Lol when I was transitioning I didn't ever use other bathrooms or anything, didn't think about politics or anything, but those people coming here make me support women cause I see how "trans" women treat them. I haven't picked sides before, now I have a preference. And yeah I'm a guy.

Yeah it depends. I've had friends who say all those things about women, jokingly or not, those who treat everyone with respect, those are the best people to be honest, some don't care about anyone. It all depends on a person. Personally I don't really think about it.

I'm so mad at myself that I poisoned myself with 4 anti-androgens. It's so slow to recover but each month I see new beard growth and "puberty". So basically this here is right, a long time if you were on some medications. Spiro can be easier to recover from though.

it's a huge process to get HRT and SRS

Yeah especially hrt. As hard as just ordering pills online when you're 16 and getting it through mail or just a shop like I did.

All the doctors make sure that those being prescribed know what they are taking

That's why they prescribe sometimes Ethinyl Estradiol which causes blood clots a lot more than average, Spironolactone which barely works or crazy dosages like Cyproterone 100 mg which is meant to be taken in half or quarter of this, so exposing them to possible brain tumors.

and how to diagnose dysphoria in people.

There's no set of rules. You'd rather be a woman/man? Then you are dysphoric, here, take the pills for 2 years and then cut off your genitals.

It's simply not true. Trans people exist.

Sounds like you're trying to convince yourself. You cannot change your sex. Gender is just your personality. And by saying things like that you just blindly state what you, yourself, heard before.

there are so many trans people who do not regret their transition in the slightest

You know the real percentage? Or some stories on 4chan and Traaaaans or whatever. Yeah, when you look at those subs, you see only happy stories.

Support trans people, even if you're a detransitioner.

Don't tell me what to do. I don't hate on anyone, was on hrt for some time too. But it doesn't mean I will blindly support someone. I couldn't care less to give my energy to those beliefs.

Well, I'm almost the same, 20 now, started at almost 17, all that. A year and 3 months off hormones. I feel pretty much the same as you do. I don't care if I'm a man, because it's me and it always was this way, I like that. Actually I'm regaining sanity off CPA and Estrogen but social aspect is different too, you just behave differently on testosterone. Some people will relate more, some won't (stop completely).

What I want to say, I would like to be a woman in another life or in a dream, well, but in current life it's impossible really. Everything is just cosmetic at this point, and hormones are just a little, minor part of real generic stuff. So I think "transitioning" is nothing. (But trouble). But, but, let me tell you. I consider hormones drugs because I DID feel withdrawal or how it's called, it's like addiction, when I was in some kind of episode, always wanted to go back on it. With time it's more apparent I shouldn't. Take what you will from that, my experience.

I know it's not what you want to hear but in the end you decide whatever to do :D Some things are just a lot worse or better. For me, I chose #natural way.

Ok, I'll answer your questions.

What part in you obtaining things illegally did the trans community have?

1st: It's not illegal. At all. You are not going to jail for buying hormones. So pretty much everyone, even a kid, can buy them.

2nd: Trans community convinced me I had to take them or I would kill myself/regret it really soon. Weeell, as time showed, hormones themselves made me suicidal which is confirmed by almost all people who knew me. I regret ever trying to go on hrt. Fear, strong belief I had to buy... led me to it. Trans community, specifically on /asktransgender, told me it's necessary.

3rd: Even on Trans subs, lately, it's not a big deal to tell anyone who can't get hrt or doesn't want to go to doctor go DIY route. Even sourcing it.

You see?

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what would you know about what they say to patients?

Hm.... As if I haven't read all the stories on forums, people actually going there, even 4chan on what they're told. Hearing how you're supposed to switch therapists if they show any doubt in your identity..

And knowing how easy it's diagnosed. That's some gatekeeping already, isn't it?

Not trutrans, right? Hm, well, at least this doesn't make completely ignorant ya know.

Oh, and well, even by reading This sub you can see how it's diagnosed. There are a lot of stories here.

I don't cope, just feel it today. Everyday. I mean, with months it gets better but I don't think it can be sped up. "It doesn't get easier, you get stronger". Or something like that. And yeah, it works like that. Talk about it, chase new opportunities. Whatever works, you got this.

The thing is, probably you can't change this person's mind. It like comes with experience. Maybe some people can live transitioned forever, many detransition. But once you believe in this thing, it's over. I wasted 2.5 years on it. Also hormones, estrogen specifically, don't know about ftms, changes the person. Like I became depressed and anxious. And got rid of all people I knew before.

I decided to transition thinking it would fix my depression too, like I found the secret key to happiness. (Well crosdressing once or twice + online games with female character were present). Spoiler: it wasn't that key, glad to be alive now after detransitioning (Cyproterone for mtfs is like that. It makes depression worse).

Ah, well, my only advice is to wait and see, care for yourself too. It's possible this person will really change with hrt. Maybe won't, and you would be happy together.

I detransitioned because I lost all faith in this, realized I fu**ed up and read some stories. Here I am, being a lot happier and reconnecting with friends on testosterone while completely not caring about gender. Never going back.

Ok so I can't sleep. I don't know if it's true, everyone who is trans says it only gets worse, every day is a suffering, everyone seems suicidal and I just can't deal with this, I feel like every second I don't take some action I'm killing myself. I haven't taken hrt for some days and I get this feeling of extreme pain, anger I really just want to slice open my arm or smash my head. Will it be my life from now like this?...

Yeah I haven't had any surgeries yet. I feel really bad for FTMs who detransition because T effects are truly awful.. I pass as a freak, I hated my square face, now I got even worse and it will only get worse. There's no way not to have dysphoria. Yet I don't want to change my sex, I want to look like other guys, I find ugly myself. Masculine. And..

I know there's nothing with being a feminine guy. But I will be really masculine, deep engraved with self-hate until I die.... I'm really lost, neither of the paths help or look good. Thanks for your time replying though and sorry for emotions. I won't relapse on hrt until I really want to. But I feel like a drug addict..

I still find myself believing every single word I read on asktransgender... That's so deep in my head. "I will be miserable and die" while being 19.

I guess it's needed for someone to discover roots of the problems themselves nowadays in this issue. I came to a conclusion like this too, more like stopped caring much about gender-stuff. But it's good if you haven't spent whole life on it, past is in the past they say, it gives me some closure.