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About me
I was born male and transitioned to female, even having surgery, because I believed it was a magic cure for my unhappiness. I now see it as a form of escapism from deeper issues like trauma and feeling out of place. The medical process couldn't change my fundamental biology, and I've since detransitioned, removing implants and trying to reverse some changes. I don't have simple regrets, but instead see it as a rare experience that led me to a new purpose. I now focus on studying the technology I experienced and finding meaning in my own healing journey.
My detransition story
My journey with transition and detransition has been the most profound and challenging experience of my life. I was born male and I transitioned to female, which included getting vaginoplasty surgery. Later, I detransitioned back to living as male. I had my breast implants removed and I’ve used finasteride to try and regrow some of my facial hair, which is ironic after spending over $10,000 on hair removal.
For a long time, I’ve tried to make sense of why I did all of this. I see my transition now as a form of unconscious escapism. I think I was sold on the idea of a magic cure—a complete transformation into a new identity that would come with a wave of acceptance. The medical process and the shift in community felt like a painful but necessary step to escape the pain of staying the same. What I came to realize is that the technology can’t actually change your sex. The reality is more like a form of castration with some cosmetic and erotic function. You can’t change the fundamental biology you started with.
I’ve come to believe that the root causes for wanting to escape are often things like early trauma, being developmentally unique, or feeling socially out of place. For me, it was about trying to exit my current identity without dealing with what was really underneath. I now see my transition through the lens of automorphophilia, which is a love of the idea of oneself as a different kind of being. It was about transforming my physical self.
I don’t have regrets in a simple way. I frame it all as something rare that I “got to do” in this life. We have this incredible biotechnology that humans have never had before, and I got to experience it firsthand. In a strange way, I’ve found a sense of purpose in it. I now get to be on the forefront of understanding these technologies, from phalloplasty to neurogenesis and even organ cloning. I’ve gone deep into studying trauma healing and psychiatric therapies. This set of interests wasn’t my original motivation, but it’s the adventure I’m choosing now. It lets me reconnect with feelings of excitement, wonder, and awe.
My thoughts on gender are that it has become deeply entangled with consumerism and self-objectification. The idea of “gender identity” feels like it’s been mixed up with fashion and consumer culture, far removed from any core sense of self. It’s a difficult thing to say in most trans spaces, but it’s what I’ve come to believe.
Ultimately, I’ve built a personal belief that we choose our lives and our experiences for our soul’s growth. This belief gives me a framework to feel like the author of my own story and reclaim my agency. I played the hand I was dealt, even if I tried to change it dramatically. Now, I’m trying to make it all meaningful.
Here is a timeline of my major events:
Age | Event |
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26 | Started taking hormones and began living as female. |
31 | Underwent vaginoplasty surgery. |
36 | Had breast implants put in. |
39 | Began to detransition, stopped taking hormones. |
40 | Had breast implants removed. Started using finasteride to regrow facial hair. |
Top Comments by /u/KavaKava117:
this may be interesting and a bit triggering to read: http://www.transgression.com/Articles/DisplayArticle.aspx?CountryISONumericCode=124&LanguageISOAlpha2Code=en&ArticleCode=TheConceptOfAutomorphophilia
personally, i see it as a form of unconscious escapism. we see the magic cure of transformation and exit from current identity; with a love bomb of acceptance on the other side of medical processes and community shifting (which is in itself painful; though less painful than doing nothing)
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but we ultimately realize that the only way to shift the history of the genetic biology is to terminate the living organism and start again with the opposite developmental cascade through puberty and primary cell division. in other words, we realize that the technology to transform is sold as a full medical transformation of the sex of the human (ourself) and the reality is a castration with erotic function and cosmetic conformity to the target gender roughly.
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this all is not engaging the root causes to exit the current identity: most often a early trauma, developmental uniqueness, or social uniqueness. All within the artificial context of the local cultural frames were navigate our society through.
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humans are beautifully complex! and we signed up to be one (whatever you believe) and with this gift, we chose an interesting hand to play the game with/as.
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i say play the hand and step into the unknown.
if you've castrated yourself, make it meaningful.
if you have transitioned and transitioned back, what did you learn? how can this inform future cultural intelligence around embodiment and technology?
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we hunans do not have it all figured out. least of all the 'authorities' attempting to regulate access to powerful and VERY new biomedical technologies.
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go write an awesome story about it; and write it with your actions!
This is very well said. +1 to questioning the nature of your in group via reflecting on how you view the out group. Can you see yourself in friendship and community with ideological diversity? If not, the problem is internal to self. Examine our values and determine what is serving and what is not.
https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/27156012/ . . It's possible. Neophallus construction from thigh or wrist. Enervation potential obviously related to the success of the neovagina enervation. . What are your goals? . Is it to do with your own body in isolation? Or to do with the connection and act of penetrative sex in how you seen to access connection with others? Is it to do with some level of internal image of self? . I hope in exploring these questions, you can discern if a neo phallus would align with your ideal life.
this lands for me too. especially some of the later commenters. I am mtftm post vaginoplasty. just had my breast implants removed and have used finasteride to regrow a bit of facial hair. (after over$10k of hair removal! lol)
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I frame this all as something we 'get to do' in this life. It is a very rare opportunity for us to transform our physical bodies through biotechnology. Our species has NEVER had this level of technology. yes, we had rudimentary surgically trans folks throughout various moments in history, but most of these boil down to some form of eunuch. And if I get really honest, this is closest to what I have created in myself.
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So where do i find solace? or fulfillment? My answer, and I hope this helps others, is in the belief that we chose this life, these experiences, and this time to experience exactly what our soul/consciousness/self needs to experience. That we are living out our dharma. That we are creating this entire story. This is a belief structure, no way a fact, no way verifiable. And in no way shrouded in dogma. Simply a base framework within which I can experience authorship of my life, and from there build a narrative that reclaims my agency in this moment and moving forward.
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so now I get to be on the forefront of phalloplasticy surgery and neurogenesis technologies. I can study the research in organ cloning and xenotransplantation. I get to go deep into studying cognitive processing therapy, trauma healing, psychiatric therapeutic innovations, and all these truly powerful technologies that are the root of the historical event and the seed of the hopeful future.
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now was this set of interests the original motivation to embark on this path? no. Are these the content of the adventure I am choosing moving foreward? yes! and here I am reconnecting with excitement and possibility. Wonder and awe. Which are the foundations of healthy neurochemistry and self regulation towards a beautiful life.
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happy to talk more with those curious.
within the framework of reproduction as primary, yes, we can create an argument that the trans movement is truly about sterilization. However, this argument falls apart in two ways.
- Invitro fertilization and crypto storage of reproductive materials (and other fertility technologies) which are all accessible to medically tans folks.
- transhumanism, human+ movement as an expression of consentual human enhancement. eugenics is population manipulation and mass breeding plus biotechnology, minus participant consent. transhumanism is similar, but with participant agency as a key component.
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I believe that intergenerational global wealth (global elite class) have more incentive to invest in human enhancement than in population control. I also believe there are significant investments in population control indirectly through consumerism: ex: "give them what they want" until they self destruct. trans'gender'ism is truly consumerism meets healthcare meets self objectification. (I would be eaten alive for saying that in trans community! especially the framing as 'gender' itself being embodied consumerism + fashion. These are too distant from the concepts of 'identity' that are centered within the dominant ideology.) Supporting this are theories of class dynamics that center discipline and delayed gratification as key tenets to upward mobility within the hierarchy.
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lastly, when confronted with institutional and systemic power that we cannot fully see, therefore cannot fully understand, it is human nature to consolidate agency. in other words, when we cannot see true complexity behind a power structure, we default creating a conspiracy or equivalent collusion. This is a red flag. Whenever I default to a conspiratorial thinking, I check my limited sample set and seek where I lack information.
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In the above example: we lack information of direct communication with our elected officials and their superiors. With the proximity I have through my professional network (impact and private equity investment) I lean towards human enhancement as the driver behind advances in trans health technologies, not eugenics.