The solution for most people literally is just to get older. I think people know that and that’s why they’re trying so hard to push this onto children. I know for a fact that I would not have been completely and totally convinced that I would kill myself without a mastectomy at 20 yrs old if I wasn’t told at 11 years old that some people were born in the wrong body. I wish I was just given space to get the fuck over it. As an adult, I genuinely do not give a shit about how I look. My body wasn’t made to be “perceived as” male or female. I’m supposed to be out there gardening, fucking, making omelettes, playing Stardew, etc. I can’t believe my identity for like ten years was “How do I feel when I stand in front of a mirror? What should people think when they look at me?”

Yes, I have a lot of regret and anger towards my transition but it’s solely because of the ideology that brought me to make those decisions. I personally wouldn’t have made the decision to remove my breasts if I wasn’t made to believe at a young age that some women aren’t supposed to have breasts, that I should be heavily invested in how I look and am perceived and that having a flat chest would make me less female/more male. I really don’t care that much about having a flat chest, I am extremely bummed out about not being able to breast feed but I am very angry that I was clinging so desperately to an ideology that encouraged and validated suicidal ideation.

I feel like gender identity ideology is a form of ideological extremism. Before embracing that ideology, I was a Pentecostal Christian so I feel like I lost all of my childhood and adolescence to extremism which saddens me.

It’s strange being normal now. I used to think that “cis people” didn’t “get it” and that I just had a much higher understanding of gender and sex than the average person but that was completely false.

I think your surroundings and the messages you’ve received about being male and a gay effeminate male have affected you and your social/sexual development more than you would like to admit and definitely more than you can perceive by yourself. I think all of us are like that.

You can’t prove that hearing boys call each other faggots and sissies at school is or isn’t why you have this mental illness and you can’t prove that your brains response to androgens in utero is or isn’t why you have this mental illness. But it’s fun (and important) to consider these things of course.

Let’s pretend that 100% of “cis women” and 100% of “trans women” have similar or the same amount and distribution of grey and white matter in their brains. How does this trait cause gender dysphoria? Why does having a female brain mean that looking at your beard makes you suicidal? When do people develop male and female brains? Why do some men with female brains hate their penis and some love it? Why do some of them feel neutral about it?

1. For me “trans” means someone who is transitioning. That’s it. There’s no internal soul level characteristics that makes someone cis or trans. Someone who is injecting testosterone because they think being masculine means they were supposed to be male and someone who is injecting testosterone because they are traumatized by their childhood (sometimes both of these can describe the same person) are both trans. I feel I’ll always be kind of trans because I transitioned and I cannot take that back.

2. 4 years

3. I had a bilateral mastectomy and after I experienced a reduction in dysphoria, my thoughts and judgment became a lot less cloudy. I was able to actually think about my actions clearly and I saw what patterns led me to believing that I would kill myself without plastic surgery. I have always been uncomfortable with my breasts, it only became life or death for me after I accepted gender identity ideology and started passing as male and believing that passing as male was me being my “authentic self”.

4. (See my answer to number one) The reason I transitioned was because I believed that gender dysphoria could only be managed by transitioning. That people like me eventually killer themselves every single time. I was a child and I could not see past all of the propaganda and bullshit surrounding this topic. I didn’t see it as a choice I saw it in the same way as a diabetic taking insulin. I thought it was stupid for me to not take testosterone and get my breasts amputated.

5. I mostly regret buying into and spreading the ideology that brought me so low that I thought I was going to kill myself and that my body was literally deformed. I did not feel suicidal when looking at my breasts before I bought into gender identity ideology, I felt mildly to moderately uncomfortable. I will never ever promote an ideology like that again after seeing the havoc it wreaks on the mental health of young people.

6. You live and you learn. I will never let myself get that low again. My body wasn’t made to be “perceived as” anything. My body was made for sleeping, eating, planning dinner parties, playing Stardew Valley, fucking etc. I am not some object that’s designed to sit in front of a mirror and I’m not a Mr Potato Head doll.

7. I don’t have a gender identity anymore.

8. The messages society shoved down my throat and that I shoved down my own throat. It’s confusing being on the margins of society.

9. I don’t have a gender identity. I’ve completely rejected the idea of gender roles and they do not play any part in how I think about myself at all at this point in my life.

10. Again, don’t believe in gender identity. I no longer believe I “should have been born as” anything I just factually am a female adult regardless of how it makes me feel. At this moment in time, after a ton of healing, I feel neutral about my sex.

11. When I transitioned I wholly believed that I was in some way a man. I thought that a man was someone who looked like a male human adult or someone who wanted to look this way.

I don’t know about this, I used to hate my nose and I would get pushback almost every time I commented negatively about it. It’s socially acceptable for me to say “your hair texture is fine! Your weight is fine! I think you’re beautiful.” Cross sex identity is definitely put on a pedestal. I can’t imagine a psychiatrist telling me that my face is objectively deformed and that plastic surgery would fix it. I will say that I live in the United States and this could be a cultural thing.