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Reddit user /u/Miaasf's Detransition Story

Detransitioned: 18
female
low self-esteem
took hormones
regrets transitioning
serious health complications
puberty discomfort
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About me

I started transitioning as a teenager because I felt like a weak girl and saw becoming a boy as an escape from my low self-esteem. I was on testosterone for almost two years, which only made me more isolated and anxious. I stopped when I realized it wasn't fixing my internal problems and I started having health concerns. Now, several months off hormones, I'm feeling more like myself again and learning to accept being a woman. This painful journey has taught me that true happiness comes from self-acceptance, not from changing your body.

My detransition story

My whole journey with transition and detransition started from a place of really low self-esteem and a deep discomfort with myself. I never felt like I fit in with other girls, especially as a teenager. I was shy and had poor social skills, and I think that played a huge part in everything that happened. I saw being a boy as an escape. It felt comfortable and it was a way to reinvent myself, to become someone else entirely. I convinced myself I was born this way and that transitioning was the only answer. I was so sure of it at the time.

A big reason I wanted to transition was because I saw myself as a weak girl and that scared me. I hated the idea of being perceived that way. I think I had a lot of internalized issues about what it meant to be female. My mother was afraid when I told her; she was scared her child would become aggressive and different. I reassured her I’d always be the same person, that I’d always be her daughter. She was sad but she gave in. I know now that if someone had sat me down and talked to me about what I know now—about the manipulation and the business behind it all—I might have listened. But I was so deep in it, I would have just called them transphobic. I have to take responsibility for that. The fault is mine.

I started testosterone when I was 16. I was on it for almost two years. During that time, I became more and more isolated. The social anxiety I had got worse, not better. I became defensive and scared of everything. I didn't realize until I stopped that being trans was actually causing me so much social unrest. I left school at 15, and by the time I was on hormones, I had no friends. I was completely alone.

I decided to stop testosterone because I finally started to question if I was really happy. I was worried about my health; I started having problems going to the bathroom and getting sharp pains in my ovaries. But more than that, I was obsessed with the feminine shape of my own face, which was a complete reversal from how I felt before. I saw that I had been focusing all my energy on the superficial, on changing my body, and it wasn't fixing what was wrong inside. All we need to be right with ourselves is love and patience, not hormones.

I’ve been off T for several months now. After about 3 or 4 months, I started to feel better, more like myself again. My face has fattened up and I have cheeks again, which I used to hate but now it makes me feel relieved. It’s a wonderful feeling to realize you don't need anything external to be okay with yourself. Everything is in your head. The things that bother me the most now are my Adam's apple and my voice. Sometimes when I'm insecure, my voice sounds deeper to me, but I know it has started to sound more feminine again. I have to work on it.

My mother knows about my detransition and was glad to have her daughter back. She said she would help me with everything, but I find it hard to talk to her about how ugly I feel sometimes. It just makes me feel guilty, like I’m victimizing myself or seeking attention. So I keep a lot of my sorrows to myself. I know nobody is really going to understand what this feels like.

I don't believe transition works for anyone. It focuses on the physical, the superficial, and I doubt anyone can be truly happy making that the main focus of their life. I think if there wasn't so much indoctrination and trans publicity, most people with dysphoria would try to improve their mental problems first instead of trying to change their bodies. We didn't know how to deal with our problems, so we tried to escape by being someone else.

I don't really think about gender anymore. I think the whole concept is confusing and thinking about it too much drives you crazy. Gender doesn't make us happy; it means nothing. You just have to be yourself, and whatever that is, it's fine. I know I'm a woman. That's a fact. I'm learning to be okay with that.

I do have regrets. I regret not questioning things sooner. I wish my mother had forbidden me from transitioning. I wish I had given myself time to just grow up and work on my self-esteem instead of trying to become another person. This experience has been painful, but it's teaching me what really matters in life.

Age Event
15 Left school.
16 Started taking testosterone.
17 Was on testosterone for almost 2 years.
18 Stopped testosterone.
18 3-4 months after stopping T, starting to feel more like myself again.

Top Comments by /u/Miaasf:

25 comments • Posting since November 1, 2019
Reddit user Miaasf explains her detransition, sharing 3-month progress photos and feeling happier with her face fattening and more comfortable in her own skin without testosterone.
71 pointsNov 27, 2019
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The first photo is shortly after leaving T, and the second is with almost 3 months of rest. I feel that my face is fattened, which makes me very happy because I always had a lot of cheeks; I hated it before but now I feel relieved. I feel better in my own skin. It is a wonderful feeling to feel that you don't need anything to be right with yourself, everything is in your head. Another day I will try to publish a photo of me in T and another one to make the change look better. Thank you for reading

Reddit user Miaasf comments on a post about detransitioning, sharing her own experience of starting hormones at 16, the resulting social isolation, and advice to not force oneself while things return to normal.
9 pointsNov 25, 2019
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Oh my god don't say you want to kill yourself, that's the worst thing you can do to yourself. I am in a somewhat similar situation. I left school at 15 and at 16 I took hormones. I was always shy, but being trans caused me social unrest, and I didn't realize it until now. I don't have friends, I want to give my body some time to make it so difficult to socialize for me. You don't have to think about what you like and what you don't, that also happens to me about sexuality; the T changed my sexual tastes a bit, and at the beginning of the detransition I worried a lot, but now I just let it be and let things flow. Everything will happen in due course. Do not force yourself to anything, and keep it up, don't give up, for whatever you want!

Reddit user Miaasf explains their desire to disappear to escape the 'ex-trans' label and live authentically without performance concerns.
8 pointsNov 1, 2019
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thanks for your answer. The reason for wanting to disappear is not only that, I also want to live surrounded by people who don't see me as ex-trans or something, I want to socialize again without worrying about sounding feminine or any concern. I just want to be me and that they love me for that, not for a false self that invents me to escape being a male girl.

Reddit user Miaasf comments on a detransition post, offering advice on coping with difficult emotions, focusing on self-recovery, positive thinking, and distancing from unsupportive people.
7 pointsNov 9, 2019
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I'm more or less the same. There are days when I can not stand myself and it is normal in this situation, what I do is think that in the not too distant future I will have recovered quite a bit from this. Think positive at any cost, if you are negative you can only get worse. Now you just have to think about yourself and your health, think about recovering, try to get out and meet new people, or get distracted by drawing, cleaning, reading ... you can also take it as a vacation, depending on your clear situation, but that is what you can do. Put aside those people who stop trusting you and be aware of what you're worth and that having detransitioned doesn't have to bother anyone, it's your life and you just try to do the best for you, and if they don't know Value that, they are not good people for you. good luck

Reddit user Miaasf explains that after 3 months off testosterone, their voice became more feminine, and reassures a short-term user that they are fortunate to have detransitioned early and that feelings of guilt will fade.
7 pointsDec 16, 2019
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thinks he has been in T. for a short time. I was almost 2 years and after 3 months without T my voice sounds more feminine. Surely you hear a boy's voice for pure complex. I do not think you have changed much, you are very fortunate to have noticed on time, everything will be fine. that feeling of guilt will gradually be filled. good luck

Reddit user Miaasf explains the importance of detransition progress photos for self-acceptance and hope, not ego.
6 pointsNov 29, 2019
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I understand what you mean and thanks. I don't think everyone uploads photos like that just to upload the ego and be told how beautiful you are. I think it helps people realize that you can be yourself again, because when you are starting the detransition it looks very black and sometimes you are not able to think of something positive or if it will get better. Right now I don't think about liking anyone, but myself, and that is what I want to convey. I want to be beautiful to feel good just me.

Reddit user Miaasf comments on a detransitioner's fear of being perceived as a weaker woman, suggesting their solution isn't a return to testosterone.
6 pointsJan 8, 2020
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I think your problem is that you are afraid ... afraid of something that might happen, that they attack you ... and you may feel that way (even worse) for seeing you as a woman, which still makes you look weaker. I think your solution is not in the T, for something you left to start ... I wish you the best

Reddit user Miaasf explains their experience 4 months after stopping testosterone, noting a return to their pre-T self, with only residual neck and voice concerns.
6 pointsJan 3, 2020
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I have been without T for 4 months and I am already starting to feel better, more me, more like I was before, and I had been in T for 1 year and a half. The only thing that bothers me now is the neck (the nut more than anything) and the voice Sometimes when I'm insecure otherwise, perfect! I encourage you to get everything out! will be you again

Reddit user Miaasf comments on a young detransitioner's fears, advising that her voice and facial hair will improve and that gender doesn't equal happiness.
5 pointsJan 14, 2020
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Girl, don't worry, you are very young. I was one more year in T than you with a little more age and after 4 months without T I feel quite good; the voice improves (you have to do your part too), you get used to the beautiful facial and if not, there will always be the laser. Don't think about what gender makes you happy; Gender does not make us happy, it means nothing. Be yourself, whatever it will be fine. You also have friends to talk, and that not everyone has it, you are a lucky girl and this experience will help you in life to know what really matters and what you want. I know it's not easy and that there are times when you can feel worse or even want death, but I assure you it is worth the wait.

Reddit user Miaasf comments on a detransitioner's post, advising them to live for themselves, accept being a real woman, and not continue a life of lies to avoid an expensive detransition.
5 pointsJan 10, 2020
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Hi! First I tell you that you don't have to feel part of any community ... why? Live your life regardless of whether they accept you or not, they are not worth it. For example, I am 18 years old and I only have a relationship with a boy I met recently. You can feel alone for a while and even have a hard time, but I assure you that you get used to it and end up liking it, and if that is not the case, go and meet people. What else do you think you are trans? You know you are a real woman. I do not advise you to continue living a life of lies because you do not want to go through an expensive detraction. I know you can see yourself well, it doesn't require much effort, the first step is to want to be well and love yourself. You are a person and deserve to be happy and respected. You are not a monster You are a brave person.