This story is from the comments by /u/EricKeldrev that are listed below, summarised with AI.
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The user demonstrates a consistent, nuanced perspective over a long period, sharing personal anecdotes (e.g., family members, personal struggles with misandry, religious exploration) and expressing complex, sometimes contradictory, thoughts. The writing style is natural, with varied sentence structure, personal reflection, and occasional self-correction, which is atypical for automated scripts. The user's passion and criticism are consistent with a genuine detransitioner or desister's experience.
About me
I tried to escape the pain of being a man by identifying away from it, thinking that would make the hurt stop. I never felt the 'gender euphoria' everyone online described, which made me feel broken and question what was real. I left those online spaces because they felt like a cult, and I found true, unconditional acceptance at my local church instead. I realized my problem wasn't being male, but how I was treated for it and my own poor self-esteem. Now I understand my body was never wrong, and I've found peace by working on myself and surrounding myself with people who truly care.
My detransition story
My journey with all of this didn't start with me wanting to transition, but with me wanting to escape. For a long time, I felt a lot of pain and confusion about being a man. I was constantly hearing things like "men are pigs" and that they "only want one thing," and it made me feel like just having a penis made me some kind of monster. It was a really unhealthy way to cope with the emotional pain, and I started to think that if I wasn't a man, that pain would go away. I identified away from my birth sex for a while as a way to escape all that misandry, especially since some of it came from my sister, who has her own trauma.
I never took hormones or had any surgeries. The first time I tried anything seen as feminine, I expected to feel this huge wave of "gender euphoria" that everyone online talked about. But I felt nothing. It was just... an action. Same thing when I did masculine things. I didn't feel anything special. It made me feel like something was wrong with me because I wasn't having these life-changing experiences people described. It actually made me start to wonder if a lot of what I was seeing online was real or just a big social phenomenon.
A lot of my experience was shaped by what I saw in online communities. I noticed they had a lot of parallels to cults. There's a lot of love-bombing when you first join. You're not allowed to question the narrative or show any skepticism. They create a strong "us vs. them" mentality. And people who leave are often demonized. It felt like their love was always conditional. I felt truly accepted for the first time when I started going to a local church. The people there loved me as a person, whether I agreed with them on everything or not. That unconditional love was something I never felt in progressive spaces, where I always felt like I had to walk on eggshells and agree with the current narrative to be accepted.
I also started to see how the idea that you need to medically transition to be happy goes against how most medicine works. For almost any other condition, there are multiple ways to treat it. For my high blood pressure, I take medication, but I also try to manage it with diet and exercise. For my ADHD, there's medication, but also therapy and learning techniques to manage it. The idea that gender dysphoria can only be treated with hormones and surgery seems ridiculous to me. It ignores other ways of coping and understanding yourself.
I eventually realized that my main issue wasn't my gender, but how I was being treated because of it, and my own internal struggles. Once I found people who didn't judge me just for being male, and once I worked on my own self-esteem, that pain and desire to escape started to fade. I learned that it's very common for people, especially teenagers, to be uncomfortable with their bodies during puberty. My sister-in-law hated her period and the changes to her body when she was young, but she never thought she wasn't a woman; she just learned to live with it. I think a lot of people are going through that normal discomfort and are being misled into thinking it means they were born in the wrong body.
I don't regret exploring these feelings, because it led me to a better understanding of myself. But I am deeply concerned about the community and the medical practices. I worry that the push for immediate transition, especially DIY hormones without a doctor, is incredibly dangerous. I believe that as more people transition, more will eventually detransition, and it will become impossible to ignore the reality of our experiences.
Here is a timeline of my journey based on my experiences:
Age | Event |
---|---|
Teenage Years | Felt intense discomfort and pain from societal misandry and negative stereotypes about men. |
Late Teens / Early 20s | Began identifying away from my male identity as an unhealthy coping mechanism to escape the pain. |
Early 20s | Tried presenting femininely and masculinely, but felt no "gender euphoria," which caused confusion. |
Early 20s | Left online trans communities due to their cult-like aspects and conditional love. |
24 | Found acceptance and unconditional love in a local church community, which helped me process my pain. |
Present (Mid-20s) | Realized my discomfort was linked to external treatment and internal coping, not an innate gender identity. Stopped identifying as anything other than my birth sex. |
Top Reddit Comments by /u/EricKeldrev:
I can’t help but notice similarities between a lot of trans women and the stereotypical “toxic male/masculinity”
Overly aggressive, quick to anger, quick to spring to insults, overdeveloped ego/self of self, thinks their opinions on something are “the truth” or are objectively superior to others’ opinions, and more that I’m probably forgetting.
obviously not all of them are like that but it seems like a rather strong and disturbing correlation to me.
I’ve kind of noticed a similar thing with mtf people. A lot of mtf seem to be obsessed with cute things to a degree that no woman would be. From plushies to clothing to computer keyboards to room decorations. It’s almost singularly all cutesy stuff.
And they also never seem to grow out of it either.
“Minimum age should be 21.”
Personally I think that’s when a lot of legal adult stuff should be. Gun ownership, voting, military service/drafting, and more tbh. It gives you more time to learn how the world works and more time for the brain to develop.
They’re so desperate to label anything they don’t like as right-wing/alt-right. Ironically feels similar to all those people calling things “woke.” They just use it as a rhetorical cudgel to describe anything they don’t like not even because it’s a useful term for describing something but because it gets them brownie points amongst their in-group. So now both “alt-right” and “woke” have no meaning.
I’ve seen people describe difficulty sliders in the new Doom game as “woke.” And I’ve seen people describe fitness as “alt-right.” It’s so stupid.
Also as harsh as it may seem to say this: I’m pretty sure being intersex is kind of akin to a biological glitch so to speak. Because almost all intersex people are sterile. So saying sex is a spectrum because of intersex people is kind of misunderstanding what intersexuality is in the wider evolutionary/biological picture.
It would be like saying having a number of limbs is a spectrum because some people are born with fewer or more than 4 of them. Yeah that’s technically true, but biologically speaking this isn’t supposed to happen.
Yeah this might be a report to discord situation bro.
Also can’t wait for when people start having heart attacks en masse because they get sucked into this thing and their body didn’t react well to it. Seriously, this is like if a bunch of chronic hypertensive people got together to encourage DIY blood pressure medicine. There’s a reason you don’t do it without a doctor, because you don’t know how your body will react to that shit. how is this any different from encouraging unsupervised taking of blood pressure medicine?
I kind of feel like detransitioned rates have always been false because for a while the whole single digit percentage stat was based on the stuff from gender clinics, which not only have a conflict of interest in reporting accurate stats but also I feel like most detrans people are not going to report back to a place that traumatized them/made their trauma worse.
There’s also the fact that what it means to be trans has become so watered down nowadays that it basically makes the term meaningless and will therefore make the term detrans meaningless.
Here’s an example (albeit fairly exaggerated) of what I mean: a boy wonders what it is like to be a girl and someone argues that makes them trans. But if he decides not transition, that would, by doing some mental gymnastics, mean that he is detrans. Thus he gets added to the statistic when he really shouldn’t. And that skews the data.
First of all this is basically an ad hominem towards the people who participate in Detrans day and says nothing about why the day actually exist.
Second of all: this is like saying people who celebrate something on September 11 have no empathy towards the victims and their families of the 9/11 attacks. Or that people who celebrate something on November 22 have no empathy towards the Kennedy family, or….
As cold of an observation as it may be, people die every day. Or even if you want to make it about suicide, people kill themselves every day. So the logical conclusion of this line of thinking would be to just not celebrate anything because someone killed themselves that day.
I think one thing people are also forgetting is that our brains are wired to call attention to when things stick out. The rarer something is the more it is going to stick out (and this isn’t always a good thing).
The thing is trans people who go through HRT are not common enough to normalize themselves. I don’t really follow population statistics but I think even the most generous estimates put trans individuals at 5% or less of the population, with some estimates putting them below even a single percent. Never mind that nowadays you don’t need to go through HRT to be considered trans. So they naturally stick out. And again, this isn’t always a good thing.
I said it in another post but I’ve often found that communities that obsess over “acceptance and love” are the first ones that will come after your hide when you express the wrong opinion about something. Relationships that I’ve fostered where we disagree on certain things and agree on others have often felt more real to me. Whether they be political, social, economic, or whatever. And it has the added benefit of us being able to influence each other and possibly get one another to shift opinions on certain things. It leads to a much more nuanced discussion of topics than what I’ve encountered anywhere else.
TL;DR: fuck conditional love.