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Authenticity Assessment: Not Suspicious
Based on the provided comments, the account appears authentic. The user describes a highly specific, internally consistent, and emotionally charged personal narrative centered around autogynephilia, a fetish-driven motivation for considering transition, and subsequent desistance. The language is personal, nuanced, and includes self-deprecating humor and embarrassment, which is atypical for a bot. The passion and anger align with the experiences of many desisters.
No major red flags for inauthenticity. The story is coherent over time and reflects a known, though controversial, perspective on gender dysphoria.
About me
My gender confusion started with a childhood dream and became a fantasy I chased online. I realized my desire to be a girl was driven by a fetish and low self-esteem, not by actually being female. I broke the cycle by quitting pornography and building my confidence through working out. I’m much happier now as a feminine guy who enjoys crossplay without needing to medically transition. I’m grateful I never made permanent changes to my body because of that temporary confusion.
My detransition story
My whole journey with gender confusion started when I was really young. I had a dream when I was ten where I woke up as a cartoon girl, and that idea stuck with me. It became this fantasy I chased, wanting to look like an "anime girl" and wear those sailor uniforms. For a while, I thought this meant I was actually a girl. I started scrolling through male-to-female TikTok videos when I was a bit older, around 17, and tried really hard to relate to them. I even planned to medically transition as soon as I turned 18 and leave my parents, who are actually very loving.
A lot of my feelings were tied up in low self-esteem and a lack of confidence. I hated my body, but it wasn't really about being male. I hated having body hair and wanted smooth skin and to be thin. I felt like I couldn't do things I wanted to do, like shave my arms and legs or wear skirts and makeup, without people thinking I was gay. I'm straight, and that societal pressure really messed with my head. I think a lot of guys have these repressed feminine desires, and it causes confusion.
The biggest factor for me, though, was a fetish. I realized that a lot of my desire to be a girl was actually autogynephilia (AGP). It was a sexual fantasy I'd had since I was about nine, where I wanted to be transformed into a girl by a girl. This turned into a serious porn addiction, specifically to sissy porn, which made everything worse. It created a horrible cycle. I'd get turned on by the idea of transitioning, then after masturbating, I'd get terrible post-nut clarity and feel like absolute shit about myself. The fetish would always come back, and I could see myself falling down a rabbit hole: starting hormones, getting facial feminization surgery, growing breasts, and even getting bottom surgery. I knew that if I got to the point of genital surgery and couldn't masturbate anymore, I would realize the horrible mistake I'd made and it would probably lead me to suicide. The thought of being sterilized and losing sexual function scared me straight, to be honest.
I never had any dysphoria about my genitals, which is apparently common with AGP. My dysphoria was more about wanting a different kind of body, a feminine one, but it was driven by this fetish and my low self-worth. What really helped me break the cycle was stopping pornography. Doing "nofap" was like a mental refresher; it drastically reduced my AGP feelings. Working out also helped me immensely. When I was able to lift weights for two years, my dysphoria completely went away because it built my confidence. I had to stop for medical reasons, and when my body got skinny again, the confusing feelings came back. I even got into cosplaying female anime characters, which was fun, but it also fed into the fantasy. I'm worried that when I get older and can't maintain a certain look, the dysphoria might return, and that thought has been so overwhelming I've considered suicide.
I also dated a girl, but it didn't help. It just made me more jealous of her. She could wear all the clothes I wanted to wear, like skirts and dresses, and she was better at cosplaying than I was. It made me feel worse about my own body.
Looking back, I don't believe I ever really was a girl. I can't imagine myself being one in any real scenario. If someone called me "ma'am," I'd be confused. I'm much happier now identifying as a "femboy"—I'm still a guy, but I enjoy dressing in a feminine way and cosplaying female characters without needing to medically transition. I have a lot of regrets about even going down that path and almost making permanent changes to my body because of a fetish and low self-esteem. I'm grateful I never took puberty blockers or hormones. I often think that if I was born in a time without the internet and all these influences, I never would have had these feelings. It was the combination of online content, porn, and my own insecurities that created this whole problem.
| Age | Event |
|---|---|
| 9 | Started having a fantasy about being transformed into a girl. |
| 10 | Had a dream about being a cartoon girl, which solidified the fantasy. |
| 11 | Was grateful later that I did not take testosterone blockers at this age. |
| 17 | Went through a period of believing I was a girl, influenced by mTf TikTok content. Planned to medically transition at 18. |
| 17 | Realized the issue was a fetish (autogynephilia) and low self-esteem, and decided not to transition. Began identifying as a femboy. |
| 17 | Started and maintained a workout routine for 2 years, which eliminated my dysphoria during that time. |
| 19 | Had to stop working out for medical reasons; dysphoric feelings returned. |
| 19 | Committed to avoiding pornography, which significantly reduced AGP feelings. |
Top Comments by /u/Least_Paint_5628:
The video honestly surprised me 😯
This is the sad and scary part about transitioning. I’m honestly greatful I never took T blockers when I was 11. These kids are getting sterilized for life, I could understand not being able to produce semen, but going to the level of not being able to orgasm/feel sexual satisfaction is insane.
I have a severe case of autogynophelia and gender dysphoria. The main reasons I don’t want to transition is because my dating life would take a hit. Plus I’m 6ft and my shoulders are extremely wide and I have big hands. I can’t get my dream body anyways, I’ll only hurt my family members just so I can make up some weird fetish I have.
Honestly, the thing that helped my autogynophelia, (and I say autogynophelia and not gd, bc I believe those to be separate things) is nofap. Shit was like a mental refresher. My agp feelings nuked. I also have high dht levels which made this all worse.
The thing I’m scared the most about is that I’ll eventually start aging and my gd will come back. I’ve considered suicide bc I was born with a skewed sexuality that makes me hate my own gender.
I guess the most important thing id say is if you were born in a forest in the middle of no where, no internet, and 0 women, would you ever even have dysphoria? Just something to think about. Bc if I was born in the early 1900s before internet and in a forest I’d have 0 dysphoria, 100%. Sure I’d probably notice that my sexuality is a little off but those feelings wouldn’t consume me like they did now.
You are only 17, you still have your entire life ahead of you. I also went through a similar thing, but mTf version, where for a month I thought I was a girl. I would scroll on mTf tik toks, and try to relate to them. I was planning on medically transitioning once I turned 18, and leaving my loving parents. I wish nothing but happiness for you, I know it’s hard.
It’s so sad seeing so many guys my age suffer and hate themselves being born guys, hating their parents for being born a guy, even though most are decent looking guys. Some of them model themselves based off anime women, and some are also suffering from the same fetish as me, or they having clothing fetishes like wearing skirts/maid dresses. I see 1 common thing in all of them, which is low self esteem or low confidence. I appreciate you the support <3
It’s a weird fantasy I’ve had since I was like 9. I wanted to be transformed into a girl by a girl. The problem with this fantasy is it could lead to life changing affects, and this fantasy of mine eventually led to a fetish. And yes, autogynophelia is a plague, at least what it’s done to me. I mean, a man wanting to look like a girl, having the sexual parts of a girl, is a rabbit hole fetish. First of I’d like to address that I have 0 dysphoria regarding my genitals, a common thing with autogynophelia. It’s a cycle, I’d go on hormones, the doctor would say “use it or lose it”, and I would keep jerking it, falling deeper to the rabbit hole, every time post nut clarity would hit I would feel like shit, and the next day the fetish would return, keep going, and then probably get ffs, and then keep going and get breasts, so I could feminize myself more, and keep feeling like shit because of everything I’ve done. However the fetish continues, and then I get grs. Now that I can’t masturbate anymore, I’d realize what I’ve done to myself, how much I’ve messed up because of a fetish, and then suffer, eventually leading to suicide. Do you understand how destructive this type of fetish is? If I kept going down the path I was going, undoubtedly that would’ve been my life.
I had a dream when I was 10 where I woke up as a cartoon girl. Ever since then it being my gender dysphoria and I began chasing this fantasy of me wanting to be an “anime girl”. I always wanted to wear the anime sailor uniform while looking like a girl. My idiot ass almost transitioned a while back bc of that, not knowing I would’ve made myself sterile just so I could look like a “cute girl” for a few years. Thank god I realized that. Now im much happier being a “femboy”. Im still a guy but I like dressing/cosplaying female characters, without transitioning or anything like that.
I used to workout, and the same thing, for 2 years my Dysphoria went away completely. I had to stop working out for medical reasons, and again, my body was becoming skinny again. I took an interest in cosplaying anime characters, mainly girl ones. The biggest thing holding me back from working out is 1. I can’t for medical reasons for another few months, and 2. Once I start working out, and get bigger, I’ll look to manly and the clothes won’t fit me.
Exactly, I wish everyone could wear whatever they wanted and no one would care. I don’t understand why there’s a huge stigma around guys who want to do more feminine things. I wish I could shave my arms/legs, walk around with a skirt and have long hair without getting called “gay”, even though I’m straight. Oh well, it’s just society 🤷♂️
Tbh no. Last time I dated a girl all it did was make me more jealous. She would wear clothes that I’ve always wanted to wear, like skirts, dresses and stuff. She got me into cosplaying, and she’d look 10x than me cosplaying. Her body is way better than mine, which I think made my dysphoria worse. At the same time this could be true, maybe it is because I want to spend more time with the opposite sex.
I dont think your ugly, maybe you just don’t have much confidence in yourself, what I’m seeing is a lot of low self esteem. I also recommend lifting weights, it’ll help you build confidence and overall make you look more attractive, and you can always start with YouTube. Good luck! I hope everything works well for you, I was in a similiar position, and started posting pics of myself since I get unwanted by girls, and then guys started dming me and I felt like I was wanted. I totally understand that feeling.