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The user's narrative is highly detailed, emotionally consistent, and deeply personal, spanning their medical history (specific doses, timelines, physical changes), mental health struggles, and philosophical evolution. The language is complex and nuanced, expressing anger and passion that aligns with the genuine trauma often described by detransitioners. The account shows the user's stated identity as a desisted, gender-nonconforming homosexual male is consistent throughout.
About me
I started transitioning as a young man because I was mentally distressed and felt pressured to believe it was the answer. After a very brief doctor's appointment, I was put on a high dose of estrogen, which led to severe mental health crises and hospitalizations. The hormones changed my body permanently, leaving me with breasts I now have to bind, which I deeply regret. I realized my trans identity was a mask built from trauma, not my true self. Now, eight months after stopping hormones, I am a homosexual male focused on accepting my body and healing through self-love.
My detransition story
My whole journey with transition started from a place of deep mental distress. I had struggled with my mental health for a long time before, but I was a feminine, homosexual male who was always told I'd be better off as a girl. I think a lot of my feelings were rooted in trauma and low self-esteem, and I was influenced online and by friends into believing that transitioning was the answer.
I went to a doctor and after just a 40-minute conversation, I was diagnosed with gender dysphoria and prescribed estrogen and a blocker. I told her I was mentally distressed, but she didn't seem to care. My therapist at the time just affirmed everything I said, even when I had doubts. I started on a very high dose of injectable estrogen.
Being on estrogen for almost five years was a terrible experience for my mental health. It enhanced everything I was feeling—extreme lows and extreme highs. It led to two mental breakdowns that put me in a psychiatric hospital. I now believe that cross-sex hormones cause a disconnect between your mind and your body; you are literally interrupting your natural biological chemistry. Studies show it can cause cardiovascular issues and bone density problems, and from my own experience, I felt completely disconnected from myself.
Physically, the hormones changed my body in ways I now deeply regret. My flat male chest grew to a full B, almost C cup. Now that I've been off hormones for eight months, my breasts have deflated but I'm left with severe gynecomastia. I have to wear a binder and baggy clothes every day to hide it. I'm insecure to take my shirt off or show my chest to anyone. I miss my natural male chest and I'm trying to find a doctor to perform reconstructive surgery, but it's been difficult. My own former doctor gives me the runaround.
I finally realized that my trans identity was a false self, a mask I created from trauma. It was a performance. I was living in a costume I couldn't take off. I don't believe anyone is truly "trans"; it's a man-made identity, a set of ideals and beliefs, not something biological. For me, it was a form of escapism. I lived in stealth, had boyfriends, a social life, and good jobs, but it brought me more despair in the end because it didn't fix the underlying turmoil.
I've chosen to stop medicalizing altogether. I weaned off my high dose of estrogen slowly, cutting down week by week, because the side effects of stopping were intense, like menopausal symptoms. It's taken time, but my body is slowly balancing out. I am a biological male, and I am homosexual. I am also socially non-binary in the sense that I don't conform to gender roles, but I accept my body as it is.
My thoughts on gender now are that it's a social construct. The problem we should be challenging is society's rigid binary, not changing our biological bodies. I am focusing on radical self-love and acceptance. I take care of my body through exercise, eating well, healing my gut microbiome, and microdosing mushroom supplements. I connect with nature and find purpose in painting, reading, and hiking. I am the healthiest I have ever been, both physically and mentally, at 24 years old.
I have many regrets about transitioning. I regret the permanent changes to my body, especially my chest. I regret the time, energy, and life I lost to this ideology. I regret not receiving proper mental health care that addressed my trauma and depression instead of just affirming a new identity. I don't believe being trans was my true self; I believe it was a trap I fell into because I was vulnerable.
I am moving forward now, accepting my body and learning to appreciate it for its function, not just its appearance. I am redefining what it means to be a man on my own terms, as a gender non-conforming person.
Here is a timeline of my journey:
| Age | Event |
|---|---|
| 19 | Started a high dose of injectable estrogen and blockers after a 40-minute doctor's appointment. |
| 19-24 | Lived as a transwoman for almost 5 years. Experienced severe mental health crises, resulting in two psychiatric hospitalizations. |
| 24 | Began critically questioning my trans identity and started weaning off hormones. |
| 24 | Stopped hormones completely. Began the process of my body recalibrating its natural hormones. |
| 24 (Present) | 8 months after stopping hormones. Living as a detransitioned, homosexual male. Practicing radical self-acceptance and dealing with the permanent physical changes from estrogen. |
Top Comments by /u/Mahoganysss:
why do you want to be seen as a woman? why not be seen as you are? you’re a beautiful human you’re biologically male, that’s it. you can be who you ever feels right to you, but you don’t have change your body to reflect that. your body isn’t the issue, it’s your mind. Be kind to yourself and try a non affirming gender therapist.
i had mental health struggles before but estrogen enhanced every thing i was experiencing. extreme low, lows and high, highs. i was on a very high dose. i ended up in the psychiatric hospital twice from mental breakdowns. for authenticity, my trans identity was a false self, a mask, performance. created from trauma and mental health distress. i choose radical self love and acceptance now. i’m a biological male, homosexual and socially non binary, true. “a girls brain in a boys body”, not true. trans is a capitalistic, binary, conversion “therapy”, generational trauma created man made identity. i don’t trust man, i trust in the divine universe. i trust the earth and my human body, not synthetic cross sex hormones. being trans, i didn’t feel human anymore because i became a product. i choose freedom from all of that.
agreed. even as i was a “passable” transwoman, it still isn’t worth it. you are giving up a lot for this ideology and it’s hard to build meaningful relationships because even if you transition and maybe pass, you’re still not a woman or even close. you are now even more “othered”.
the grass isn’t always greener, even if it is for a time, it’s inevitable that trans identifying will leave you with time, energy and life that you can’t get back.
you are so much more as you are. don’t change yourself for an ideology. dig deeper, chose acceptance and growth, you’re so young. i wish i had support or someone to actually allow me to critical think about what i was choosing for my life. you got this!
exactly! i was mentally distressed which i told the doctor but after 40 minutes she said i had gender dysphoria and started me on a blocker and E. my therapist affirmed me as well when I had doubts because i was still struggling mentally. it’s insanity honestly that doctors are doing this and not receiving any troubles. if i walked in and told them i wanted to cut off my leg and they cut it off for me, they would be fired and possibly sued immediately
cross-sex hormones will not change what you’re going through right now
what i’ve learned, a few months off now able to say that even if the thought of starting again, i can talk myself out of quick or ignore the thought
nothing about your physical appearance will change how you view yourself. that’s your internal reality that needs adjusting, you are not the problem. nothing about you is abnormal. taking a cross sex hormone is abnormal to deal with mental distress.
9 billion human beings exist, more than that have existed. in no way are you alone, there’s no normal to be reaching for. things will always change so will you, be open to it.
focus on today and moving forward past your identity politics
you are an ever changing human being. try being productive in things that give you purpose, ease your mind and are healthy. take care of the body that cares for you.
hrt only causes a further disconnect with your body. the same body that harness your existence here, on earth with us. have gratitude for your body, not because of what it looks like but what it does and can do for you every single day of your entire human life. don’t disrespect it, you don’t deserve that
take care of yourself, remember common humanity and you have the power to accept your life and instead of doing things that don’t serve you, do better for yourself
and just take it day by day, that’s what i do
i’ve done it since having a serve mental breakdown that landed me in the hospital for two months.
today, i’m physically and mentally the healthiest i’ve ever been in my 24 years of life
accepting my gnc feminine gay “identity”
i found a new job and community, taking care of myself independently for the first time, connecting more with my loved ones more. connecting with our source (nature) and being grateful for existence before i’m either dead or 100 years old. so live while you can
exactly, trans identifying people told me that i was trans and i had to accept everything that comes it with. that it was just the price for “being my true self” and all the other transbible stuff.
they also LOVE BOMB which is so toxic. especially when your young and/or vulnerable. if you go to any trans post or community especially on reddit, that’s all they do. the love bombing for coming out as “trans”, if your “passing” or not, the fetishy conversations about their bodies and euphoria around being on hormones and “being the opposite sex”.
it’s crazy how we’re the weird ones now even though we’ve radically chose to accept biology and move on from the cult ideology.
i’m sympathetic because i understand as someone who truly believed in trans ideology (as a fem gnc homosexual male). it’s easy to fall into when you being socially and medically affirmed. but we need critical thinking skills and compassion to care for people more than just through ideology/cult communities.
yes agreed! humans are complex and free as much as we try to not be. that’s the beauty of the universe. i want to be the change i want to see in the world, being trans isn’t the change i want to see. there’s more important things in life than “transifying” yourself.
you can’t be trans. trans is a false identity. trans was created. it’s not an innate biological factor or even psychological trait. it a group of ideals and beliefs. you can identify as trans but no one is truly trans this is coming from a “true trans” person. i was a feminine boy, homosexual. being told my whole life id be better as a girl. i lived in stealth, had a social life, boyfriends, high paying jobs, parties, trips, etc. i lived the high life in my transition and it brought me more despair in the end. it didn’t really mean anything because transitioning didn’t help with any of my mental turmoil at all. i was hiding being an identity that wasn’t even mine to begin with we as humans have to get over ourselves and identity politics JUST BE HUMAN NOTHING IS WRONG WITH YOUR BODY, LEAVE IT ALONE and be the change you want to see in the world
i went through the same if not a very similar experience but i took sometime away to process what had happened and what i have done. i learned to let go, accept and keep going. it only gets harder the longer you keep going, same with the effects on your body. i recommend some sort of support like you’re doing now you’re much more than trans ideology. you’re not stupid, just a human who made a mistake like all of us do. where do you see yourself in 5-10 years? why not start to get there today?
https://beyondtrans.org. contact them, fill out a forum and they will get back to you quickly. connect you with a gender therapy to help you through the dysphoria stress. they have been so kind, helping with the process. i’ve been through it. it was traumatic. but you need support. i’m coming out the other side of things. you’ll be okay, just take care of yourself human 🙏🏼💛