If things are bothering you you are not obligated in any manner to keep consuming news that’s bad for your happiness. I had to cut way back on my news consumption and how online I was during the pandemic. Maybe you’d also benefit from similarly unplugging and being more a immersed in real life. It’s amazing how much less urgent things feel!

Women tend to turn to social resources for support more than men. This is true across issues at large. Tend and befriend responses and all that. It’s a major strength of women’s social patterns to seek support. Thus it only makes sense natal women who are detransitioning or questioning also seek like minded support, as they were both socialized and may have some degree of natural tendency to do. That’s not to say men or natal males can’t or shouldn’t seek social support, but for whatever reasons they do so at the rates women do. Also natal women appear to be the majority of the detrans community, for not so well understood reasons.

As long as you don’t go around telling people that they’re not who they identify as, I don’t think you’re doing anything wrong. You’re not transphobic for your private thoughts, or awareness of biology and the differences in the typical socialization of boys and girls in society,. In fact, you seem to extend an admirable amount of grace and understanding to the trans community.

Assuming a person is mentally disabled just because there are visible signs of physical disability is basically the definition of ableism. I scrolled through enough of the persons insta to see they have been involved in political activism on behalf of the disabled community. Doing that typically takes cognitive abilities. At any rate, a person’s mental capacity isn’t for you to speculate on.

Uhh, detransition will definitely not fix being sexist, or mental health issues, if those are your concerns. Considering yourself subhuman for…what to me sounds like worries about passing, and the omnipresent sexism everyone, including natal women, are brainwashed with by society isn’t some sort of crime, nor does it make you a monster. It just makes you human.

Tbr I think you need therapy for your OCD, your anger and social problems, and what to me sounds a lot like depression. If part of recovering from these leads you to decide to detransition, cool. If it doesn’t, meh. DeTransition isn’t a panacea. It just means you’d be presenting as a dude again, but with the same damn problems. To improve your problems, you have to specifically work on them, not just pretend they’ll go away if you change your gender presentation.

Medical necessity wasn’t even really a thing during the pandemic. People left cancer and heart attacks untreated due to lack of available care. Not because it wasn’t necessary—because they couldn’t get care. My physical health suffered severely due to inability to get chronic health issues treated. Conversely form what I’ve seen, many people felt able to try things out in private and try transitioning—or detransitioning. Particularly telehealth apps for HRT became a hit increasing ease of access to HRT without so much as leaving home, which is pretty questionable. ADHD apps with this model are being shut down due to inappropriate and dangerous prescribing practices. It will be interesting to see if the HRT apps survive.

There are no medications for gender dysphoria itself. However, managing related depression, anxiety, etc via SSRI antidepressants and therapy may be helpful. Also there’s no reason you can’t keep identifying how you already identify—you only have to stop hormone medications, per my understanding of your post? Depending on how long you were on hormones and/or how effective social transition ie voice training clothes hair makeup etc, are for you, your ability to pass may not even be impacted.

To set the record straight, “electroshock” electroconvulsive therapy is still considered standard of care in life-threatening highly suicidal depression especially with psychotic symptoms. It’s nothing like One Flew Over the Cuckoos Nest. No more than modern surgery is anything like battlefield surgeries in the 1800s with no anesthesia and no sterile instruments or antibiotics.

Aside from anything about transitioning or anything else: Do NOT try to do hormones or any other injection drugs on your own (or ideally any drugs.) Injecting illicit drugs is how people get roid rage or even poisoning from tainted drugs. If you do not get it at a licensed pharmacy, you have no way to know what is in it. This is an incredibly dangerous idea, do not do it.

That said all that about your being trans or not, well, I don’t know. You could be a masculine woman, maybe you are trans, maybe you’re not. I don’t really think your moms take on this matters that much. You know yourself best, and need to explore your identity for yourself. Your identity is not for her. But while dressing hair styles pronouns whatever, is all fine, do not attempt any sort of medical transition on your own. That’s dangerous, hands down. Be patient, be yourself however that feels best, and hang in there.

Whether you still feel you are trans at 18 or 25 or not, it will still get better than it is right now. Being a teenager sucks, and it’s fine to own that and acknowledge that.

Have you ever seen a person so psychotic they attempted to kill someone? Have you watched someone refuse medications and rapidly decompensate and attempt suicide? I have, up close and personal to both. There are absolutely cases where meds are necessary and 100% lifesaving. I lived it with major depression and would be fucking dead without psychedelic therapy and SSRIs. Have you ever reflected on the fact that humans have always had medicines, they just used to be simpler and less effective, and often far more toxic? They treated syphilis with mercury before pennicillin, and psychosis with trephanation, exorcism, chaining people in dungeons, institutionalization, uncontrollable electroconvulsive therapy and insulin shock therapy and lobotomy before we had antipsychotics. Antipsychotics are the sole reason deinstitutionalization did as well as it has. The major failing was the terrible lack of community mental health systems. Of course people need autonomy and say in their own treatment, it’s a human right, but spreading disinformation