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About me
My whole journey with gender started because I never felt like a real man, especially after being bullied for being scrawny. I thought becoming a woman would be better than being a failed man, so I started taking estrogen. I quickly realized I was just trading one set of anxieties for another, constantly stressed about not looking feminine enough. Now, I'm off hormones but feel completely stuck, not fitting in as either a man or a woman. I hate my reflection no matter what I do, and I feel like I'll never figure this out.
My detransition story
My whole journey with gender has been confusing and painful. I was born male, and I never felt like I fit in. Puberty was especially hard for me. I used to have a beautiful singing voice when I was in the choir, and everyone complimented me. I seriously dreamed of being a professional singer. But when I turned 14, my voice changed and became the ugliest thing about me. That was a really difficult loss.
I was constantly bullied for being scrawny and having a baby face. I never felt like a real man and I felt like a complete failure at being male. I figured that being a woman had to be better than being a failed man. That thinking is what started my transition. I took estrogen hormones for a while. At first, it felt better because I was doing something, but that feeling didn't last. I realized I was just constantly worrying about whether I looked feminine enough, and it was way too stressful. I also came to believe that the mental changes people talk about are just a placebo effect. It's confirmation bias—you think you'll feel happy because you're becoming a woman, so for a little bit, you do.
A year after I started, I got off the hormones. But that didn't solve anything either. I'm never happy when I look in the mirror. I don't look like a real woman, and I don't look like a real man. I feel like a complete joke of a person regardless of what I do. I see men's advertisements and feel like I'm missing out on the man I could have become. But then when I try to present as male again, it feels wrong and I wish I could just be a woman. Every time I make a decision, I end up hating it and wanting to do the opposite.
I can't let go of all the bullying I experienced, and it still affects me today. I hate every aspect of myself. I still haven't figured this gender stuff out, and I don't think I ever will.
Here is a timeline of my journey:
| Age | Event |
|---|---|
| 14 | My voice changed during puberty, which was very distressing for me as I lost my singing voice. |
| Various | Endured constant bullying for being scrawny and having a baby face. |
| Adult | Started taking estrogen hormones. |
| Adult | Stopped taking hormones after one year due to the stress of trying to appear feminine. |
| Adult | Continued to struggle with my appearance and identity, feeling I don't fit as either gender. |
Top Comments by /u/ButterscotchKey5305:
I never felt like I deserved to call myself a male. I was constantly bullied for being scrawny and having a baby face, So I figured that being a woman was way better than being a failed male. I took hormones and felt better about myself for a little while but I realized that constantly worrying about looking fem enough was way to stressful. A year after transitioning I got off the hormones. I still haven’t figured out this gender stuff and I don’t think I ever will.
You’re absolutely right. I noticed absolutely zero change in my mental state after starting estrogen. It’s literally just a placebo affect. Anyone who uses those catchphrases are just experiencing confirmation bias. “I want to be a female. these hormones made me look like one, so now I am happy”
Yeah that’s basically me. I see mens advertisements and feel like I’m missing out on what I could’ve become. Yet when I get off hormones and present male It feels wrong and I wish I could just be a woman again . Everytime I make a decision I end up hating it and wanting to do the opposite.
I’m an amab. Puberty was so hard for me because I used to have the most beautiful singing voice in the choir. Everyone used to compliment me and I seriously had dreams of becoming a professional singer. Then I turned 14 and now my voice is the ugliest thing About me.
I’m never happy whenever I look at myself in the mirror and I’m a complete joke of a person regardless of my gender expression. I don’t look like a real woman, and I don’t look like a real man. I don’t feel like I fit either gender. I hate very aspect of myself and I just can’t let go of all the bullying I’ve experienced and continue to experience to this day.