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Reddit user /u/Busy_Ice3392's Detransition Story

Transitioned: 13 -> Detransitioned: 18
female
low self-esteem
regrets transitioning
influenced online
influenced by friends
puberty discomfort
started as non-binary
only transitioned socially
heterosexual
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About me

I was a tomboy who felt awkward and never fit in with other girls, so I started dressing as a boy in my teens to escape the pressure. I got swept up in the idea that I must be trans because I didn't fit a feminine stereotype, and I identified as male for years. I finally realized my struggle wasn't with being female, but with hating myself and having no self-esteem. Letting go of that identity forced me to work on myself and I'm now finally embracing being a straight woman. I'm just glad I found my way out before making any permanent changes to my body.

My detransition story

Looking back on everything, my journey with gender was really a journey of trying to figure out who I was, and I got lost for a while. It all started when I was a teenager. I was a tomboy, really socially awkward, and I didn't fit in with the other girls my age. I was called a nerd and people called me gay a lot, which was confusing. Instead of dealing with that insecurity, I found it easier to just dress like a boy for pretty much all of my teen years. It felt like a way to avoid the pressure of trying to be pretty and compete with the Kardashian wannabes at my high school. Going through puberty was hard, and presenting as male felt like a shield.

Around 13, I started identifying as part of the LGBTQ+ community. It was like I used being gay or trans to rationalize why I felt weird and different, instead of just accepting that I was a weird and different person. I never felt I could relate to the stereotypes of a straight girl, and honestly, I didn't think I was pretty enough to be a girl, never mind a straight one. The influence from my friends and online was huge. At my middle and high school, it felt like entire friend groups were trans and even more were LGBTQ+. It was rampant. I remember watching one video, a trans timeline that was only a few minutes long, and it made me question if I was trans for weeks. This ideology was like a drug for insecure teenagers, especially girls.

For a while, I identified as non-binary and then as female-to-male. In the LGBTQ+ spaces I was in, being a masculine woman was portrayed as the only way to be strong and "cool." Femininity was seen as weak or shallow, so I didn't allow myself to accept that I might actually like some girly things. I even went through a phase where I was internally transphobic, thinking, "well if I can't transition, nobody can." I was really angry and confused.

Everything started to change when I was about 18. I stopped identifying as trans and had to face the fact that I really just hated myself and felt ugly and immature. All my issues weren't because I was born in the wrong body; they were because I had no self-esteem. Letting go of the trans identity forced me to actually work on myself. I got less depressed by just getting up, going out, working, and talking to people. Focusing on other people instead of obsessing over my identity did miracles for my depression.

It was like I had to go through the coming-of-age that most 13-year-old girls go through, but at 18. I started experimenting with makeup and bras, and I finally built up the confidence to wear a swimsuit after eight years of avoiding it. I realized that not fitting a mainstream stereotype didn't make me magically gay or trans. It just meant I had my own personality. I’m straight, and it’s frustrating that now when I tell people that, they don’t believe me because I don’t act like their idea of a straight woman.

I think a lot about how if I'd grown up in the 80s like my mom, I would have just been a tomboy in a crowd of tomboys and that would have been normal. I wouldn't have been labeled gay at 11 years old. Now, everything is so black and white—you’re either sexualized at 15 or you’re trans. I don't regret my social transition because it was a part of my path, but I do regret buying into the idea that I needed to change who I was to be happy. I'm glad I found my way out before making any permanent changes like taking hormones. My thoughts on gender now are that we've created a system where if you don't fit a traditional role, you feel you NEED to become the opposite sex, and I think that's a harmful narrative for confused kids. I just want young girls to know they're perfect as they are.

Here is a timeline of my journey based on what I remember:

Age Event
11-12 Started being called "gay" for being a tomboy and not fitting in with feminine girls.
13 Began identifying as part of the LGBTQ+ community, using it to explain feeling different.
13-17 Socially transitioned, identified as non-binary then as FTM. Dressed as a boy throughout high school.
18 Stopped identifying as trans. Realized my issues were from low self-esteem, not gender dysphoria.
18 Began a late "coming-of-age," exploring femininity like makeup and swimsuits, and accepted being a straight woman.

Top Comments by /u/Busy_Ice3392:

13 comments • Posting since April 27, 2025
Reddit user Busy_Ice3392 (desisted female) explains how social contagion and online videos led to widespread gender questioning in their school and workplace.
50 pointsJul 7, 2025
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Mate I have only a small idea but it is CRAZY. At my middle and high school it ran rampant where entire friend groups were trans and even more were lgbtq+, even at my job with the 20+ year olds.  One time I watched one VIDEO, a trans timeline that was like 3-5 minutes long, and it was enough to make me question if I was trans for weeks. This ideology is like a drug to insecure teenagers, and especially girls as I'm a girl and can really only speak for girls, although I see it a ton in guys now too. 

Reddit user Busy_Ice3392 (desisted female) explains that many young, straight girls she knew adopted a trans identity as a way to be "different," driven by alternative fashion, theatre, and the ideology that gender is a fluid social construct.
36 pointsJul 7, 2025
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I mean I'm not trying to generalize all of these people but a TON I knew as a teenager and in high school were just normal straight girls, maybe with an alternative fashion sense, a lot liked theatre and thus wanted to make a huge show and be "different." And like, I'm not saying it's a shallow thing because they are obviously very confused, but they buy into the ideology that your gender can be fluid and it's based on what you feel inside so if they like sports, then boom. They're a boy now. But since "gender is a social construct" they can identify as a boy but still be girly. A lot of these people are just very young and don't have fully developed brains yet, and hopefully they'll grow out of it before starting hormones.

Reddit user Busy_Ice3392 (desisted female) comments on the hypocrisy of the "rainbow squad" for promoting equality while belittling cisgender and heterosexual people, sharing her personal experience of being told she can't be straight because she isn't hyperfeminine.
20 pointsJul 8, 2025
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I find it so hypocritical that the rainbow squad says they want everyone to be equal, feel accepted, and have a safe space while actively making fun of or belitting anyone who is cisgender and heterosexual. It's like the reverse of what they were fighting for in the beginning. For instance, I was always called gay as a preteen and teenager because I wasn't hyperfeminine and liked sports and superheroes more than makeup and boys. I identified as LGBT for five years and now whenever I tell people I'm straight they go "there's no waaay you are so giving sapphic" or "you atleast like  girls a LITTLE bit"

Reddit user Busy_Ice3392 (desisted female) explains how labels for being trans, neurodivergent, or mentally ill are often adopted by teens as a tool to make sense of the confusion of adolescence.
14 pointsJul 7, 2025
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To respond to the first part of your comment, it being used to "explain" things is SO ACCURATE. It's so common too. Adolescence is so confusing, and labels help t(w)eens and young adults make sense of it all. And it stretches beyond trans to include mental illness labels, neurodivergence labels, and sexuality labels.

Reddit user Busy_Ice3392 (desisted female) comments on how modern gender perceptions differ from the past, explaining that in the 80s she would have been a normal tomboy, but today she was labeled gay at 11 and felt pressured to identify as trans.
10 pointsJul 7, 2025
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I frequently think about how if if grown up in the 80s like my mom I would've been just one tomboy in a whole crowd of tomboys, and that would've been normal. I wouldn't have been called gay at 11 or 12 years old and wouldn't have ever thought I was anything other than a girl and a straight girl at that. Now everything is so black and white- you're either sexualized at 15 or you're trans. 

Reddit user Busy_Ice3392 (desisted female) explains her past phase of internalized transphobia and her current conflicted views on transition, fearing medical harm and rejecting the narrative that non-traditional interests necessitate changing sex.
8 pointsApr 27, 2025
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I went through a "well if I can't transition, nobody can" phase a while back and would've been considered internally transphobic. Now, I don't really know how to feel about trans people. I don't want anybody to hurt themselves with experimental drugs or puberty blockers, and I also think transitioning pushes this narrative of "if I'm not a traditional girl/boy, I NEED to become the opposite sex to do/be the things I want."

Reddit user Busy_Ice3392 (desisted female) explains that the happiness some FTMs attribute to being in the "right body" on testosterone is a hormonal effect, and suggests focusing on self-acceptance and real-world engagement to overcome depression.
6 pointsApr 28, 2025
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A lot of ftms say T makes them happier, more satisfied, cry less, less suicidal, and they attribute that to meaning they're now in "the right body" when it's really just the hormones affect. I never took T but when I stopped identifying as trans and attributing all my issues to that, I had to face the fact that I really hated myself and felt ugly and immature, so maybe you're going through both. I have gotten less depressed through just getting up, going out, working, and talking to people. Doing stuff and focusing on other people really does miracles for depression. I hope you'll find a way to find happiness again, because a life without depending on medication or ideology is totally worth living.

Reddit user Busy_Ice3392 (desisted female) explains how alternative interests and fashion are now misread as signs of being queer, leading to confusion and unnecessary identity questioning.
5 pointsJul 8, 2025
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Yes yes yes, all true! Especially that last part- being nerdy and having alternative fashion would've been completely normal twenty years ago, but now it's a "surefire sign you're queer" and even had me confused for a loooong time, thinking I must be gay because I'm "so different." Like no lol. I just don't like crop tops and Instagram. I didnt know having a personality that was not mainstream made me magically into girls or was comorbid with gender dysphoria. And the worst part is that it's even more extreme for the younger generations. I was just barely old enough to have the sense to get out of that cult. I'd do anything to tell young girls that they're just perfect how they are and don't need to change a thing.

Reddit user Busy_Ice3392 (desisted female) explains her delayed coming-of-age experience after identifying as LGBTQ+ from age 13, describing learning about makeup, bras, and gaining the confidence to wear a swimsuit again at 18.
4 pointsJul 7, 2025
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As someone who identified as part of the LGBTQ+ community in some way or another since 13, I understand what OP is going through. It was as if I had to go through the coming-of-age most 13 year old girls go through at 18. I'm talking makeup, bras, actually building confidence to wearing a swimsuit after eight years, etc. 

Reddit user Busy_Ice3392 (desisted female) explains how social awkwardness and insecurity led her to socially transition as a teen to avoid competing with feminine beauty standards.
4 pointsJun 27, 2025
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I had very similar reasons for transitioning socially and identifying as nb/ftm as a teen. I was always a socially awkward tomboy who didn't fit in with other girls my age, was called a nerd all the time and called gay a lot, and so instead of addressing insecurity, I dressed like a boy for nearly all my teen years. It was almost easier to go through puberty that way than trying to be pretty and compete with the Kardashian wannabees in my old high school lol.