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Based on the provided comments, this account appears to be authentic.
There are no serious red flags suggesting it is a bot or an inauthentic user. The comments display a highly personal, emotional, and reflective narrative that is consistent with a genuine detransitioner/desister. The writing has a natural, conversational flow with self-deprecating humor ("lmao," "XD"), emotional depth, and specific, believable details about the user's experience (voice changes, Discord interactions, past platform use). The passion and anger expressed are consistent with someone who has experienced significant personal harm.
About me
I started identifying as a boy online at 16 because I was lonely and desperate for a community to belong to. I took testosterone a year later even though I knew the risks, because I was stubborn and wanted the happiness I saw others having. I deeply regret it now, especially my permanently changed voice that always makes people think I'm a man. I feel terrible about how I treated my parents and friends who tried to warn me. Even though I wish I could take it all back, this awful experience gave me real friends and the knowledge to help others avoid the same trap.
My detransition story
My whole journey started from a really lonely and confused place. I was desperate for friends and love and support, and I found all of that in the online trans community. It felt like I finally belonged somewhere. I kept changing my gender label, but I mainly stuck with telling everyone "I'm some type of boy." Looking back, I was so lost.
I became completely aware that what I was doing was wrong, and I hated every moment of it. It felt like there was someone else controlling me. I remember joking with friends that I had become the complete opposite of myself, but in my head, I was horrified at what I'd become. I was so selfish and manipulative to anyone who disagreed with me. I saw all these trans men on YouTube, Tumblr, and Reddit who seemed so happy and fulfilled, and I wanted that so badly. I did extensive research on the side effects and risks of hormones, but I didn't care. I just wanted that happiness.
My parents and a couple of real-life friends tried to stop me from transitioning, and I feel so guilty about how I treated them now. I wish I could go back in time and punch myself in the face for not listening. I was so stubborn.
I ended up taking testosterone. My voice dropped permanently, and that's something I really regret. It doesn't go back. It fucking sucks. Whenever I meet people on Discord and jump into voice chat, they always think I'm a guy. It's kind of ironic.
I regret transitioning. I regret the permanent changes I made to my body. I desperately wish I could have my old body and voice back. But, as much as I regret everything I did, if I never went through those experiences, I wouldn't have the knowledge I have now. I also wouldn't have the new, real friends I have now. Yes, it was awful what I put myself through, but I can use my experience to try and help other people before they fall into the same trap.
The scariest thing for me was that I knew I was making a mistake but felt powerless to stop it. I want to tell people who've gone really far into transition and feel like they can never go back that it's never too late. You can always go back.
| Age | Year | Event |
|---|---|---|
| 16 | 2017 | Started identifying as "some type of boy" online, desperate for community. |
| 17 | 2018 | Began taking testosterone despite knowing the risks. |
| 18 | 2019 | Realized I regretted transitioning and detransitioned. Voice permanently changed. |
Top Comments by /u/Kioso:
i have no idea how to respond to this other than "thank you so much". it really means a lot when people relate to my story and feel the same way, and it means everything when someone tells me it helps them feel better or something. i feel like i really want to help people who've been through this kind of thing and want to go back but are terrified of losing everything.
the scariest thing for me was i was completely aware of what i was doing and i hated every moment of it. i felt like there was someone else controlling me, though there's a reason for that i won't get into here lmao. i remember telling me friends that i basically became the complete opposite of myself as if it was a fucking joke, but in my head i was horrified at what i'd become. i was so selfish and manipulative to anyone who disagreed with me.
also dude i'll be friends with you :3 my discord is Kio#8008 if you want to add me there.
I am so sorry you had to go through all of that. that sounds truly awful and it infuriates me how easy transitioning is. even though I did extensive research on the side effects and risks, I didn't care because all of the trans men I saw on YouTube and Tumblr and Reddit seemed so happy and fulfilled and I wanted that so badly.
I feel guilty because my parents and a couple of irl friends tried to stop me from transitioning. I wish I could just go back in time and punch myself in the face.
not everything goes back to how it was. some things do, but stuff like your voice will not go back. it fucking sucks. whenever I meet people on discord and I jump into voice chat they always think I'm a guy. it's kind of ironic.
i think about this a lot. like either i wrote a letter or i met my younger self. there's so much i could say and man i'd love to just slap her across the face and scream "DO NOT TELL THEM YOU'RE TRANS. IT'S NOT GOING TO FIX ANYTHING, YOU'RE JUST GOING TO START A HORRIBLE CYCLE OF LYING AND YOU'RE GOING TO DO SO MANY THINGS YOU'LL END UP REGRETTING."
but honestly, as much as i regret everything i did and as much as i'd love to have my old body and voice back, if i never went through the experiences i did i wouldn't have the knowledge i do now. i wouldn't have the new REAL friends i have now. yes it was awful what i put myself through, but i can use my experience to help other people before they fall into the same trap. (or at least try, i guess lol.)
yeah i'll def let you know! :) i'd be down for an interview because i'm better at answering questions than just telling my story (out loud, at least lol)
i think i'm just going to tell my story anyway because i'm sure eventually all the slander and hatred will go back on them. karma and all that. i've already had the few people i've told my story too tell me that it's inspired and encouraged them, so i can only imagine how many more people i can help. i really want to tell people who've gone really far in and feel like they can never go back that it's never too late to go back.
i used to have twitter but i deleted it lol. i could always remake it but i honestly have no idea how twitter works. i could never really understand it. i'd love to join the group chat tho if that's possible :3
yeah i'd been so desparate for friends and love and support and i had all that with the trans community, but i was still always so confused and lost. i kept changing my gender, though i was mainly sticking to "i'm some type of boy" lol.
that sounds interesting! i'd be down for sharing my story, tho i have no idea how podcasts work either. XD i've been thinking about writing a book about everything i've been through (there is so much i went through besides the trans stuff - though that basically opened the door to it all because i was like "well if i can do this then i can do anything" and it was...really bad lol), but i have no idea how to go about it. i'm also constantly terrified that i'll just be labelled as some crazy religious nut or something.