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The user's comments are highly specific, emotionally nuanced, and internally consistent, detailing a long-term, painful personal experience with transition, detransition, and body dysmorphia. The language is natural, with varied sentence structure and personal anecdotes that are difficult to fake convincingly. The passion and pain expressed are consistent with a genuine detransitioner or desister.
About me
I started transitioning as a teenager because I felt deeply uncomfortable with my developing female body and was convinced online that becoming a man was the solution. I was on testosterone for five years and had top surgery, which I was sure would make me happy. That surgery was traumatic and I realized it was a huge mistake, so I stopped hormones two years ago. I now struggle with serious regret and trauma from the permanent changes, understanding my discomfort was really about puberty and low self-esteem. I'm trying to accept my altered body and wish I had dealt with my underlying issues instead.
My detransition story
My whole journey with transition started when I was a teenager. I was deeply uncomfortable with my body, especially during puberty. I hated developing breasts; it felt wrong and foreign to me. I spent a lot of time online and was influenced by what I saw in trans communities, which made me believe that these feelings meant I was a man. I thought transitioning was the only way to fix the discomfort.
I started identifying as non-binary first, around 15 or 16, but that quickly shifted to identifying as a trans man. I began taking testosterone when I was 16 and was on it for five years. I got top surgery—a double mastectomy—when I was 19. I was so sure it was what I needed to be happy.
But the surgery was a traumatic experience for me, both physically and mentally. Afterward, I realized I had made a huge mistake. I started to detransition about two years ago, when I was 21. I stopped taking testosterone.
Since stopping, some things have changed slowly. My face has softened and lost its puffiness, but my jawline is still chiseled. My hairline hasn't fully recovered, but I have baby hairs now that make it look softer. A bald spot I had in the back of my head has completely grown back. I’ve heard it might take as long to reverse the changes as the time I was on hormones, which was five years.
I struggle a lot with regret and the permanent changes. I have serious trauma from the mastectomy. I can't handle seeing anything involving breasts or sexual imagery in movies or shows; it makes me panic and cry. It makes me feel insecure and pathetic sometimes, like I can't handle normal adult media. It even affects my relationship; I get hurt and anxious when I feel my boyfriend might be looking at other women.
I’ve come to understand that a lot of my initial discomfort was related to puberty and low self-esteem, not actually being born in the wrong body. I think I was trying to escape from myself. Now, I’m trying to accept my body as it is, even though it’s been permanently altered. I don’t regret exploring my identity, but I deeply regret the medical steps I took. I wish I had dealt with my underlying issues instead of changing my body.
Here is a timeline of my transition and detransition events:
| Age | Event |
|---|---|
| 15-16 | Started identifying as non-binary, influenced by online communities. |
| 16 | Began taking testosterone. |
| 19 | Underwent top surgery (double mastectomy). |
| 21 | Stopped testosterone and began detransitioning. |
| 23 | Currently detransitioned, two years off hormones. |
Top Comments by /u/EyeHaveSevereOCD:
i definitely consider it all the time and i have saved up for it, but i’m very worried about breast implant illness, getting cancer from the implants, and having to replace them every decade (cuz damn that shit ain’t cheap). i just feel like no matter what i do i’ll never win
I know how you feel. I hate watching certain shows or movies because of nudity, I hate the fact that my boyfriend is ogling these women and their breasts. Even if he says he’s not I can see his eye movement, and I find it hurtful because I feel like I should be able to watch movies with him without feeling like he’s gushing over actresses. Men suck
happens to me every now and then too, i’ve learned to brace myself for it. i wish people were more openminded but ik i’m asking for a lot 😅 however on a good note, a lot of ppl have complimented my voice and other traditionally “masculine” features of mine, so these things are bound to happen to you too!! not everyone is a hater, thankfully :’)
i get it. it was really hard for me too, especially if it’s something you’ve been living for a long time. it almost feels like an embarrassment, that i could do so much to myself and still end up unsure and unhappy with what i’ve done. i wish you luck and i hope you’re safe
thank you for all your compliments 💓 i’m trying to be more receptive to people hyping me up like that lol. and yes i would agree, no one really understands unless they’ve experienced it themselves, and the judgement from all sorts of communities, is nonstop
i absolutely avoid (or try to) anything involving breasts or sexual imagery due to the trauma around my mastectomy being so bad. i mentally can’t handle it at this point in my life. due to my own insecurity i feel like it sounds pathetic as a 21 year old female, to not be able to consume certain media geared towards adults and whatnot. but if i am to subjected to such i will immediately start panicking and crying. 😎✌🏻 gotta love it
i’m two years off hormones after five years of testosterone, here’s a bit of my experience :)
my face shape has softened, just very slowly. it’s almost as if testosterone made my face puffy and i’m slowly reverting from that. my jawline and my face are still very chiseled, but my face has lost that puffiness
my hairline hasn’t recovered unfortunately but i have gained a bunch of baby hairs around my hairline which has softened the harshness and masculine vibe of my hairline (i hope). i still have a widows peak but it’s not severe by any means. i used to have a bald spot in the back of my head before i stopped T. it’s all gone now and looks fine, so maybe the hairline just takes more time ?
i have tried both kinds of birth control at the start of my detransitioning process. i didn’t notice much of a change other than what’s left of my boobs feeling really tender and sore :/
after two years of gradually becoming more and more feminine, i’m starting to wonder if however long you were on hormones, will be the same amount of time it takes for those changes to be reversed?
your face is very feminine and your hair looks great! i suggest keep doing what you’re doing and let time and estrogen do their thing