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About me
I'm a woman who started testosterone to treat my severe body dysmorphia, which made me hate my female body. I had to lie and legally change my name to male to get my medication, because my doctor only understands a gender identity framework. I don't believe I am a man; this is a medical treatment for me, not an identity. While the testosterone has helped me feel comfortable for the first time, I resent being forced to pretend. I am just a woman who needs this specific healthcare to feel right in my own skin.
My detransition story
My journey with transition is complicated, and it all comes down to one thing: I have severe body dysmorphia. I’m a woman, and I always have been, but for most of my life, I felt a deep aversion to many parts of my female body. I hated the smell of my sweat, my lack of body hair, my low muscle mass, and most of all, I despised having female genitalia. It felt like a part of me that wasn't supposed to be there, similar to how someone might feel about a limb they want removed.
Because of this, I started taking testosterone ten weeks ago, and it has helped me tremendously. For the first time, I feel happy with my body. But this is a medical treatment for my brain disorder, not a journey to become a man. I reject the entire concept of "gender identity." I think it’s a backwards step for equality. I never identified myself by my chromosomes or genitalia; that goes against my core belief in egalitarianism.
Getting the treatment I needed was a battle. I have a fantastic psychiatrist who understands my condition, but the person who prescribes my testosterone has a very modern, ideological view of gender. To keep getting my medication, I’ve had to play along. I was forced to legally change my name and titles to male for medical records, and I have to tell my prescriber that my "gender identity is male" to avoid having treatment withdrawn. It’s a lie I have to tell. In my personal life, everyone knows me as a woman.
I’m terrified of what will happen if I have to transfer to the NHS from private care. I fear they will deny me treatment because I refuse to say I’m a man or agree to surgery, which I absolutely do not want. I’ve read the so-called scientific papers that try to prove transgenderism is natural, and they are laughably bad, with tiny sample sizes and distorted statistics. It’s propaganda, not science.
Finding this community was a relief. It’s scary how much brainwashing is out there, especially for young people. Online spaces like r/ftm are poison, pressuring confused kids to transition and silencing anyone who questions it. I’ve seen girls being told their doubts are just "internalized transphobia" and encouraged to ignore serious issues, even prioritizing pronouns over animal cruelty. It’s a cult.
Testosterone isn’t a fun lifestyle choice. It’s giving me a fat, hairy gut, night sweats, hairy toes, and I’m starting to go bald after only three months. It’s a last resort for severe dysmorphia, not a healthy form of expression. I see kids binding their chests so tightly they crack ribs and damage their lungs, all because they’ve been sold a lie that they can change sex. They’re missing out on their youth.
I don’t regret taking testosterone because it’s treating my condition. But I deeply regret the current climate that forces me to lie and pretend to believe in gender ideology to get healthcare. I am a woman. I am not a man, and I never will be. I’m just a woman who needs testosterone to feel comfortable in her own skin.
Here is a timeline of my journey:
Age | Event |
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(Age not specified) | Started experiencing severe body dysmorphia, disliking female characteristics like sweat smell, lack of body hair, low muscle mass, and genitalia. |
(10 weeks ago from May 2020) | Began testosterone therapy. Started to feel happy with my body for the first time. |
(Around the same time) | Was forced to legally change name and titles to male for medical purposes to continue receiving treatment. |
Top Comments by /u/HolofaustSK:
100% agree. It's such a relief to hear some sanity on this subject. Most sane views are silenced by the media and by fear of getting fired. My body dysmorphia was untreated for decades because I was unable to "identify" as male. If you google the definitions of transgender, male, gender identity and masculinity then you end up in a never-ending ordeal of circular reasoning. Society is going backwards. I wasn't raised with any gender roles. All of my female school friends played with Lego and trucks and we did virtually all the things that impressionable young girls are now claiming is proof of their "gender."
I refused to give a straight answer to the question "Do you feel like you have the mind of a man?" Which man? Donald Trump? Riley Dennis? Jeffrey Dahmner? Steve Shives? Oh, you know... one of The Men - the male collective hive mind that defines all men. I consider the question to be horrifically misandrist, which goes against my egalitarian beliefs which represent part of my true identity. I was very lucky to have a brilliant psychiatrist who could understand that I'm one of the tiny minority who can actually benefit from hormone therapy. Other medical professionals have tried to force me to conform to trans ideology under the threat of having my medication stopped. In the old days people could be trans without any of this gender identity crap. Things were better for us when it was classed as a mental disorder. Testosterone treats my brain disorder. It will never make me a man. It's heart-breaking to see so many kids mutilate themselves because they've been sold a lie. No-one can make an informed decision about treatment while they're being brainwashed into rejecting reality and told that anyone with a different opinion is literally Hitler. I'm rarely triggered sufficiently to pop a caps lock in someone's ass but
PRONOUN DYSPHORIA IS NOT A THING
You can stick feathers in your butt and cluck but everyone knows you're not a chicken.
There are many different reasons why people call themselves trans. If you've been thriving for this long then you probably have good reasons. You don't have to live a lie. You can live any way you want. I'm a woman taking testosterone. I can live in a manner that is interpreted as masculine by most people and still accept that I'm a woman. I've taken control of my choices to do what I need to survive. You can be trans without gender identity.
I can share my uneducated guess. I'm biased because I'm transmasculine and mostly heterosexual (I'm also attracted to women and non-binary people, but I mostly like men.) Maybe this gives me an excessive appreciation of male genitalia over anything else in existence, but anyway I feel like anyone who gets their cock and balls amputated or has themselves chemically castrated has to be REALLY sure of what they're doing. I don't want to downplay the seriousness of female mutilation. Even as a tranny I won't consider surgery. I gave it brief consideration after some extreme mind-fucking from one of my "care" providers but thankfully I saw sense. Seeing all the gender critical comments on this sub has been a big help to me. Everyone should spend some time here before they do anything drastic. They'd probably reconsider. That's why the trans forums work so hard to call us fascists and convince kids to stay away. Phalloplasty can be practically the same as female genital mutilation in the way that it affects function but it's extremely expensive and dangerous so fewer ftm choose to have it. Most of "tHe ComMuniTy" considers us "valid" (I fucking hate that word) as men without it. Kids are sold a fantasy of huge benefits on testosterone. They think they'll be effortlessly slim and muscular and will look like one of those anorexic steroid-abusing models on the cover of Men's Health. Many of the horror stories are from girls from single sex schools so they have very little knowlegde of normal male physiology. Trans cults take advantage of their lack of experience. They're also told they'll become more assertive and powerful and they'll get more respect. I don't know a lot of what they tell mtf kids but it seems to be mostly a list of cosmetic effects. So they're sold a different risk/reward ratio by the cultists.
Some girls with PTSD following sexual assault think that transition will protect them from becoming victims again.
Also there are different reasons for men and women to transition. Many men report having autogynophilia. Having an obsessive fetish like AGP makes a little more sense than believing in modern gender identity theory and fetishes are often lifelong. I've had BDSM fetishes for 40 years and they've been fairly constant. AGP-related transition seems to be more commonly affirmed at a later age when people are more able to make choices. I don't hear autoandrophilia as a common reason for ftm transition. Maybe it would be more common if phalloplasty weren't so primitive.
But one of the main modern reasons is that many girls are raised in places where gender roles are still strictly enforced. Victims used to become feminists or doormats but nowaday there are predatory trans cults that look for suffering confused girls and convince them that transition will empower them. Identity politics ever increasingly labels every tiny aspect of normal human behaviour as male or female. Kids are brainwashed into thinking that they can't be their real sex if they tick more than one box from the allocated list of the other sex. Most of the good stuff has been put on the "man list" so transition appeals more to girls.
TLDR; The ridiculous modern concept of gender identity, sexist stereotypes, autogynophilia, the unthinkability of cock amputation and less necessity for lower surgery in many ftms.
Absolutely agree. Subs like r/ftm are absolute poison. I saw one girl in there yesterday saying that her therapist and gender clinic were pushing her to transition when she didn't want to. She had about 20 replies all telling her that she either had internalised transphobia or was just experiencing normal pre-transition nerves. She became convinced to go ahead with transition after an hour of their brainwashing. I wanted to write something but I knew it'd get deleted. If anyone mentions this sub on there it's either deleted or a gang of cult members warn everyone to stay in the echo chamber or else something terrible will happen.
There was one teenager last month complaining that her sister was misgendering her and torturing their cat. Of course the misgendering was considered to be by far the worst offence. I've tried to be understanding about vulnerable kids with their "pronoun dysphoria" but that was the final straw for me. Adults were encouraging her to have those priorities. I don't want to sound like someone who's hysterically exaggerating but when people don't prioritise animal cruelty it's often a sign of a sociopathic disorder. Serial killers often start with the same signs. Those people scare me.
Have you read any of those peer reviewed papers? If you have an example of one which gives compelling arguments then please share a link. All the papers I've read have blatantly distorted statistics which are clearly grasping at straws. They could fudge the results to give more convincing evidence for differences in brain patterns between people who like pineapple on pizza compared against people who think it should be classed as a war crime. Most of the studies I've read have been of sample sizes of less than 20 people with ridiculously large standard deviations. And they usually examine different parts of the brain or different brain functions so that no amount of studies will back up much of the other research. The term "peer reviewed paper" on its own means nothing unless the results are easily replicable with limited contradictory evidence. You might want to look into the hoaxers who managed to get a chapter of Mein Kampf accepted by peer review by translating it to English and changing the word "Jews" into "men." Even in fields like astrophysics you'd be amazed how many peer reviewed papers turn out to be wrong.
I'm trans with no intention of ever detransitioning so I support your decision to do whatever helps you. But the biggest part of my identity is my devotion to academia, rational thinking and the scientific method. So far I haven't seen compelling evidence. If there was any then I'd have thought they'd make it well known rather than flooding the net with links to questionable unrepeatable tiny studies. I'll accept gender identity when I see compelling evidence. Most of current transgender theory remains scientifically unsupported.
I don't believe in gender identity so I have nothing to conform to. I take testosterone. You can call me gender nonconforming if you like. It's just semantics. The benefit of not having a gender identity is that I'm not permanently outraged by pronouns or science.
Thanks for that link. She had me in hysterics. I clicked on a few of her videos. I had to skip through them because she always drags 30 seconds of information out to over 10 minutes to exploit the YouTube algorithm. One particular moment explained everything about her. She was talking about the difference between wanting to feel like a man compared with wanting to be a man.
It's great that you feel like a leading psychologist! You go, Dr. Z! You do you!
Her opinions about letting mentally ill or traumatised patients decide who they are is absolutely inspired. I wonder if she applies the same logic to people who think they're Elvis. I don't know how to link or cross-post but there's a post in today's r/RightwingLGBT that she reminded me of. Mermaids have made a list of symptoms that parents need to look out for that could mean that their kid is trans. It contains virtually every normal state for teenagers. They're trying to make everyone trans. You might want to give it a look regardless of your politics. Most sides are in agreement that Mermaids are a cult that brainwashes kids.
That's what makes it so frightening. I've heard so many cases of people harming themselves accidentally. It must be very dangerous. The worst stories come from r/ftm which is extremely pro-binding. I've lost count of the number of accounts of cracked ribs or people with permanently reduced lung capacity. I dread to think how many cases of arthritis will occur 20 years down the line. This week a young trans person was talking about how difficult it was to even walk at a brisk pace. Many discussions revolve around how difficult it is to perform the most limited physical exersion whilst binding. Young people are missing out on exercise at a time when they most need to develop bone density and good exercise habbits. If you're manageing to bind comfortably then you should share your techniques with the young folk on r/ftm. They seem to be struggling with it. Anyone who cracks a rib to mask their tits, in my opinion, has a mental issue. If you have an overly negative opinion of anyone who has to struggle with a severe mental issue then that says more about your level of intolerance than mine. We all have severe issues to cope with at some time in our lives. I'm mutilating myself with cross sex hormones to ease the pain of some of my issues.
I'm told that they do make all kinds of shapes and sizes of binders and even make some that are made-to-measure so it should be possible for an adult male to have one made to fit if he so wished. But I've yet to hear of a case. That would imply that binding is often connected with archaic gender roles.
I'm sure you already know of the usual alternative - baggy clothes, diet, therapy. I won't dare suggest surgery on a detrans site but if I had to choose, at gunpoint, between surgery and the breathing problems experienced by the majority of trans people that describe the experience then I'd be forced to have surgery.
Her mother has enforced such strict gender roles upon her that she thought she was a boy. Guilt-tripping a child who was on the brink of mutilating herself is not helpful. I'm sure her mother is acting with the best of intentions but someone needs to tell her mother that the world has moved on since 1950.
I can only speak accurately about my own personal experience of dysphoria. I consider myself to be the same as someone who wants a limb removed because they feel like it's not a part of them. For some reason I had a deep aversion to several characteristics of my body which were connected with my female physiology. I despise the smell of my female sweat, my lack of body hair, low muscle mass and many other things. Most of all I hated having female genitalia, but since I started testosterone 10 weeks ago I have become very happy with all aspects of my body. For the first time in my life I feel completely happy with being a woman. Genuine cases of body dysmorphia like mine are probably much more rare than the media would have people believe. I think the understanding you have is probably typical of young people who consider themselves to be trans but are instead suffering from brainwashing by insanely rigid interpretations of archaic gender roles.
I have a fantastic psychiatrist but the person who prescribes my testosterone has a very "modern" understanding of gender dysphoria. We had a protracted argument about the difference between gender non-conforming and gender identity. I will not lie to medical professionals but with some of them I have to choose my words carefully. If I don't appear to be actively conforming with transgender ideology them I am at risk of having treatment withdrawn. In order to placate my prescriber I had to say that, given the current colloquial understanding of the term "gender identity", I can say that my gender identity is male. This is sort of technically true. But I reject the entire concept of gender identity. I have never identified myself by my genitalia or XX chromosomes. That goes against my ethical beliefs in egalitarianism which constitute a significant part of my real identity. The concept of gender identity seems to me to be a massive step backwards for equality. My prescriber is trying to convince me to have surgery which I absolutely do not ever want. Currently I am using private healthcare so I have more choice about my treatment. I am concerned over what will happen if I transfer to the NHS. I may get treatment denied because I refuse to deny science or have my healthy tissue mutilated. I've already been forced to legally take on male titles, pronouns and a male name in order to receive help. I only use them with medical professionals. Everyone in my personal life regards me as female. I hate the current push to demedicalise gender dysphoria. I am okay with people knowing that I have body dysmorphia. I'm not okay with everyone thinking I'm a completely delusional science denier. I've read some of the peer reviewed papers "proving" that transgenderism is a natural expression of gender arising from a male brain structure. All the papers I've read are utterly laughable. Those papers are not entirely within my field but I know enough about peer reviewed research in related fields to recognise how much they are ridiculously clutching at straws and hoping that no-one will understand enough to see them for the pathetic propaganda implements that they are.
I've only just found this subreddit. It's a relief to find other people who feel similarly to me. Sometimes the amount of brainwashing is so intense that I've been wondering if I'm being stubborn and crazy to still insist that I'm a woman. Luckily I'm old enough to think for myself. I've seen posts from thousands of impressionable kids who are not so lucky.
I'm supposed to be embarking on a journey to be free to express my true identity. I can label myself as two-spirit, moon gender, demi-boy or anything else except for woman. Similarly for pronouns; I can be he, xim, they, jiz, fvytftguycu, a gender that can only expressed by a whining sound or the colour purple, anything at all except she. If you need medical help you must conform and propagate the ideas of the collective.
FUCK THE COLLECTIVE. I'M A WOMAN.