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About me
From a young age, I saw myself as a boy and felt miserable being a girl, which I now understand was a form of escapism from trauma. I was put on testosterone by a major clinic after identifying as trans, but years later, I realized it all felt like an elaborate game of pretend. When I told my therapist I regretted it and was just a woman, I was immediately dropped from treatment and the study. I deeply regret taking hormones and wish I had been encouraged to deal with my underlying trauma instead. Now, I am living as a woman, understanding that my feelings were not about my true identity.
My detransition story
My whole journey with this started when I was a kid. I saw myself as a boy from a young age. Every character I created to represent myself was a boy. I was miserable whenever anyone referred to me as a girl or a woman. I just couldn't imagine a future where I grew up to be a woman. Looking back, I think a lot of this was tied to childhood trauma and some really unhealthy family dynamics. I was resenting and denying my sex instead of dealing with the real reasons I felt that way. It was a form of escapism.
When I got older, these feelings got stronger, especially during puberty. I hated the changes. Like a lot of girls, I hated my developing breasts. I now think the "euphoria" I felt when people mistook me for a boy was less about being seen correctly and more about what I'd call a duper's delight—a thrill from successfully fooling people.
I ended up identifying as trans and started seeing a gender therapist. This therapist was the head of the biggest transgender clinic in my country. I was put on testosterone and was part of a Europe-wide study they were running. I was on those hormones for years. But after a while, I started to have serious doubts. I began to think that being trans felt like an elaborate game of pretend. I realised I might just be a woman and that I shouldn't have been put on hormones.
When I finally worked up the courage to tell my therapist this, the "treatment" stopped immediately. I was dropped from the study and was never contacted for the follow-up. When I tried to get an explanation, they called security on me. It felt like they had no interest in hearing from someone who regretted it. Their entire career is built on this, so why would they want to report on regret?
I don't believe gender is a feeling. I think the fundamental difference is biological sex—your reproductive parts. Animals know the difference between male and female instinctively. I believe humans have started to pretend not to know what sex is anymore. For me, identifying as a man was a way to avoid dealing with my underlying issues, like low self-esteem and the effects of trauma.
I definitely have regrets about transitioning. I regret taking testosterone for years. I regret being part of a system that seems to encourage people to play pretend instead of asking the hard questions about why they feel the way they do. I think if I had been encouraged to explore my trauma and family issues instead of being fast-tracked onto hormones, my life would be very different now.
Here is a timeline of the main events:
My Age | Event |
---|---|
Early Childhood | Started to "see myself as a boy." Felt misery at being called a girl. |
Puberty | Felt intense discomfort and hated my developing body. |
Young Adulthood (exact age not specified) | Began identifying as transgender. Started seeing a gender therapist and was prescribed testosterone. Enrolled in a medical study. |
After several years of hormones | Began to realise it felt like "playing pretend." Told my therapist I believed I was just a woman and regretted hormones. |
Shortly after | Was immediately dropped from therapy and the study. Never contacted for follow-up. |
Present Day | Living as a detransitioned woman, understanding that my feelings were related to trauma and escapism, not an innate identity. |
Top Comments by /u/Crocheted-tiger:
Non-binary people don‘t even create their own stereotypes, their identity just boils down to the rejection of (in most cases female) sterotypes.
You have gasp short hair and like to wear baggy clothes? You are not a woman anymore, you are ✨nonbinary✨.
First off I don’t think it’s noticable, and second, even if it was (and I can’t Imagine how that would be the case), people with a healthy sense of shame will think to themselves that they shouldn‘t stare at other peoples‘ crotches so long that they would notice anything like that in the first place, lol.
You left out one very important part of what OP said though.
The fundamental difference between genders is their reproductive part.
And that’s where „self-identification“ has no meaning at all. I can identify as a cat when I like to sleep 18 hours a day all I want, but I will most definitely never be the mother of a bunch of kittens, lol.
And I‘d disagree that most ftms were conventionally feminine as kids (the Tomboy to ftm pipeline is real) and I really doubt most mtfs were conventionally masculine as kids. Why else would they not want to
be men as they get older. That’s kind of the problem with the trans movement; just because you are „feminine“ this or „masculine“ that, doesn’t change the fact that you are either a girl or a boy.
It’s not only that the trans people lie; in my case I was part of an europe-wide study, when I told my gender „therapist“, (who is also the head of the biggest transgender clinic in my country and calls himself a scientist and researcher) that trans feels like playing pretend, that I might just be a woman and maybe shouldn‘t have been put on hormones, they dropped me immediately. When I wanted an explanation for this sudden end of supposed trustworthy medical care, they called security on me. lol
And of course they simply never contacted me for the follow up of the study I was in.
That’s one way to get a low regret rate for the treatment you built your whole career on I guess!
Right, that’s why if you had to repopulate earth after the acopalypse, you would use a man and a transwoman for that. Oh wait…
Animals differentiate males from females instinctively, only humans started to pretend to not know what sex is anymore and that it was „a social construct“ as per the last decade.
So first they claim „it’s illegal and no one is doing it to youths!“, then someone who was a youth speaks up, directly proving them wrong, so they say „it was yOuR cHoIcE, tough luck lol“, and after that, all they can come up with in response to their hypocrisy is „Sorry it didn’t work out for you 🥺“, performing some kind of pretentious and patronizing pity.
It always goes like that, like they are reading from some ideological script.
Some things:
i am a boy
What is „a boy“ to you?
i still feel like a boy
How would you know what it „feels like“ to be a boy if you were born a girl? (Also, you are 24 years old…)
how do i become a girl?
Be born with a vagina, BOOM done.
You became aware of yourself there at 5. As we get older though, we develop egos, and with that, create narratives about ourselves that are often not true.
Every girl hates puberty by the way.
The euphoria you feel when people mistake you for a man could just be called duper’s delight.
I‘m sure I‘m a boy
considering my annoyance at being mistaken for a boy
mistaken for a boy
I mean, there you have it.
First off I don’t have any studies! 🙂
I‘ve heard from another detrans woman that she knew a woman who died from complications with a metoidioplasty. Anecdotal of course.
Just want to say I think any studies like that will not be published (or be done, really) in the next 5-10 years. I told my „gender therapist“ that I‘m not trans, they never contacted me for the follow up for the study I was in.
And that’s just the „people feel better when they do this“ narrative, I can’t imagine what it would take for doctors to do a „this might kill people in the long run“ study. lol
Either way, would you think it’s healthy, when a female is given male hormones?
I was the same and said exactly those things. Turns out childhood trauma and/or unhealthy family dynamics can lead to children resenting and denying their sex. (The same thing can also lead to grown adults imagining themselves being „a boy“ or „a girl“ at 24+ years old, funnily enough.)
A girl thinking she is a boy has reasons, her actually not being a girl is not one of them though.
every character i made to represent myself was a boy
What do you mean with that? How was a character a boy while representing you, a girl? Chances are you drew a figure with short hair and cool clothes.
i was miserable every time i was referred to as a girl or a woman
When you don‘t like to be referred to as what you are, the solution is to ask yourself why you have this reaction, not denying reality.
i can‘t imagine a world in which i grow to be a woman.
Why not?