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The user's comments are nuanced, emotionally intelligent, and show a consistent, long-term personal narrative of grappling with gender, detransition/desistance, and self-acceptance. The language is natural, with varied sentence structures and personal anecdotes that are difficult to fake consistently over time. The passion and criticism expressed are consistent with the genuine perspectives of some detransitioners/desisters.
About me
I was born male and my journey started from deep depression and not fitting in, which made me believe transitioning was the answer. I took hormones for two years, thinking becoming a woman would solve my internal conflict and self-hatred. I eventually realized my real problem wasn't my gender, but my inability to process emotions and my own low self-esteem. Now, I've stopped hormones and I'm learning to accept myself as a man who can be both masculine and like other men. I'm finally at peace, working on my physique and focusing on being authentically me.
My detransition story
My whole journey with gender started from a place of deep discomfort, but not necessarily with my body at first. I was born male, but I never really fit in with the other boys. I was bullied a lot for my more natural feminine qualities and I had a long history of just feeling very, very depressed. I think I was so good at bottling things up that I didn't even realize I was doing it. I never felt anger, which in hindsight was a big problem.
A lot of my initial feelings were wrapped up in fantasy. I had this idea in my head about what it would be like to be an attractive woman. It was a powerful escapism for me. I rationalized it for a long time as just a sexual thing, a fetish. I might want to be a bio woman, but I knew I couldn't ever actually be that. For me, a big part of it was internalised homophobia. There's nothing wrong with wanting to get fucked by dudes, but I struggled to accept that as a man. I thought transitioning would solve that conflict.
I started identifying as non-binary first, then later as a trans woman. I was influenced a lot by what I saw online; it seemed like a community that had answers for the feelings of wrongness I had. I took hormones for about two years. I never got any surgeries.
The more I actually lived as a woman and the more I thought about the concept of gender itself, the more the whole thing started to turn me off. I began to see how obsessed everyone was with it, and how vicious the arguments on all sides could be. I saw a real toxicity in some parts of the community, where any step back or questioning was seen as an attack. I realized my main goal wasn't to be a woman, it was to find internal emotional congruence—to feel at peace with myself.
What really helped me break through was finally getting in touch with my anger. It sounds strange, but I had to learn how to get pissed off. I had to tap into that masculine energy I had been suppressing my whole life. It was like a key turning. I started to see that my issues weren't really about gender at all. They were about depression, low self-esteem, and not knowing how to process my emotions. I was trying to fix an internal psyche misalignment by changing my outside, when what I really needed was to fix what was inside.
I don't regret transitioning. I see it as a necessary step I had to take to figure myself out. More than anything else, it taught me that my issues weren't to do with a desire to be a woman. That’s a great piece of knowledge to have. Putting the unimaginable shit I went through to get to this point, it was a difficult journey but it led me to a better understanding of who I am.
Now, I've abandoned rigid ideas of what it means to be a man. I'm just focusing on being me. I like fit dudes, and I want to be one too. I'm working on sculpting a chiselled male physique and appreciating being naturally a little more physically capable. I'm finally learning to accept all parts of myself.
| Age | Event |
|---|---|
| 16 | Began experiencing intense depression and discomfort with social expectations of masculinity. Bullied for feminine traits. |
| 22 | Started identifying as non-binary, influenced by online communities. |
| 23 | Began identifying as a trans woman and started hormone therapy (estrogen). |
| 25 | Stopped hormone therapy. Realized my goal was internal peace, not being a woman. Began the process of detransitioning. |
| 26 | (Present) Working on self-acceptance, physical fitness, and defining my own masculinity. |
Top Comments by /u/GeneralEi:
You look like a completely normal person. I wouldn't have thought anything about your presentation, gendered or otherwise if I saw you in public. I know that doesn't do much to chip away at the issues your mind has got itself hooked around, but it's true and I hope it helps a little:)
There's gonna be a time in the future where sections of the queer community are gonna have to discuss and deal with the toxicity and narcissism some of the members display, under the armour of oppression. It's fucked up and ironically only leads to people being marginalised even further, which is about one of the most problematic things you can do
All males, inevitably, get hit in the nuts. It's a unifying, awful experience. Wishing for male genitals? Yeah I can see it. Wishing for balls just to get hurt? That's a little stranger imo, just because it's a part of the gendered experience doesn't mean it should be romanticized. This is where the "mental illness" kind of thinking creeps in around trans people, if you're getting psychically lashed to a whipping post then that's just not healthy
Can say with absolute certainty, no normal person will look at that body and think anything other than "there's a dude"
If you hadn't posted about your transition none of us would have had any idea at all. Short of saying something stupid like "it's all in your head", don't worry. Everything is ok my guy <3
Great! 5 years is a good start point for a long term psych medicine study. If the number remains consistent over 10, 15, 30, that's great. It won't, so I'm interested to see how it changes.
Also, why are 2% of these people no longer relevant? The tone of the image certainly seems to imply they are. Detrans "myth"? Sure it might be blown well out of proportion by some people, but it's real. Let's not make this into aids 2.0, no moral panic. Just appraisal of the facts. Will add that just one study is nowhere near enough for conclusive evidence for large scale psych stuff, wake me up when the hot meta analysis drops pls
Groups with extremist voices will inevitably commit extremist acts when their extremity comes from a relevant, contemporary source. Rightoids and leftists have the culture war to unite them in the shit pit, and our culture suffers communally as a result.
It's good to think of yourself as an individual, and a part of a greater whole because of the social connections and relationships you have. Anything you do, or don't do, can and does affect other people.
But you shouldn't see yourself as a cog in the machine. You're your own person and you aren't beholden to anyone. If it's really what you want, and you know that, who gives a shit if it's contributory to society. I don't think you'd be harming anything worth worrying about by transitioning other than potentially yourself, which is something only you can know might happen or not
This is probably referring to others forcing detransitioning onto trans people. But I guarantee there are members of the trans/lgbt community at large who think an analogue of this type of shit.
They view any step back as an attack on the movement as a whole. Even if that step back isn't a step back at all, but a step forward in a different direction for an individual who doesn't yet understand themselves. Those kinds of patterns of thinking are, in the worst way you can be, radical.
Nothing that isn't also encapsulated by simply being human.
I do like the idea of sculpting a chiselled male physique though, and it's nice to be naturally a little more physically capable. That's about it for me. I like fit dudes, and want to be one also.
The more I think about the concept of gender and some people's obsession with it, the more it turns me off of thinking about it at all.
This is difficult because of your situation, I understand how crushing it can feel to have to hide parts of yourself because you think important people in your life won't approve.
There's nothing wrong with wanting to fuck dudes. More specifically, there's nothing wrong with wanting to GET fucked by dudes. Some people will disagree, but I see nothing wrong with it.
People are multi-faceted creatures. You can BE that strong leading man, AND enjoy getting dicked down by some daddy dom if you want. If you like it, what's the issue? People will judge you no matter what you do, so as long as you don't think it'll put you in unnecessary danger, I would recommend you follow what you think your heart is telling you. If you like it, you like it. That's you.
If you really want to, you don't have to like it. You can leave it behind in your mind and focus on other things. If after doing this, it crops up again and sort of pushes its way back into your thinking, you might have more evidence then that you do actually want those things.
Don't kill yourself. There are ways around the difficulties you're facing now, I promise.