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The user's language is highly emotional, anecdotal, and opinionated, which is consistent with a passionate detransitioner/desister. They reference personal experiences (transitioning 2013-2016), use niche community slang ("AGP hon"), and offer specific, albeit strong, advice on medical and psychological matters. The tone is aggressive and resentful, which aligns with the warning about the harm and stigma this group often faces. The comments show a consistent, if extreme, perspective over time.
About me
I started transitioning as a lost teenager from a normal suburban home, searching for an identity. My journey was heavily influenced by online communities and a porn addiction that sexualized my insecurities. I took estrogen for years, which I now believe severely impacted my natural male motivation and psychology. I regret the entire process and the life-altering medical decisions I made. Now, I am living as a male again and focusing on practical health and moving forward.
My detransition story
My whole journey with this started because I felt like I had a really weak sense of self. I grew up in a normal, suburban Catholic home; it wasn't oppressive at all. But I still felt lost and I gravitated towards groups and ideas that promised to give me an identity. That’s how I got sucked into the trans thing.
Looking back, I see how naive I was. I remember reading a book by a famous trans author when I was 19, having a discussion with a transgender man named "Bear." At the time, I thought it was so fierce and fresh, like they were breaking down the gender binary. Now, I just think that author is an old AGP hon and "Bear" is a silly name. It’s embarrassing to realize how dumb teenagers and college kids can be, myself included.
A huge part of this for me was related to porn and my own insecurities. I believe porn today is a form of trauma in itself. There are entire genres designed to attack your masculinity and make you sexualize your deepest insecurities. For me, this fed into autogynephilia (AGP). Porn is a massive gateway for that. It’s not the only cause, but it pushes you into more and more extreme content. I despise the creators who make that stuff; they’re degenerates who never stop to think about the 12-year-old boys who might find their messed-up sissy hypno porn.
I took estrogen for a few years, from around 2013 to 2016. It really changed my motivation. Estrogen lowers your emotional need for competition and success; it’s a de-motivator for males. But I’ve learned that obsessing over how you “feel” day-to-day is a terrible way to figure out your life. How you feel on or off hormones doesn’t determine if you’ve made the right choice or will have a satisfying life. That whole idea is pseudo-scientific bullshit soaked in placebo effects.
I also have strong opinions about medical interventions, especially for young people. The idea that puberty blockers are reversible for males is a complete joke. How many women want to be with a man who has a shrunken, three-inch penis? Having a micro-penis is close to a deformity in terms of how it psychologically affects the average man, unless you have no interest in sex or dating. It’s not reversible. It’s life-altering.
I don’t really get along with the broader LGBT community, especially the extreme leftism that seems to go with it now. I listen to leftist YouTube channels and find their opinions to be completely out of touch with human nature. When I was transitioning, trans people seemed much less political. Now, it feels like everyone is an activist going on CNN and embarrassing everyone else. I was in trans support groups and remember one kid who was a huge AGP spazz; I still can't stand that guy. I have a generic hate for a lot of trans people, but it’s more that I hate people who seem ignorant of themselves and the realities of the world around them.
Now that I’ve detransitioned, my advice to others is practical. If you’re a male who’s stopped hormones and is worried about your body, go get a panel from your doctor that includes testosterone levels. Unless you just quit, then give it time—a few months. Your balls returning to their natural size is a good sign things are progressing. And if you have a porn addiction, the best way to train your body away from it is to have real sex. It reduces the anxiety and insecurity that porn addiction creates.
My thoughts on gender now are that it was all an escape for me, a way to find an identity when I felt I had none. I regret my transition. I fell for an ideology that promised answers but only caused more confusion and damage. I benefited from stepping away from affirming therapy and looking at things more critically.
Here is a timeline of my transition and detransition events:
| Age | Event |
|---|---|
| 19 | Started identifying as trans after being influenced by books and online communities. Began taking estrogen. |
| 19-22 | Lived as a transgender woman from approximately 2013 to 2016. |
| 22 | Stopped taking estrogen and began the process of detransitioning. |
| Now | Living as a male again and dealing with the aftermath of my decisions. |
Top Comments by /u/Dense_Indication_822:
Its fucking hilarious to me that idiots claim puberty blockers are "reversible" for males. Ya how many women like fucking men with 3 inch shrunken penises.
Having a micro penis is pretty much one of the worst things in the world for a human, close to a deformity in terms of how it would effect the average male psychologically. Unless you just aren't interested in sex or dating.
But ya "reversible". Ok.
Yea estrogen lowers your emotional need for competition and success. It did for me. Estrogen is a de-motivator for males.
No one can tell you what you should do. Obsessing about how you "feel" day to day is not necessarily the best way to figure out your goals in life and what can give you a satisfying life.
How you "feel" on and off HRT is not going to determine if you have a satisfying life or "made the right choice". Confirmation through hormones is pseudo-scientific bullshit inundated in placebo and idiotism.
My advice would be to go get a panel that includes testosterone levels from your primary care doctor.
Unless you just recently quit, in which case give it more time, a few months. Your balls returning to natural size is one sign that things are progressing well.
There are degrees to it. Just like cuckholding non-sense.
Personally I despise the content creators, I think they are the worst people. I really think they are the definition of degenerate. They feel the need to involve others in their fetish and make content for the next generation. THey never think the 12 year old boy is going to watch their fucked up sissy hypo porn.
I definitely have some generic hate for a significant amount of trans people. But its more that I hate people that I feel are ignorant of themselves, and the realities of the whats going on around them.
TBH, I never got on bored with the extreme leftism that is exhibited by LGBT people. I listen to all the leftist youtube channels, and find their opinions to be retarded and often ignore human nature.
I remember being in trans support groups, and there was one kid who was just a fucking spazz, huge agp, spazz. I still hate that guy.
But tbh I think when I was transitioning in 2013-2016 trans people seemed much less political. Now all these trannies go on CNN and embarrass everyone, they are all "activists".
I remember reading a book, but one of the trans authors that gets a lot of praise, I forgot their name, but the book was them having a discussion with "bear" a transgender man. When I read this at the age of 19... it seems refreshing and inspiring. How fierce, how fresh, breaking down the gender binary!
Now looking back I think that the author is just old AGP hon and "bear" is a silly ass name for a transgender man. A lot of my memories are like this. Teenagers and college kids are retarded.
Porn these days is trauma in and of itself. There are porn videos of every conceivable genre that try to attack you get you to sexual your insecurity. And there are addicts constantly pushing the boundaries making more and more extreme content.
I agree with you that AGP does not require porn. Porn is definitely a huge gateway for agp in 2022.
There are even entire genres dedicated to "turning you gay" and basically assaulting your masculinity and insecurity over and over again while splicing in sexually erotic images of sex.
Thats rough. If it makes you feel any better, I also had a lost identity as a young person and gravitated towards things and groups that would help define myself. Got sucked into the trans thing.
That all despite having a normal suburban catholic upbringing without an oppressive home life. It can happen to anyone. And I think its more related to the strength of our identities than upbringing. People with weak identities get pulled into things like this more easily.
Don't listen to these ex-FtMs about dating and gender and porn addiction and what men should do about it. They don't get it lmao.
Also if you have a porn addiction, having sex in real life is the best way to train your body and neuro pathways away from porn and reduce your anxiety and insecurity when it comes to sex that porn addiction creates.