.

Now I'm dating a woman, and thinking how much I'd like to be a woman too and be in a simple, happy, lesbian relationship, I wish I could go back in time and remain a lesbian and then meet her.

All this time I didn't want a dick or get dicked down. I never really liked dicks at all 😭

Exactly, it's a misconception that I'm sure almost everyone has, bigger clit = better feeling. When you clit gets several inches big, it starts being the whole focus of your sex drive, you barely feel anything anywhere else, and it's concentrated but not even strong enough. And the feeling gets old very soon.

Before, I was able to orgasm from penetration or other types of stimulation, and it was like a whole symphony, I would feel it everywhere. I'm unable to do that now.