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There are no serious red flags. The user's story is highly specific, internally consistent, and emotionally nuanced. They describe a personal journey with gender dysphoria, medical transition, therapy, and sexual experiences in a way that is complex and human. Their support for detransitioners while defending their own transition aligns with a real person holding a nuanced, personal viewpoint on a controversial topic.
About me
I was born male but never felt right in my body, and trying to accept it through therapy only made me more depressed. Starting hormone therapy was the real turning point that saved my life and finally lifted that heavy weight. Now that my body has become more feminine, having a penis feels like a major mismatch and a source of constant discomfort. I am planning to have bottom surgery not for sexual reasons, but to finally feel whole and at peace with myself. I have no regrets about my transition, as I did this for my own comfort after carefully exploring my feelings.
My detransition story
My journey with transition started because I had a deep, constant discomfort with my body that I now understand as dysphoria. I was born male, but from a young age, I never felt right. I tried my absolute best to live as a man and embrace the body I had. I followed advice from therapists and sexologists to try and make peace with my penis, but nothing ever worked. That constant discomfort just wouldn't go away. It was a burden I carried every day.
My depression was severe, and I had attempted suicide. Starting hormone replacement therapy (HRT) was a turning point for me; it was the first thing that genuinely made my life better and lifted that heavy weight. My libido disappeared on HRT, which was a relief because it removed a source of dysphoria for me. The bad feeling I used to get alongside orgasms was dysphoria, and HRT helped with that.
I've been in relationships with both men and women, but as my body has become more feminine, I've become increasingly uncomfortable with having a penis. It feels wrong on my now feminine body, like a mismatch. I don't have anything against other trans women who keep theirs, but for me, it's a major source of discomfort. I want to have bottom surgery not for sexual arousal, but to finally feel comfortable and whole, to be able to perform intimate activities without that dysphoric burden. I know a neovagina isn't the same as one I was born with, but even having something that looks like one and allows me to be comfortable with a partner would be a blessing.
I found that using psychedelic drugs like shrooms and LSD helped me in a different way. They didn't directly affect my feelings about gender, but they made me incredibly empathetic and connected to the people around me, which was a positive experience.
I strongly believe that proper therapy and professional guidance are essential before transitioning. I don't agree with walk-in clinics that provide HRT without a prescription from a qualified professional. I think a lot of trouble can be avoided if people have the chance to fully explore their feelings with a therapist first. I tried that route myself, and when it didn't work for me, I knew transition was the right path.
I have no regrets about transitioning. I did this for myself, not because of any outside influence, trauma, or pressure. No one groomed me or told me to do this. I started even before I knew the trans community existed, taking herbal hormones on my own. I do this for my own comfort and peace of mind.
Here is a timeline of my journey:
| Age | Event |
|---|---|
| (Age not specified) | Experienced ongoing discomfort and depression, attempted to live as a man and seek therapy. |
| (Age not specified) | Started taking herbal hormones on my own. |
| (Age not specified) | Began official HRT under a doctor's care. Life improved significantly, depression lifted. |
| (Age not specified) | Underwent hormone therapy, leading to a more feminine body and loss of libido. |
| (Age not specified) | Currently planning for bottom surgery to alleviate genital dysphoria. |
Top Comments by /u/MelodyThePianist:
I've been in relationships with men and women. I've had sex plenty of time enough to now understand that the bad feeling hiding alongside orgasms was dysphoria.
Concerning looks, as my body gets more feminine, I am less and less comfortable with seeing a dick on a feminine body. I don't have anything of course against trans girls with dicks, but that's just me. It just doesn't feel right, like seeing a shitstain on the Mona Lisa
No, neither at the idea of being a woman. Being in a woman's body is what makes me confortable with myself. With HRT, everything is slowly becoming more confortable to live with and less of a dysphoric burden.
Am I supposed to masturbate thinking about myself being a woman or having a vagina?
I don't like much how there are walk-in clinic to get HRT in the USA. It should be a result from a prescription from a professional.
I know the trans community doesn't like you very much because they are themselves afraid, but all of you are 100% valid. I'm glad there is a place where you can discuss those things that are taboo on the trans community. And it's sad that there is even much more hate towards detrans than trans people
I'm not sexually aroused by the idea of having a vagina. I want a vagina because I am too dysphoric with my penis and want to be able to perform intimate activities.
I don't have any libido since HRT and even if I don't have any sensations I would be happy. And who cares if my dating pool is exempt of transphobes or people who don't like neovaginas? A lot of people are okay with that, all of my friends are in a relationship, it's not the end of the world.
Also my life has been plagued with depression and suicide attempts, HRT only made my life better ever since. It's okay for you to be crude, that's what I'm looking for.
Concerning dementia, I will make sure to let my family know to put me down if I am completely out of my mind. I've seen it on cis elder people and I absolutely don't want to live a life like that.
I also know and am aware that neo-vaginas are just an inverted penis stuck into a hole with the gland (how is it called in English?) used to make a simili-clitoris. That results in something that looks like a vagina, but of course isn't.
Even if my sex life would not be comparable to that of a cis woman, being confortable in the bedroom with someone would already be a blessing.
It's an interesting story, but that I don't relate at all. He said himself that he transisionned because of trauma, grooming, social expectations, etc...
My transition is for myself. No one told me trans people existed when I started taking herbal hormones. No one groomed me or sexually assaulted me. I don't care if people call me a man in a dress or hate me, I do this for myself only.
It's sad that he didn't have proper therapy before transitioning, as it should, at least where I am. All of his trouble could have been avoided.
I tried therapy and advices from sexologist to try and endure my penis and lessening dysphoria, but nothing ever worked.
I'm having a little hard time understanding, but I think I understand your point.
I would consider my attempt to live at peace with what I have as the period where I tried my best to embrace my body and be a real man. And it kinda worked, but there was a constant discomfort that just wouldn't go away.
That's when I considered that transition was the good idea as I tried my best to deal with what I had. Is this what you meant?
But anyway, I've done shrooms and LSD and honestly it just makes me LOVE everyone around me. It makes me so empathetic it's ridiculous, crying when they tell me their problems because I completely put myself in their situations.