Because it debunks their claims that all people with gender dysphoria are trans, and that the only cure for gender dysphoria is transition, which they use to justify childhood transition. When someone learns to live with gender dysphoria it is very dangerous for their political agenda as if it becomes widely known that gender dysphoria can resolve on it's own, the public starts to question the ethics of medical intervention for children. This has already happened in Florida with detransitioners causing the medical board to ban all transition "healthcare" for minors. They shut down these people by saying "they were never trans" because their stories are a threat to the availability of their "life-saving" irreversible hormone treatments and puberty blockers.

Therapy doesn't always heal trauma, the gender dysphoria could be a result of trauma that you just haven't interpreted as trauma. I'd say it's very likely that you are still significantly affected as you say you were r@ped at 17, meaning it's only been two years. Therapy may help, but there is a limit to how much can be done by therapy. Time, however, heals things. I can't stop you from transitioning but I urge you to give it more time. Just because your trauma doesn't present in a typical way doesn't make you "healed". Many women who have experienced sexual assault trauma reject femininity as a way to protect themselves, gain a masculine appearance so they feel less of a target to potential predators. Many of them hate their female bodies because again, it makes them vulnerable. Sex repulsion also happens to people who have been sexually traumatized. I'd say it's highly likely gender dysphoria is a symptom of your trauma and again, I'm not gonna stop you, but please, please give it some more time.

The Norah Vincent stuff seems iffy to me I see a lot of people reference this one. I personally don't think that it proves men have it harder as, it is extremely hard to pass as stealth especially when all you're doing is crossdressing which as far as I know she didn't take any Hormone Therapy. People would've noticed, trust me, it's obvious when a woman pretends to be a man. People don't want to be rude, so they will pretend they don't notice, but trust me it's obvious. Also, she was constantly pretending to be someone she's not which does f*** you up putting an act on 24/7. I don't buy her experiment at all.

She admitted that putting on that forced fake persona caused her to be admitted to a psychiatric hospital. She was probably also mentally ill the entire time considering she had mental health treatment and died to suicide. I'd know faking being a man doesn't make you kill yourself, I did it for 4 years which is twice as long as her. That being said, it did mess me up to have to accept that THE FAIRYTALE ISNT REAL and I'm stuck as a "weird female". And I broke down so many times because of the thought of living a lie that made me feel like a complete f***ing idiot.

Femininity may have worked for you, but I will tell you that me and a lot of others did not transition because we were "feminists" like you. I'm actually conservative and anti-modern feminism. I think femininity is great honestly and if that feels right do what you want to do, sadly I'm cursed with being a dyke so I assume that's "feminist" too and I just need to rest in my femininity that I previously unsuccessfully tried to fake, which ended up with me thinking I was a man because I felt so f***ing insecure. Congratulations but at the same time, f*** off because a lot of us ended up trans not because of feminism, but because we were brainwashed into thinking our masculinity made us trans men.

Attempt to find the root cause of your gender dysphoria. When did it start? Any factors that may have influenced you developing feelings of dysphoria around your gender (eg. childhood trauma, bullying, homosexuality)? What caused you to make the decision to identify as transgender? Were you in any online communities at the time?

Consider that any transition-related medical intervention is serious and irreversible and should not be undergone by anyone experiencing even a little bit of doubt. Considering the fact that you are asking these questions and experiencing feelings of doubt, medical transition is not a good idea for you anyway. Also consider that there is no rush to transition and that people have transitioned later in life, even at 40,50,60 years old; just because you desist from a transgender identity does not put the possibility of transition off the cards forever. You are only 15 and you have not had enough life experience to know if medical transition will make you happier. Your brain will mature in the next 10 years and you will most likely grow out of these feelings and make peace with your biological sex.

It is not "too late to reverse the cycle"; you have done nothing except tell those around you that you wish to be referred to as a boy. This is absolutely reversible, and while embarrassing, you can tell everyone you wish to be referred to as a girl again when you are ready to. There is no rush to "come out" again; you should do it when you feel safe and ready to and start with people close to you who you trust. Trust me, the person who will find it the hardest to come to terms with is yourself; you probably think people will make a much bigger deal of it, as I did when I "came out" again. A few people asked why, which is fair enough, and you will have to have an answer ready as there will be someone who asks. My best advice is to be honest about what feelings led you to re-identify with your biological sex. Other than that, the majority of people won't care beyond asking a question or two. If you are heavily involved with hardcore transgender ideologists they may stop associating with you, but that is not a bad loss honestly and hey, don't let gender ideologists pressure you into identifying as trans as I'm sure that's not what you want at all. Pretty much everyone who isn't heavily indoctrinated into trans ideology will give no thought to you deciding to call yourself a girl again.

buck angel is a fetishist clearly. how else could you be fully aware you aren't really a man yet have no regrets about making those changes to urself. only a fetishist could think that way. and he acts in porn. i'm sick of seeing this dude put on a pedestal bc he claims to be a true "transsexual" and appeals to conservatives while still accepting some form of transition. when in reality he's living out his fetish

females are less likely to be called out for that bc females don't usually have fetishes. i've even seen someone claim before that fetishes don't exist in females at all. ppl aren't gonna call buck out for it bc they don't believe that a female can have a fetish like that even if they see it played out before their eyes

I think people tend to follow people who they feel comfortable with, and can relate to. A big portion of people who are invested in detransitioner stories are conservatives with traditional family values, so it makes sense that they'd gravitate towards straight, gender conforming detransitioners as they fit into their values, and are relatable. A butch lesbian detransitioner fits one of their narratives but opposes another, while people like Chloe Cole suit their narrative that many of these trans-identified females will become comfortable with traditional femininity. Unfortunately, a lot of the kind of people that push the detransition issue will still be uncomfortable with masculine and lesbian women.

Another reason could be that many people who fall into transition in the first place have an unstable sense of identity and fully latch onto the "I miss my old self" idea. They feel a sense of mourning and therefore the urge to become the woman they missed out on being.

It could also be compensation for the permanent androgenizing effects from testosterone, in a similar way to how trans-identified people often take that extra step to "pass" as the gender they think they are. Many men who transition put on an act of stereotypical femininity which is what gender-critical feminists call "womanface". Perhaps detransitioners are putting on this act too to make sure they are treated how they wish to be treated by society as they have male secondary sex characteristics which make it harder to be perceived as women, which us who have not medically transitioned really do take for granted.

To answer your question about why people who are gender conforming transition, there could be multiple reasons. A lot of trans-identified people have BPD or other conditions which cause a person's sense of self to be unstable, meaning they might've gone through a phase where they felt masculine and like a boy. Teenage years can also be like this anyway as naturally teenagers go through different phases of self discovery. Someone might present gender non-conforming in their teens but grow out of it naturally in adulthood.

The number of butch women isn't that high whereas at the moment trans identity is huge, so it makes sense that it is affecting a lot of feminine women as well.

You can DM if you want the interests and music tastes I guess

The only reason I want to put on a feminine act is because I'm kinda tired of being referred to in public as a little boy, especially when I go to buy alcohol... It wears me down having to explain that I'm 18 and not 12 constantly.

Fortunately for you, bottom growth is permanent

I've heard the hair loss stops and may even regrow any hair that was lost recently when T is stopped

If you really want a deep voice, that's a permanent change too so I guess stay on it until it breaks? I'm not sure what would happen if you went off it now, you might risk staying in that breaking phase