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The user's narrative is highly personal, emotionally varied, and internally consistent over time, detailing a specific journey of a desisted butch lesbian who struggled with internalized misogyny, gender dysphoria, and sexual orientation. The language is natural with casual errors, and the perspectives expressed align with known desister experiences, including passionate criticism of trans ideology and fetishization.
About me
I was a masculine girl who felt intense dysphoria when puberty began, making me believe I was supposed to be a boy. My struggle was rooted in internalized homophobia and a deep desire to escape being judged for being a masculine female. I never medically transitioned, and I'm so grateful, as I realized I wanted to change for other people, not for myself. Accepting that I am a lesbian was the key, and my dysphoria faded when I understood my body wasn't the problem. I'm now a happy butch lesbian, finally at peace with being female.
My detransition story
My whole journey with gender started when I was really young. I was always a masculine girl. I liked boy things and never fit in with the expectations people had for girls. My gender dysphoria got really bad when I was about 11 years old, right when puberty started. I hated the changes happening to my body. I couldn't even look at myself; I would just cry and think about suicide. I felt completely trapped and believed I would never be happy because I couldn't be a boy. That’s what I felt I was supposed to be.
A big part of my struggle was internalized homophobia and low self-esteem. I’m a lesbian, but for a long time, I couldn't accept that. I looked down on women, which is crazy because I am one. I wished so badly that I was a gay man instead. I thought life would be easier and people would understand me better if I were a man. I was deeply depressed and influenced by what I saw online. I had this fantasy of being in a gay male relationship, which I now realize was a form of escapism and maybe even a fetish I’d developed from porn. I thought gay men had perfect relationships, but I was just seeing a fantasy, not reality.
I never medically transitioned. I only transitioned socially for a short time in my teens. I told my mother and a few family members that I identified as a boy. But I never took hormones or had any surgery. I'm so grateful for that now. I started to realize that I wanted to be a man for other people—so they would treat me differently and stop judging me for being a masculine female. I wanted to escape the pain of not being seen for who I was. But changing my body wouldn't have solved that; it would have just created new problems.
What really helped me was accepting that I am a lesbian. It took me a long time. My sexuality felt confusing for years. At first I thought I was a lesbian, then I thought I was a gay man, then a straight woman, then a bi woman, and now, for the last few years, I’ve been sure that I’m a lesbian. Once I accepted that, my gender dysphoria started to fade. I realized that my body wasn't the problem; the problem was how I thought people saw me. I learned that I could be a butch lesbian and be happy. I am female, and that's okay. My discomfort was more about social pressure and my own depression than being born in the wrong body.
I also benefited from becoming religious. I found faith and read the Bible for myself. I saw that God made me the way I am for a reason, and that changing my body with hormones or surgery would have been rejecting that. It gave me a sense of peace about my body.
I don't believe people are born trans. I think gender dysphoria comes from other places, like trauma, not accepting your sexuality, or the discomfort of puberty. For me, it was a mix of all those things. I think gender is binary—male and female—and that masculine and feminine are just personalities. A woman can be as masculine as she wants and still be a woman.
I don't regret exploring my gender because it led me to where I am now, but I am so relieved I never medically transitioned. I would have regretted that deeply. Now, I’m happy to be a butch lesbian. Some days I still feel a bit uncomfortable being female, but I don't wish I were a boy anymore. I'm finally happy being myself.
Here is a timeline of my journey:
| Age | Event |
|---|---|
| 11 | Gender dysphoria began with the start of puberty. Felt intense hatred for my developing female body. |
| 13-16 | Socially identified as a boy for a short period. Only my mother and a few family members knew. |
| 18 | My sex drive developed and I fully accepted that I am a lesbian. My gender dysphoria began to fade. |
| 20 | Fully comfortable and happy identifying as a butch lesbian woman. No longer have a desire to be male. |
Top Comments by /u/DuckyAreCute:
Yeah I did mention in my post that I'm a gay girl. The last part of your comment is very interesting, I never thought that it may be jealously that makes people say that I'm a man, maybe some women feel they need to wear make up and show skin to feel like a woman and maybe they get perplexed when they see me not doing those things and still being female, it might be subconscious for them
I have hear of women who were very into gay males and wanting to be gay men in ages 13-14 some even transitioned and in their adulthood out grow it! At the end of the day it is a FETISH not a sexuality or a apart of it! you can out grow it. Probably with some therapy and looking at how badly it affects gay men and gays
Don't worry man!! This is normal boys feel like this in early teens, I don't think your trans at all, and there is no born in the wrong body, you are born just fine. I think like me you have depression and are not trans, depression can make you feel not like yourself anymore so please go to therapy to get help!
Only my mother and few other family members know when I used to identify as a boy so most people in real life and on social media now don't know that part of my life but I feel like I should tell them, maybe it will help them not think that I'm a boy or maybe it will make it worse I don't know :(
Please don't fetish gay men, you think they are perfect because that's your fetish, the way they are in porn is not the way their are in real life, and what makes you think that gay men aren't stereotypical masculine men? Alot of them are but your so into gay male fetish that you don't see that! You say you hate men that see women like their submissive but that's what you see gay men as! Your just like the people you hate, how can you get mad at men when you act just like them? What is this double stranded? it seems like you have some complex you should go to therapy because this is not normal, I don't know what you have been through but it is clear that you are not over that trauma, I do hope you get help and I do wish you the best but you are not in really for a relationship rn
You know when people talked about why so many girls became trans. this trans guy with a big following got angry and just went like it transphobia and so many trans do this, I bet most of don't want to accept that they are trans from trauma and so when they see stuff like this they lose it.
Well personally I think gender is binary and masculine and feminine are just personality, men can be like women and women can be like men but they are physical difference between male and female and only female can give birth, and there still female even if women wish not to have children like many do, thats it. thats the only reason gender exist gender had nothing to do with personality or how you feel or roles, or having kids or not, its just science and not feeling or even how you look or how you want to look!
I was suicidal for many reason and I live with depression but every time I get through my want to kill myself I see a better life and I am always so happy that I am alive and didn't kill myself! Please don't kill yourself, you have so much in life and I promise you will get through this! Your voice will get better just try please!
Look I'm not detrans just desist, but reading the comments here I have to question if hormones change your sexuality or people just went on them in their teens and naturally you change your sexuality until you get to about 20s to mid 20s I was never on T but I thought I was a lesbian to gay 'man' to bi and in my 18 and now and forever very much a lesbian, I didn't have much of a sex drive until 18, then I started masturbating to girls like every day, I think females just naturally get sex drive late but that's just my opinion as a desist so it may be unvalid
Dear god! Are you listening to yourself? You hear audios of gay submissive men that is made for women because it is a fetish!!
"I don't see them as submissive at all because they'll never even be with me, they'll be with men"
no just because you won't be with them doesn't mean you don't fetishize them,
They are alot of gnc straight men it's not rare