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About me
I was a deeply unhappy girl who never fit in, and I found online communities that told me my discomfort meant I was trans. I transitioned to escape the pressures of being a woman, taking testosterone and having top surgery. After the initial high faded, I was left with the same me in a permanently altered body, realizing I hadn't solved my real problems. I now see my feelings were a rejection of sexist stereotypes, not a sign I was born in the wrong body. I am learning to embrace being a woman on my own terms while making peace with the changes I can't reverse.
My detransition story
My name isn't important, but my story is. I’m sharing this here because I hope it might help someone else feel less alone.
My whole journey started from a place of deep unhappiness with myself. I was a girl who never felt like I fit in, especially when I hit puberty. I hated the changes my body was going through; developing breasts felt like a betrayal. I just wanted to flat and invisible. I spent a lot of time online, and that’s where I first found communities that explained these feelings as being "trans." It made a kind of sense at the time. It felt like an answer to why I felt so uncomfortable in my own skin.
I started identifying as non-binary first, then later as a trans man. It felt like an escape from all the pressures and expectations that came with being a woman. I saw how women were treated and the impossible standards we're held to, and I wanted no part of it. I think a lot of my drive to transition was a form of escapism from that. I got really deep into online spaces where this was the only narrative, and it felt like I had finally found a place where I belonged. My friends at the time were all transitioning or identifying as trans too, so it felt like the right path.
I ended up taking testosterone and I got top surgery. I was so sure it was what I needed to finally be happy and comfortable. For a little while, I did feel better. The initial high of "fixing" the things I hated was powerful. But that feeling didn't last. After the excitement faded, I was left with the same me, but in a body that was permanently altered. I started to realize that I hadn't solved my underlying problems—my low self-esteem, my depression, my discomfort with how the world treats women. I had just performed a major, irreversible procedure on myself.
I don't regret my journey because it led me to where I am now, but I deeply regret the permanent changes I made to my body. I am now infertile because of the hormones, and I have scars from my surgery that are a constant physical reminder of a choice I can't take back. My body will never be what it was, and I have to make peace with that.
My thoughts on gender have completely changed. I don't believe anymore that you can change your sex. I believe I was a woman all along, a woman who was deeply uncomfortable with the sexist confines of what that meant. I see now that my feelings were a form of body dysmorphia and a rejection of sexist stereotypes, not a sign that I was born in the wrong body. I benefited greatly from therapy that wasn't just about affirming my trans identity, but that helped me unpack my trauma, my self-hatred, and my internalized misogyny.
I've also found a lot of comfort in my faith. I believe now that I am a woman, a creation of God, and that this is the path I was meant to be on, even with all its pain. I'm trying to embrace being a woman on my own terms, without the makeup and the pressure that the world tries to force on us. I'm learning that I can be a woman and just be me.
Here is a timeline of my journey as best as I can remember it:
| Age | Event |
|---|---|
| 13-14 | Started puberty. Felt intense discomfort and hated developing breasts. Felt like I didn't fit in as a girl. |
| 16 | Spent a lot of time online. Was influenced by trans communities and friends. Began to identify as non-binary. |
| 18 | Started identifying as a trans man. Began taking testosterone. |
| 20 | Had top surgery. |
| 22-23 | The initial euphoria faded. Underlying depression and self-esteem issues returned. Began to question my transition. |
| 24 | Realized I was not a man. Stopped taking testosterone. Accepted that I am a woman and began detransitioning. |
Top Comments by /u/Hospitalized_Enby:
Honestly? That's a sucky event and I wouldn't go. Unless it was specifically listed that the event was only for biological women, you'd get men enbies and other random genders showing up to the event.
As far as mods go, they're all encouraging this idea that anything meant for women (Including childbirth) can be for trans mtfs as well. It's erasing all of the hard work women have done and are doing to be seen as equal.
I'm so, so very sorry that you have to deal with all of this. I want to let you know right now: You are not disgusting. You ARE a woman, a beautiful woman of God. He made you this way for a reason, it's all part of his plan for your life. Trust in him, lean on the Lord. He will support you. I will be praying for you.
As far as your boyfriend goes, shoving you down the stairs is physical abuse. It's a clear indication of the type of person he is, and he's not someone you want to be around in the long run. If you are safely able to, I would leave the relationship. Tell him that him physically injuring you was crossing a line, and you need time and space away from him.
My advice would also be to get a therapist, they don't have to be a Christian one. Find someone you can talk to about these emotions and your thoughts. If you need to vent more or anything like that, my DMs are always open. Take care, and remember that you are a gorgeous, complex creation and you deserve a beautiful life. My prayers go out to you. :)
I'm not sure what you're talking about, you're adorable and gorgeous as a girl! The type of girl I would instantly want to be friends with. Here's the thing. The reason you feel "wild" and "bare" is because this world shoves it down women's throats that they NEED makeup and they NEED to have a perfect figure and they NEED to wear clothes that are popular. But that's not true, and it never has been. You're beautiful, my friend. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise, okay? I'm here rooting for you!
Yaoi is literally just gay porn, what you're seeing is the specifically shotacon fetish side of it. Still nasty and horrible, but it's a small (yet vocal) subsection. Shotacon, for reference, is the fetishisation of young boys or men that resemble young boys. I agree with most of the other things you wrote though.
I'm probably going to put pictures in the chapters that are specifically 16+. The goal of this book is to present as much information as possible. I really like the idea of picture evidence! Do you know of any websites where I can find pictures of the damage caused?