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Reddit user /u/Crayon37's Detransition Story

Detransitioned: 25
male
low self-esteem
took hormones
regrets transitioning
trauma
influenced online
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About me

I'm a man who was bullied as a boy for not fitting in, and I thought becoming a woman was the answer to my deep unhappiness. I rushed into hormones, believing it would fix everything, and for a while, I was convinced it was right for me. I eventually realized my feelings of discomfort were the same as before, just in a different form, and I started to understand my past trauma played a huge role. I stopped hormones and now see that I needed therapy, not transition, to deal with my self-esteem issues. I have regrets about my permanent changes, and my biggest lesson is to tell others to question everything and move slowly.

My detransition story

My journey with gender has been a long and complicated one, and I’ve spent a lot of time thinking about it. Looking back, I can see how many different factors played a part. I never really fit in as a kid and was bullied a lot for not acting the way a boy was supposed to. That shame and punishment for being different stuck with me for a long time. When I first started exploring the idea of being trans, it felt like an answer to all that discomfort. I was so keen to rush into everything, to start hormones and live as a woman, because I thought it would finally make me feel right.

For a while, it did feel positive. I believed that transitioning was the only way to fix the deep unhappiness I felt. I saw other people talk about how their mental health improved, how their addictions got better, and I wanted that for myself. I thought that if I just changed my body, my life would fall into place. I used to give advice to other questioning people, telling them to explore their identity slowly, to trial a new name or different clothes, and to question themselves brutally honestly. I warned them about the whirlwind of rushing into medical steps. It’s funny, because I was giving that advice while I was still fully believing in my own transition.

But over time, I started to question things more. I began to realise that a lot of the negative feelings I had after starting to transition were similar to the feelings I had before – it was like I had just swapped one kind of dysphoria for another. I started to learn about how people with past trauma, like the bullying I experienced, can have identity problems. I had to admit that I might have been one of the people who was wrong about this path being for me. I made a lot of over-generalisations back then based on my own limited view, and I’m trying to be more careful now.

I don't think there's one simple reason for why I transitioned. It was a mix of that early bullying, a deep-seated low self-esteem, and a desire to escape from the person I was. I was guilty of prioritising rationality over my own emotions for a long time. I got caught up in the idea and rushed forward without doing the hard work of figuring out if it was truly necessary for me to live a fulfilled life.

Now, my thoughts on gender are that it's incredibly complex. Trans people exist, that's clear from the people who genuinely benefit from transition. But detransitioned people like me also exist, and we show that you can be wrong. The most important thing is to take your time. There's no harm in social experimentation, but the medical steps are serious and permanent. I have regrets about how quickly I moved and that I didn't question my own motivations deeply enough before making irreversible changes. I think I needed extensive therapy to deal with my past before I ever considered medical transition.

I’ve benefited from stepping back and being more skeptical of my own ideas. It’s okay to get things wrong; I used to be against gay marriage when I was younger, so I know people can change their minds. The key is to be honest with yourself.

Here is a timeline of my journey based on what I remember:

Age Event
Childhood Experienced bullying and punishment for gender non-conforming behaviour. Felt deep shame and discomfort.
Late Teens / Early 20s Began exploring transgender identity. Felt a strong urge to rush into medical transition.
22 Started living as a woman and began hormone therapy. Initially felt it was a positive change.
24 Began to seriously question my transition. Realised my post-transition feelings mirrored my pre-transition unhappiness.
25 Stopped hormone therapy and began the process of detransition. Started to understand the role of past trauma and low self-esteem.

Top Comments by /u/Crayon37:

7 comments • Posting since April 25, 2019
Reddit user Crayon37 explains why they unsubscribed from Arielle Scarcella years ago, calling her "the worst" for commenting on topics she knows nothing about and refusing to give her views.
19 pointsMay 6, 2019
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Arielle is literally the worst, always piping up about what she knows nothing about. I unsubscribed years a go and refuse to click on even the most clickbaity stuff because I don't want to give her views. I'm sorry she's now targeting you as well.

Also which Ryan is this?

Reddit user Crayon37 comments on a detransitioner's story, arguing it's an outlier and that most trans people face bullying for gender non-conformity, not affirmation, and experience health improvements after transition.
12 pointsApr 25, 2019
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This is interesting, but I think he is extrapolating too much from his own experience. This doesn't account for the fact that most transgender people will have not faced affirmation for gender non-conforming behaviour as a child, in fact most will have faced bullying, shame and punishment for gender non-conforming behaviour, but that persists into adulthood. Also, most transgender people have not experienced sexual abuse as a child. On top of this, the negative feelings this man describes for when he had transitioned, sounds a lot like gender dysphoria that he induced in himself by transitioning. Most transgender people go through positive changes after transitioning such as a reduction in migraines, psychosis, addiction or other health issues. Further to this, most people will be intensively questioned on their transition when they first come out, having many refuse to use the chosen name and asking them why they are doing it an warning them of regret and infertility. It really sounds to me like this man was unfortunate enough to get caught up in something that didn't apply to him, and just highlights that people with severe trauma in their past may have identity problems, so shouldn't be allowed to transition until they have had extensive medical consultation.

Reddit user Crayon37 comments on a confused MTF post, explaining that successful transitions prove trans people exist while detransitioners show you can be wrong, and advises self-reflection, therapy, and experimenting with expression to find the right path.
6 pointsApr 28, 2019
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The countless individuals who've seen a drastic improvement in mental (and physical sometimes) health following transition prove the existence of trans women. The detransitioned men and people who transition and suddenly have a mental breakdown or later regret it are evidence that you can be wrong about whether this path is for you. Trans people exist, take your time and don't rush into anything and you'll work out whether this is the right thing for you. There's no harm in trialling a different name, experimenting with your appearance and expression and continuing your therapy, it's important you find out what is necessary for you to live a fulfilled life.

Do you feel dysphoria about your body? Do you think this could just be desires to have gender non-conforming behaviours? How does the thought of living as a man make you feel? Question yourself, brutally honestly, and do what you think is best for you.

Reddit user Crayon37 comments on the temptation to rush transition, reflecting on their own past mistakes and the importance of taking time with complex decisions.
5 pointsApr 25, 2019
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Thanks for the reply, I'll keep this all in mind. It's good to be skeptical of our own ideas, hell when I was a kid I was against gay marriage, sometimes we just get shit wrong. I think I'm probably guilty of the "rationality over emotion", so it's interesting to think about. Overall I think it's so tempting to rush with transition, I know I was so keen to do everything immediately but that is how the whirlwind happens, I think. Really we've all got to take our time as these concepts are complex as hell. Cheers for your thoughts.

Reddit user Crayon37 explains their perspective as a trans person seeking to understand detransition stories to better advise questioning individuals, asking for guidance on how to help them explore their identity safely.
3 pointsApr 25, 2019
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So I'm trans and not really questioning my transition at all but I just wanted to learn more about people who detransition because I feel that a lot of the trans community try and silence you out of fear or whatever. Anyway your video was really interesting so thanks for sharing your story, it sounds like an awful lot to go through. Honestly, I can relate to a lot of your emotional issues after transitioning as things I felt before transitioning, which is interesting. I sometimes find myself in a position where questioning people come to me for advice and I normally give them my own 2 cents and send them to charity websites which remain informative rather than full of scaremongering or sensationalising transitioning or not transitioning. I prefer not to send them to individual's opinions. What do you think I could say to these people to help them explore their identity and prevent others going through what you have?

Reddit user Crayon37 explains that their comment on a confused MTF post was not implying one can change sex or that gendered brains exist, and urges the other user to stop overcomplicating the semantics.
3 pointsApr 28, 2019
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You're getting bogged down in the semantics, I never implied that someone can change their sex or that people have 'man brains' or 'women brains'. You're just massively overcomplicating this and I'm not sure why? Nothing I've said actively disagrees with you, chill.

Reddit user Crayon37 explains their comment was an ignorant generalization, asks for a more chilled discussion to avoid being pushed away from the cause, and calls for unity as a sub of minority opinions.
3 pointsApr 28, 2019
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I made an over generalisation based on ignorance, which is poor behaviour you're right but, like I said, I'm learning. Having a go at me whilst I'm asking questions is just going to push me further from your cause and it'd be nice if we could have a more chilled discussion when you've got a problem with something I've said. I think most of us in this sub want the same things even if we're coming from different opinions/angles/experiences. We're all minority opinions here so let's not get at eachother's throats, right?