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- A consistent, highly emotional, and personal narrative of medical detransition.
- Specific, plausible medical details (e.g., hormone levels, Dutch tests, timelines).
- A coherent and evolving worldview that engages with different sub-topics (medical harm, therapy, community aversion, parenting advice).
- A writing style with natural variations in tone, use of emojis, and casual language.
The passion and anger expressed are consistent with the experiences of many detransitioners and do not in themselves indicate inauthenticity.
About me
I started questioning my gender after a trauma left me feeling completely detached from myself. My therapist, who was trans, dismissed my doubts and pushed me to start testosterone, even though my gut told me it was wrong. I was on it for six months and it ruined my health, leaving me with severe chronic pain. I’ve been off it for a while now and my body is slowly healing, but I’m forever changed. I deeply regret not trusting my own instinct to protect my natural female body.
My detransition story
My whole journey with this started because I was in a really bad place. I had gone through a severe trauma that left me feeling completely detached from myself and my life. I was dissociated and just trying to survive. Around that time, I got really involved in online communities and had friends who were transitioning. I started to think that maybe my deep discomfort was because I was supposed to be a man. I now believe I was just looking for an answer, any answer, to why I felt so terrible, and transitioning seemed like an escape from the pain.
I told my therapist about my doubts. I told them point blank that I thought my feelings might be from trauma and that I liked my body the way it was. But they were trans themself and they wrote off everything I said as "internalized transphobia." They pushed me really hard to "try" testosterone, even when I expressed that I didn't think it was for me. It felt like they were projecting their own stuff onto me, almost like they were jealous and wanted me to change my body like they had.
I ignored my own gut feeling, that deep survival instinct that was screaming at me that messing with my hormones and amputating body parts wasn't a healthy thing to do. I was convinced that this feeling was something bad that I had to overcome, but now I see it was my body trying to protect me. I feel like I was gaslit into believing something I knew, on a visceral level, was wrong.
I was on testosterone for six months. My levels got past 900, which is really high. Nobody informed me about the massive health risks. It completely ruined my hormonal balance and now I have severe chronic pain. Every day I wake up feeling like I got run over by a bus. My body is forever changed because of them. I lost a lot of hair and it hasn't grown back much yet.
After about five months off testosterone, I just started to feel a little better. The changes are reverting in the order they appeared. I thought I’d never be pretty again, but as my hormones are rebalancing, things are slowly improving. I’ve learned that hormone levels are all relative to each other. I have low estrogen, but I'm still estrogen-dominant, and that imbalance causes a lot of problems. I’d recommend anyone to get a Dutch test to see their levels properly, instead of jumping on massive doses of cross-sex hormones.
I deeply regret transitioning. It ruined my life and my health. I have an aversion to a large part of the queer community now because I feel like it's a positive, natural instinct that protects me. I got harmed by people in that community who encouraged me to do this, so my aversion was correct all along. I dislike therapy culture intensely after being in therapy for ten years; I feel better equipped to handle my own issues than most therapists.
My thoughts on gender now are that you should be able to dress and act however you wish in the body you're born into. It's better to be healthy in your natural body than to be ill in one that's been hormonally and surgically altered. I think for kids, it's best to let them dress how they want but explain the reality of their sex so they understand they can be a girly boy or a masculine girl, and to avoid the "trans pipeline" that doctors and therapists can push them onto.
I also struggled with what I now recognize was overthinking and OCD-type thinking, looking for clues and answers where there were none. My biggest advice is to never make a decision to transition while you are actively being abused or recovering from trauma. Your perspective can change dramatically once you're safe and have healed.
Here is a timeline of my journey:
| Age | Event |
|---|---|
| 25 | Went through a severe traumatic event that led to dissociation and depression. |
| 26 | Began questioning my gender, influenced by online communities and friends. |
| 26 | Therapist dismissed my doubts as "internalized transphobia" and pushed me to start testosterone. |
| 26 | Started testosterone injections, ignoring strong gut feelings against it. |
| 26-27 | Was on testosterone for 6 months; levels exceeded 900. Developed severe health issues. |
| 27 | Stopped testosterone after continued doubts and worsening health. |
| 27 (5 months off T) | Began to feel slightly better as hormones started to rebalance. Chronic pain persisted. |
Top Comments by /u/Dismal_Plant_8360:
Maybe you should listen to your gut. I had this feeling and ignored it and doing so ruined my life. Now the disgust and aversion I feel towards 80% of the queer community is a positive, natural instinct that I experience. I don't need to be happy about people who are mentally ill harming themselves.
I find this post to be highly accurate. I have witnessed these things countless times in trans people and the community. I was concerned about these things within myself and expressed them to my therapist who wrote them off as “internalized transphobia”. What a load of shit. They were trans their self. I should have known better. I kept saying I think this is just from trauma, etc etc, and they told me it wasn’t. I fucking hate the trans community.
My go to would be: let your child dress and act how they wish. But maybe it’s best to explain to them the reality of their sex and make sure they understand they can be the most girly boy ever. I only say this so you may try to avoid the “trans pipeline” that once someone is on.. it can be very difficult to get off. And many doctors and therapists will try to out your child on that pipeline claiming it is best for them. But as detransitioners will tell you, it’s better to be healthy in the body you’re born into and present however you wish, than to be ill in a body that has been hormonal and surgically altered. Obviously, some people require transition. However, your child is way too young to know that and it’s best to teach them the physical realities of life so they may make that decision for themself one day.
Thank you. I expressed so many doubts, I can’t believe they still pushed me to “try” T. I told them, point blank, T wasn’t for me and they still told me to try it. When I was on it and I expressed doubts, they encouraged me to continue, multiple times. My body is forever changed because of them. I told them so many times that I liked my body the way it was. It’s as if they were jealous and wanted me to destroy myself like they felt they did themself.
This is painful to read and deeply misogynistic. There are women only chess leagues because women were not —allowed— to join men’s leagues so they had to have their own. It has nothing to do with women being less intelligent than men. And as for Mozart and Tesla. Women during those time periods were expected to be quiet, get married to benefit the family political position, and pop out as many babies as possible. Women were not allowed to work. They were not allowed to vote. They often were not allowed to be educated. You need to very seriously review the history of how women have been treated over the centuries. There is no excuse for misogyny like this, especially as a woman yourself.
Right. I have an aversion towards heroin users, drunks, homeless people, etc, etc because having said aversion PROTECTS me. It keeps me safer in a world where many people will harm you if they have the chance. And guess what, I definitely got harmed by queer people so apparently my aversion all along was correct. Don't ignore your feelings. They are there to keep you safe and sane.
I feel like I outright ignored this survival instinct because I was told it’s “internalized transphobia”. No. It’s more like a knowing that messing with hormones to that degree and amputating body parts is not a healthy human thing to do. I wish I had listened to my gut and didn’t try to change my perspective. This I what cults do as well. Try try to gaslight you into believing things you know are wrong, things you know are wrong to such a degree you have a visceral response to them.
I’m so sorry. I also was not informed even in the slightest about the massive health risks associated with T. I am now in severe chronic pain because of my hormone imbalance I am trying to remedy. Every day I wake up feeling like I got ran over by a bus.
You likely have a hormonal imbalance that can be addressed with minuscule amounts of HRT and not the obscene amount for trans-HRT. Take a Dutch test on day 22 of your cycle with a doctor who can interpret the results. This will show if you are estrogen-dominant etc. Hormone levels are all relative to each other. For instance, I have low estrogen, yet I am estrogen-dominant. It causes me all kinds of negative symptoms. However, testosterone ruined my life. Don't ruin your life. Find someone who can help you with your hormones... for your body.
Oh I sent a lengthy, play by play, calling out to said therapist. I made sure they knew exactly what they were externalizing or projecting onto me and how it was their shit and not mine. So that’s good!
I’m sorry you’ve had similar experiences. I dislike therapy culture quite a lot after being in therapy for 10 years total, on and off. I am better equipped to deal with my stuff than 99.999999% or other people 😆 I just wish I had believed that a lot myself about 7 years sooner.. oh well. We live, we learn. I hope you find some peace and better people in your life too.