I‘m concerned if this person is truly a med student. The amount of victim blaming from their lack of understanding of the adolescent mind couldn’t be more apparent.

I am a detrans med student since saying that is all it takes to be credible according to OP.

We’re living proof that transition is not an infallible means to the treatment of gender dysphoria. Or for the “non dysphoric trans people,” a way to find his or her’s identity whatever that may mean... Our existence means they, and what they preach, can be criticized. Nobody likes to deal with criticism, of course, but it speaks volumes that they’d rather shut us down than have a discussion with us about it. Similar to the r/GCDebatesQT sub which was destroyed in the recent ban waves.

“How do you imagine your future as an adult man?”

I never would’ve went on hormones if I had been asked this.. I simply couldn’t, because I am not a man. I shunned my womanhood for so long for the sake of my leftie friends and family. Even then I could not imagine my future as a man. My last injection, which I contemplated so hard, it set in; I will never be a male. And that’s okay. And that I needed to get back on track.

Well, I think transition solved problems for me in the moment but I never thought about what life as an adult man would be like in the future. That question sprung to me when I was looking for colleges and the answer became clear to me.

I never should’ve been allowed to take hormones. Everything was wrong.. I wish the process was more involved so that people like me wouldn’t be failed by the medical system.

My advice to you is to wear whatever the hell you want (if you’re in a safe environment), clothing shouldn’t be gendered in the first place. I am a masculine presenting woman and I wouldn’t express who I am any other way. Despite detransitioning, I still don’t have a “sense” of being male, female, whatever. I just am.

Maybe talk with your therapist more about your relationships with the women in your life and more of how you perceive women. Out of anything though I recommend expressing yourself the way you desire. Nowadays society stresses the idea more than ever that if you’re a masculine woman, you’re actually a man, and if you’re a feminine man, you’re actually a woman. I bought into that notion and it worsened my dysphoria.

Transition is not for everyone. Don’t immediately jump into hormones or surgery. If you do, make sure you do heavy research online; these doctors sometimes don’t know what they’re doing or what they’re talking about.

Take care.

Complicated.. the biggest reason why was that I simply couldn’t imagine myself living as a man. Sounds stupid, but I was a kid.. I never imagined living as a man in his 30s. A middle aged man, an old man, still relying on shots to keep up the façade. I thought about my future for the first time and got so emotional.

I wanted to find a nice man or woman who could love me authentically because I was authentic. I wanted to carry children later, I wanted to embrace male fashion in the body of a woman; not the semblance of a man.

I know this is vague but I could go on and on.. regardless of what you choose to do, these are my feelings. Best of luck :)

I identified with being male when I was young. Told me parents to call me male names and rejected my birthname, ripped up my “female” clothing, cut off my hair and ripped it out constantly and worse things I’d rather not get into. I was a textbook case of gender dysphoria... puberty blockers then hormones at 16. Detransitioned 6 months later.

And yet here I am. I will look down on this failed system until real changes are made. There are more women who were on T longer than me so in a way I’m one of the “lucky” ones but I will never have my voice back and I’ll have to shave for the rest of my life.

Can’t format properly because I’m on mobile. This is @ your last paragraph:

I want to tell you even after I detransitioned I still hate people referring to me as “sister” and everything. I’ve always been a masculine woman (I have a “butch” appearance but I’m not a lesbian) and honestly, there’s nothing wrong with that. I live separately from most feminine terms, I didn’t need to become male to do that. But I also wasn’t a smart kid and unfortunately the state punishes us for that.

Stop deepthroating that NHS boot and putting the blame on a 16 year old child. You’re not the NHS and you are not without flaw. If 16 is old enough for a child to make a life altering, irreversible decision which you say one cannot necessarily be capable of making such a decision, then go on to imply 16 years olds are not too young, then why don’t we also lower the voting age? Drinking age? Military age?

If 16 is old enough, why are we all here? Most of us started as teenagers with little barriers in our way. Feeding into instability of the adolescent mind is the last thing we needed. If it’s anything teenagers are known for, it’s surely their 100% stable sense of self, right?

Stating that you are “looking forward” to “””your””” *suing, you seem to be enjoying or making light of our situations. The system has failed us and you need to gain perspective. There comes a point when it’s not about you. A future medical professional ought to know better than that.

Your hair might revert to a semblance of the texture it once was, but not completely. Facial hair will get lighter in color and could grow in slower, but it’ll never stop unless invasive procedures are taken.

Not sure if there’s anything you can do about hair loss though. Examine the characteristics of hair of the men in your family (are they balding? receding hairline ?) and if they’ve had regrowth treatment/formula. I do hope your endo informed you about potential results by starting HRT.