I strongly recommend therapy or some sort of support group, even ones that are not specific for trans youth (anxiety, depression, etc) . I know it’s difficult, and I don’t know if you have means to afford it... can you talk about this openly with your parents, ask for their help in this? If not, do you have friends that can be understanding and to whom you can open yourself and vent? I saw someone offering therapy in this sub too.

Hang in there, it is a journey to find yourself and although it hurts, you were brave enough to try it out and discovered that this is not for you. You are very young and your body and mind are much more resilient than you can even imagine. Your female hormones will kick in, just give time to your body to go back to normal testosterone (for females) levels. You’ll see and feel subtle changes within weeks. You are strong and it will get better

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I’m going to say to you what my therapist always say about my daughter: you (like her) are very young. Your body needs time to “detox” and your own hormones need time to reset. I’m also a nurse that worked in a Gender Dysphoria facility, so I can say that you will look less manly and more femjnine once all T is off of your system. Your voice will get higher, maybe not as pre-T as someone already mention, but you are going to see that your old you will be back. Be patient and be good to yourself, we all need time to heal. We sure have to be angry with reckless professionals and clinics, I’m anything but a transphobe, but I see that there’s a lot of mishandling of a generation of girls that question gender and society, and that we’re medicating people that really need therapy and support, not drugs and “drag”. You are brave and strong and very smart for figuring all by yourself, hang in there! You will feel better!

I think you are not trans, since you have periods where you are ok with being a woman. It is totally possible to be female and have chest dysphoria. Some women hate their hips, their thighs .. why can’ t others hate their breasts? It’s one of those myths transactivism tries to sell - if you hate your breasts, you are trans !!! - and what about body dismorphic disorder? I think until you feel mentally stable and less confused, you shouldn’t go the mastectomy route. Weight loss and breast reduction may alleviate your anxiety. Did you get your period yet? Since it was bothering you when you were younger, and you just got out of T, it may be a good a idea to think about birth control pills to not have periods at least for now, it would be one less stressor. Baby steps. Breathe. Good luck

I’m so, so sorry you feel this way... i wish I could offer you more than my solidarity. I’ve read twice in this sub about two other detrans guys, if only they could show up here to talk to you... they were both operated too but were back living like men. I think talking to them will really help you having some hope and perspective for your life... Have you open up to your parents about how you feel ?

Me too, am a mom of a confused teenager girl (who says she’s not confused anymore - she’s identifying herself as a gender non-conforming person). And the irony of life is that I worked for 11 years in a clinic that is the reference for trans people in my town.. I am very proud of the inclusiveness and the results of our service as I do believe that are people whose only answer (and care) is to transition. That said, i can also affirm that most professionals are scared of being labeled transphobes just to mention that maybe low self esteem, depression, bullying, internalized homophobia, patriarchy and the position left for women in our society may be playing a role in so many young women developing gender dysphoria. I cannot be open to my daughter about these stories here yet, since she’s super sttuborn and “knows it all”, still using “terf” and “transphobe” for us, who there to question somethings, but she’s building her own opinions with tidbits of stuff I say to her. My goal is to ask her the right questions and make her see for herself. She kind ofrespect my view in these subjects (since I am a professional in this field), but she listens a lot to online stuff still, so we are taking baby steps getting there. But someday I wil present her all your stories, because you are not people like me, an outsider, you are the real deal, and your stories are so valid and important, I don’t think you know how much. So thank you, to all detransioners here, this generation will own to you this new chapter in caring for the youth

You did your best. As someone already said, you certainly planted a seed of doubt. I truly believe that, with teens, the best thing you can do is make them think, question and go away. Your job is done, because imature teenagers are too proud and too arrogant to accept the fact that the might be wrong! They have to found out by themselves, making mistakes in the vast majority of time, unfortunately. You were brave to try and find out your own identity and your truth, and very clever to figure it out by yourself, not everyone are this smart so soon in their lifes. It’s frustrating and an annoyance to see other people thinking like that, being so narrow and shallow and manipulated, but time will tell them, time will show them you are not a TERF. In the meantime, do not give up, you just started in this school. Try new activities at school, or even something religious, because it really gives you some social ground, and hope, for real.

I don’t think you should try again with this group, they are still too deep into the transactivism web, they will not be a healthy crowd to hang with. Do you like games? Or books? Or even Tv shows? Pets? Some sort of arts & crafts? Try to occupy yourself in something that distracts you, try to find people in your area with the same interests... idk, just be a little more patient, high school is really hard, adolescence is pretty hard, and it will definitely get better, sooner than you imagine. Good luck

I’m right with you on this boat. My daughter was screen for ASD twice and didn’t “make the cut”. But she behaves so much like an aspie... and now, at 13, gender dysphoria hit her hard. I’m a RN and worked for 10+ years at a gender and LGBTQ+ reference facility, so... i cannot and won’t admit being called a TERF. But I can see clearly that my daughter isn’t trans but she thinks otherwise. She did not want to be call by male pronouns nor even pick a male name, she does not have gender dysphoria in the sense that she’e really fine being called by her birth name or using female clothes or having zero genital/period dysphoria. She just “learned” online that the fact that she “isn’t like other girls, doesn’t like shopping or make up, likes games and hates her breasts” makes her trans sight. I’m respecting her “phase” pointing whenever I can what I’ve learned working with trans people for 10 years... but you know, twitter and online friends know the best

Wish you luck and that our daughters snap out of this trans cult asap

To think that the vast majority of people that points this out and request research and responsible answers is labeled “transphobic” , silenced and ostracized makes me feel desperate and hopeless. Until when? Why can’t be a proper, unbiased study, even to “prove us wrong “ ? If this phenomenon doesn’t exist, what is the problem with that being scientifically stated? Trans activism needs to step back and think about real people’s lifes....and let everything be addressed responsably...

If you are not passing as a male, than you are not past the point of no return (to female). You say your body isn’t masculine enough to passa! Quit T for awhile, in a few weeks you’ll see subtle changes that might make you feel more comfortable. If you feel more confident, come out to your closest friends, and if that lift a weight of your shoulder, go all the way. You are not a blob, you tried to be more comfortable in your skin, and that requires bravery and strength. You are stil finding yourself, you are only 23, there’s a lot of time and life ahead of you. Good luck!

I think you are gender non conforming, and since you’d like to be a woman again, I would suggest to first stop T. I personally think that knowing you can be whatever you want is a very freeing feeling, and the non binary/gender fluid label should give some people some peace of mind or relieve the pressure about assuming binary gender roles. Whoever make you feel traped in one identity despite your desire to be of other is not a good company for you rn, avoid. Again, stop T, see how your body behaves, if you feel confortable with the changes that will come and then, think about the social transition thing. It’s your right, it’s uour life and your body!

Have you ever talk to your partner about this? Do you think he will be supportive or do you include him in the “people will hate me if I detransion” group?