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The user's narrative is highly specific, emotionally nuanced, and internally consistent over time. They discuss complex, personal struggles with detransition, including deep regret about surgery, the challenge of social reintegration, and evolving self-acceptance. This level of detailed, personal reflection is difficult to fabricate and aligns with the passionate and often painful experiences of genuine detransitioners.
About me
I was deeply uncomfortable with my female body during puberty and transitioned to male for four years, including taking testosterone and having top surgery. I eventually realized my desire to transition came from depression and low self-esteem, and that I am a lesbian. Now I live as a woman again, but I struggle with the permanent changes, like my deep voice, which makes me insecure in public. I focus on small things like wearing makeup and women's clothing to feel empowered in my identity. Healing is a daily process, and I'm learning to live a life that makes me happy without the pressure of finding a "true self."
My detransition story
My whole journey with transition and detransition was a long and difficult one, rooted in a lot of pain I didn't understand at the time. I was deeply uncomfortable with my body when I was younger, especially during puberty. I hated developing breasts and never gave myself a chance to love them as they were. I now see that a lot of my desire to transition came from my depression and very low self-esteem. I used physical transition as an unhealthy coping skill to try and escape from myself.
I socially transitioned and then medically transitioned for four years, taking testosterone. I also had top surgery when I was 18. For a while, it felt like the solution, but the initial joy eventually died down. I started to feel restricted by my trans identity. I felt like I had to suppress parts of my personality to be taken seriously as a man by society, and I didn't want to do that anymore. I also came to a huge realization: I am a lesbian. Coming to terms with that was a major part of my detransition.
Now, I am living as a woman again, but it's a challenge every day. I try to remind myself that I am and always will be a woman, despite the changes I've made to my body. It's easier said than done. I have a deep voice from testosterone, and I work in customer service. Talking to people can make me feel really insecure. Sometimes I whisper or don't speak from my chest because I'm scared people won't see me as a woman. It happens, and those moments of insecurity are part of my process now. They don't make me any less of a woman.
To feel more empowered, I do things that remind me of who I am. I buy women's clothing and toiletries, wear jewelry, and put on makeup. It helps. Healing from the trauma of my mastectomy has been very difficult. I feel like I'm getting better every day, but I still have days when I deeply regret what I did. It's something that will continue to impact me for the rest of my life.
I don't believe in the idea of finding a "true self" anymore. That just sets me up for expectations I might not achieve. I believe in living a life that makes me happy. Right now, I'm just existing, and who I am has the potential to change.
| My Age | Year | Event |
|---|---|---|
| 18 | Had top surgery (double mastectomy). | |
| Took testosterone for 4 years. | ||
| 22 | 2020 | Came to terms with being a lesbian and began my detransition. |
| 22 | 2020 | Now living as a woman again and working on healing. |
Top Comments by /u/LlLACWlNE:
First of all, congratulations on coming out ❤️ I'm proud of you! A journey like yours isn't an easy one. To answer your question, I certainly did. I came to terms with the fact that I'm a lesbian about a month ago. I had been on testosterone for four years, and have already had top surgery. It's still a struggle for me to get used to feeling like a woman in my body. Especially with no longer having breasts, I think that gives an added inconvenience for me. I never gave myself the chance to love them as they were.
I'm glad that your detransition process is mostly a social one. Speaking from experience, there are times when I wish I had never gotten top surgery. But other times, I'm thankful that I did. It just depends on the day. Overall, I definitely used my opportunity to physically transition as an unhealthy coping skill for my depression and low self esteem. I see the same in quite a few detransitioners like myself. I'm glad you came to accept yourself when you did. I wish you well on the rest of your journey ❤️
yes. even now that i'm detrans, i don't believe in finding my true self. that sets me up to have expectations that i may not be able to achieve. i believe in living a life that makes me happy. i'm just existing right now. who i am has the potential to change.
I try to remind myself that despite these changes I've made to my body, I am and always will be a woman. It's definitely easier said than done, especially if you're out in public and interacting with people a lot. I have a deep voice, and I also work in customer service. Talking to people makes me feel insecure sometimes. There are times when I can't help but feed into the insecurity. I whisper when I talk to people. I don't speak from my chest because I'm scared of people not seeing me. It happens! I feel like moments of insecurity is part of the process. It doesn't make me any less of a woman than anyone else. Otherwise, I buy women's clothing, women's toiletries (like body wash and shampoos), I wear jewelry, I put on makeup...I do anything I physically can that gives me a reminder of who I am. That helps to empower me.
feel free to reach out to me if you need some support. i had a mastectomy at 18, and healing from that trauma has been very difficult. i feel like i'm getting better every day, but i still have days when i regret what i did. it's something that will continue to impact me for the rest of my life. you don't deserve to go through this alone. ❤️
I wasn't happy with who I was as a result of transitioning anymore. The initial joy died down, and I was looking for who I was. I knew I couldn't go the rest of my life transitioning, and I felt restricted by my trans identity. There are parts of my personality that I felt I had to suppress in order to be taken seriously as a man by society, and I didn't want to do that anymore. Also, I realized I was a lesbian.
i don't mind other detrans people doing it. given what they've been through, they're entitled to describe themselves using language that feels accurate.
non detrans people, however...i don't like it when they call me mutilated. it's offensive to me. i don't get how some gender critics don't recognize that the word can be offensive to some of us.