There was someone who commented on this sub who stopped blockers (I think around your age) and then experienced puberty, so yes it’s possible, incredibly. If you want this, stop the blockers and see what happens, because living as a woman (if that’s not something you want, socially/medically) for the rest of your life may be soul-destroying

Social contagion, women are more easily influenced by peers than men are. Toxic positivity is more of a female phenomenon, look at the body positivity movement, it’s all women, in fact look at pretty much any online community. People who detransition are often those who transitioned for social reasons. These women aren’t even masculine, but become convinced that the trans lifestyle is the answer to their problems.

Socially, an FTM transition is somewhat less risky business than an MTF, as people will perceive you as a more masculine woman (dime a dozen in London) and then once on T, a small, perhaps odd looking man. For a male to be truly feminine, and reject manhood or masculinity, it’s gravely serious. One of societies greatest fears is the feminine male, as you can take a horse to water, but you can’t make it drink it. But water has no choice to be drunk. If a man rejects that’s role, you can’t control him to become erect and penetrate a woman. Women can be and always have been controlled, so there’s less stigma when they leave gender roles.

Once arrived in the trans mindset, an FTM transition can be appealing, especially for women with trauma surrounding womanhood. you get stronger, have more energy, and the opportunity to be treated as a man in daily interactions with strangers. MTF transition involves more and is very time consuming and painful (t blockers, laser, shaving, tucking, makeup, voice training) and bears different results, perhaps more like becoming a third gender.

Ex gay will never be comparable to ex trans. There’s no medicalisation involved in being homosexual, it’s just a fact. The mainstream queer/trans community wants to piggyback off gay activisms hard earned wins yet throw LGB under the bus by diluting homosexuality to something as fleeting as taking up a trans identity

Don’t trust the statistics. If you want to retransition, go for it, but do what you want to, not because the statistic, as with most research in this field, it’s very poor and unscientific. Gender clinics have no system in place for accounting for detransitioners, think about it, they can barely manage their case load and don’t have time to think about this, though they should be changing their entire practise which in time they will

The idea that there is a separate internal gender and sex within every persons body is a fairly modern and radical idea that has taken off significantly in the past 10 years. The thing about being gay is that it simply is - like another commenter mentioned, gay sex has happened forever, and I’ll add to that that it’s as documented within the wider animal kingdom as it is for humans. There’s no science needed to ‘prove’ if gay is real because it simply is, many people like the same sex. When trans comes in, it requires extensive medical and surgical intervention (even for those who are against ‘transmedicalism’) and gender identity disorders are diverse and all require different methods of care. The feeling of being gender dysphoria may well be genetic, however it’s too hard to disconnect it from the feeling of internalised homophobia, and is often a result of comorbidities like trauma, especially for girls/women, also remember homosexuality is a comorbidity resulting in GD. This just shows how complex this issue is, and how simple homosexuality is, so I hope that provides some insight to your question

This is a really great question. I’m from UK so our practises will mainly inform my answer. Puberty blockers aren’t discontinued by dysphoric children/adolescents who take the medical pathway. A study was don’t that shows virtually all children/adolescents continue into cross-sex hormones (at 16), and will require to take the blockers until surgery (ie removal of testes). I can imagine FTMs could discontinue the blockers once settled on T as T has the effect of blocking.

So - to answer your question more directly, no - they don’t go through puberty, it’s blocked. (unless they detransition/desist). The idea that a male can go through ‘female puberty’ and vice versa is unfortunately a myth. It’s sad really

I think there is something to be said for understanding the reality of being transgender, something that isn’t welcome information in most places. The fact is that you can physically align yourself with the other gender to prevent people from perceiving you as your sex but they won’t stop doing that. It’s more of a self-cushioning action. There’s no such thing as ‘conversion therapy’ or the like but it’s true that gender dysphoria is more complex than people want it to be, the idea that it’s permanent and ingrained as sexual orientation actually harms people because it offers them no space to breathe and think, and well change, because we all change. Do you want to present more femininely? Or do you simply want to be previewed as a woman and don’t want to otherwise?

I think cis is a good language tool for trans people to use amongst themselves and with clinicians/allies, but people who aren’t trans aren’t inherently ‘cis’. Like so many other words that started out with good intentions, it’s use has changed when people started assigning others this identity. Gender identity ideology says that it’s a coincidence that 99.9% of people’s sex and gender match up, it’s not. ‘Cis’ isn’t a slur or insult (don’t be ridiculous) but it’s widespread use is a display of entitlement. If someone ever calls me cis it’s going to be very awkward as I reject it.

If you’re willing to accept the consequences - are you ok with it’s effect on you sexually (ie genitals etc) and on being medically dependant on a system (gender healthcare) that’s perhaps insecure compared to others? Can you accept the health consequences for a lifetime of use?

I don’t say this to dissuade you, but just to make sure you’re covering these bases. I also became disillusioned with gender (although I had always been tbh). People will probably see you as a man who looks like a woman anyway, so why not just be that and save yourself extra effort? Just a thought. Yes, it puts yourself in uncomfortable situations but so does being fully trans identified, very much so.

Definitely change your name if you’d like to, names aren’t super important, there are some men and women with opposite sex names, even trans girls like Antonio Garza still use a male name.

These fears are totally valid. I think it’s important to establish certain things. Using feminising HRT to retain /create the feminine qualities you desire would certainly create as many problems as you have now. Breast tissue will be hard to live with, you will probably work to hide them on a daily basis, and extended use will essentially make your penis an enlarged clitoris for all intensive purposes. You may not be happy with the result of hormones as well, you may find it quite jarring and scary seeing yourself in so feminised when it’s not your desire really.

It’s also not as simple as ‘take pills every day’, you may not always have the choice, it could be injections, patches/gels to both suppress T to an extent and raise E. It could lead to other medicalisation also, from side effects. My trans friend recently had surgery on her penis because the skin got so tight from hormones.

Here’s the good part - you can still do all that you please to be feminine looking. Grow out your hair, I take Finasteride and use topical minoxidil for my hairline, and wouldn’t mind a hair transplant someday. I’ve also had laser on my face and body with great results. I know most members of this sub are against any medical interventions but these are all pretty common practises for non-trans people. Also exercise - get the body you want, and it will make you feel good.

While it’s perfectly fine to feminise, it’s important to remember that the desire to not look male is likely a due to multiple psychosexual factors that can arise from growing up in this restrictive, cruel world. I would suggest speaking to someone to really break down how you feel about yourself and your body. It will be a lot cheaper, easier and safer than simply taking the medical route, in which you’d still be having the same issues.