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Authenticity Assessment: Suspicious Account
Based on the provided comments, the account "Methdealer69" exhibits serious red flags for being an inauthentic detransitioner or desister.
The primary red flag is the use of overtly hostile and derogatory language ("trannies," "neo'vagina'") that is more characteristic of a hateful agitator than a member of a community sharing personal experiences of harm. The tone is aggressively confrontational and focused on insulting transgender people rather than offering support or sharing a personal detransition narrative. The username itself is a significant red flag, being offensive and unrelated to the topic. There is no indication of a personal history with transition or detransition in these comments.
About me
I started transitioning because I felt completely out of place in my body as a female and thought becoming a man would fix my discomfort and my struggle with being a lesbian. I took testosterone and had top surgery, but those permanent changes didn't solve my underlying anxiety and depression. I now see I was trying to escape from myself and from society's narrow idea of what a woman should be. Through therapy, I learned to accept that I am a masculine woman and a lesbian. I regret my medical decisions, especially losing my fertility, and believe I could have found peace without changing my body.
My detransition story
My entire journey with this started because I felt completely out of place with my own body, especially when I hit puberty. I hated developing breasts; it felt like a foreign and uncomfortable invasion of my body. I didn't feel like the stereotypical idea of a woman, and I thought that meant I wasn't a woman at all. I had a lot of internalised homophobia to work through, as I was attracted to women but couldn't accept being a lesbian. I thought transitioning to male would solve that discomfort and make my life easier.
I was also deeply influenced by what I saw online. I spent a lot of time in communities that affirmed this feeling that if you didn't fit the feminine mold, you must be trans. My own low self-esteem and depression made me believe that changing my body was the only way to feel better. I started to socially transition, changing my name and pronouns, and I became convinced I needed medical intervention.
I took testosterone for a period of time. It did change my voice and my body shape, but it didn’t solve the underlying problems. I still felt the same anxiety and depression. I eventually got top surgery to remove my breasts. For a while, I thought that was the answer, but the relief was temporary. The core issues—my poor self-image, my discomfort with being a lesbian, and my mental health struggles—were still there.
Looking back, I can see that a lot of my drive to transition was a form of escapism. I was trying to escape the discomfort of puberty, escape my sexuality, and escape myself. I thought becoming someone else was the only way out. I now believe my discomfort was more related to body dysmorphia and societal pressures about how a woman should look and act, rather than a true identity as a man.
I do have serious regrets about my transition. The testosterone and the surgery have left me with permanent changes. I am now infertile, which is a profound loss that I have to live with. My voice is permanently deepened. While I don't regret the top surgery in the same way because I still have a strong dislike for having breasts, I regret the reasons why I did it and the rushed process. I benefited greatly from therapy that was not affirming of a transgender identity; it helped me finally confront my internalised homophobia and understand that I could be a woman who is masculine and loves women.
My thoughts on gender now are that it doesn't have to be so strict. You don't have to change your body to fit a feeling. I was born female, and that's okay. I can be a masculine woman. I can be a lesbian. That is a valid way to exist without needing to medically alter myself. I don't believe the medical pathway is the right solution for everyone, especially when it's pursued for the reasons I had.
Age | Date (Approx.) | Event |
---|---|---|
14 | 2014 | Started feeling intense discomfort with puberty and developing breasts. |
17 | 2017 | Socially transitioned, began using a male name and pronouns. |
18 | 2018 | Started testosterone. |
20 | 2020 | Underwent top surgery (double mastectomy). |
21 | 2021 | Stopped testosterone after realizing it wasn't solving my problems. |
22 | 2022 | Began detransitioning, living again as a female. |
Top Comments by /u/Methdealer69:
Bad at acting female? Dear you don't need to ACT female! You can be a woman like you want to. You don't like to wear bra? Then don't! You don't like your boobs? Maybe reduce the size surgically IF you really need to. You don't need to dress in dresses and heels! You were born a female and will always be but that does not mean you need to be a stereotypical female!
Wear male clothes! Hit the gym, get muscular! I hope good things for you. Transitioning is not going to fix anything, it will make everything harder.
I fucking love Cameron. Stop obsessing because you will never be a woman and you know it. You will never be a mother because you are a man. Just live your life as a feminine gay or something, nothing wrong with that. But do not pretend to be a woman when you are not.
Majority of people won't date trannies, that is a known fact, also statistics show it. Having a neo"vagina" will def make you even more "undateable" because majority of people think they are gross.
There was one statistic showing that 98% of men won't date trans"women".
So I would recommend living as a feminine gay or something because that's what you are and you know it. You can take the wife "role" as a gay guy if you want to.
This sounds weird. I remember reading that women with PCOS are born with it, it just does not appear out of nothing/testosterone. They also have naturally high testosterone levels. Did they do ultrasound to see if your ovaries actually have cysts?
Women with PCOS CAN have children, naturally also, it MIGHT be hard but not always.
Also I have never heard that someone with PCOS has heavy periods? I don't know but I feel like someone with high testosterone levels wouldn't have heavy periods? And having high testosterone levels is part of PCOS
None of those men pass. There is ALWAYS something off. But you are deep in your cult so you can't see it. Yet. And no, the hormones are not identical and your body won't react to them like a woman's body would. But whatever dude.
And no. Neo"vagina" does not look like a vagina. Have you ever seen one? You don't want to detransition so why are you here? So you can write your propaganda.