Me too as well as 4chan. Over time I have realized that the only way these people can justify doing this to themselves is by denial and refusing to even consider any information opposing their viewpoint that puberty blockers are the best thing ever. If they admit they are bad that means that they have fucked up a lot of lives maybe even their own so they just double down and deny and the cycle continues. It’s just evil that medical professionals are overseeing this all. I am so sorry this happened to you. Everytime I see one of those anime trans memes about HRT and how great it is I get so mad cause that’s the exact type of shit that made me transition especially the femboy and egg culture.

What hormones did you go on and what type of symptoms are you having if you don't mind sharing. I took estradiol for 18 days and spironolactone for 3 or 4 of them. I feel like my anxiety has gotten substantially worse, my vision especially at night is worse, I feel a lot weaker, and generally just wrong. So wrong. I made a big mistake too. I thought that this was the only way I could keep myself from a life of regret and depression. I thought that if I didn't transition I would spend the rest of my life regretting it and eventually kill myself. I was just so scared of loosing my feminine appearance and let my OCD and anxiety get to me. I just hate that these doctors allowed me to do this to myself in a 2 hour appointment. I will never be the same person again. I didn't even get the femininity I traded my health for. Honestly, and I mean honestly, I have always looked really feminine anyway, I should've just been grateful I even get to be somewhat ok with my appearance. Instead I risked throwing my health away and now I don't know if I will ever fully heal. And this was only 18 days. 18 fucking days. Why did I do this to myself. What's wrong with me. I am so sorry you are going through this too, I really really am.

Yea I’ve done a lot of research on Lupron and the only reason it is expected to be worth 1.04$ billion by 2026. Eventually the sheer number of us will mean that the activists and medical community will no longer be able to silence us all. I’m so sorry this happened to you I always think about what would’ve happened if I didn’t hide my confusion towards gender for so long. If I was pushed to transition so easily at 18 I can only imagine how easily I would’ve at 13 if that was what I was surrounded by and sadly that’s becoming the case for more and more of us.

I get why they hate us, having someone point out the risks of your decisions and the negative consequences they have when you otherwise believed there were none is scary. Especially when many have been on these medications for so long that permanent effects have already occurred and there really is no way to fully detransition. When my parents would point out some of the more benign side effects of HRT I would get mad and think they were trying to attack me, thankfully as the side effects persisted and I read more about the treatment I eventually saw reason and stopped estradiol.

I think it's because society has always and still has such a negative view on feminine men. If you like something traditionally female people view it as some type of problem with you that needs an explanation. You must be gay or you must be trans cause something is not right. But because being gay or lesbian is based in reality and it's viewed as wrong to assume someone is gay or lesbian. But since the trans movement has these make it up as you go along rules it's much easier to outwardly blame what they view as a personality deficiency on you being trans. This is also a great tactic to cause a lot of self doubt and for people with OCD and other mental disorders to give them this ultimatum of "you better figure out if your trans while you still can cause if not you WILL commit suicide." when in fact the suicide rate is much higher 7-10 years after transition then before.

STOP please I was on estradiol for 18 days and had some of the most severe effects I've experienced from any medication. I felt the worst anxiety, my body had chills and I was constantly shaking. The things I have been learning about HRT honestly scare me and I'm worried in 18 days I have done permanent damage and continuing will only make it worse. You will feel a little worse for a few days but then it WILL get better. These medications will hurt you its not a matter of if it's a matter of when. For me personally I've decided to pursue different ways of dealing with my gender dysphoria/body dysmorphia, like laser hair removal and exercise and makeup. It's fine to be a feminine man you don't need to change your gender to explore your femineity.

Speaking only about the health aspect I can tell you that you will experience an extreme reduction in risk and severity of side effects you will experience as you get older. Transitioning is extremely bad for your physical health. When I detransitioned I was worried that I would never recover fully from the issues that I was having but I can say that I am now doing better physically and somewhat mentally but that's a little more complicated. If this isn't something you want BAD it's not worth it. Hell I still wish I could transition but knowing what these synthetic hormones were doing to my body every second I was on them was too much. And if your not a rapist or millionaire your not a "systematic oppressor", that's bullshit made up by corporations and radical political parties to further separate people and yet again turn away blame from the real people doing the "oppressing". This degradation of the male by feminists is creating a mental health among young men who are now being burdened with all the wrongs of the world for their gender. Getting rid of sexism doesn't mean reversing it. Why don't we just let kids be happy with who they are and judge people based on their actions and not genital's. It's so funny how a movement about equality is bringing back sexism and racism. It's just as much a choice to be male as it is to be female.

I'm on methadone and was addicted to fentanyl and xanax for 5 years. Hormones aren't safe and I can tell you that when you get sick the doctors writing your prescription will be the first to tell you that it's an "experimental treatment path" and that "all the long term side effects and related conditions haven't been studied" and knowing your a addict they'll do the same shit they did to me and blame it all on the drugs.

That’s all I’m trying to do is help you. I wish hrt was healthy, I WAS ON HRT, I GOT THESE SIDE EFFECTS MYSELF, my quality of life has gone down so much that I can barley leave my room or see anyone I care about. I am probably going to end up dying over this. Sometimes u should look into what people say. You’ll see lol.

I would first try some other ways to address your dysphoria and explore yours femineity in a more healthy way. The long term use of hormones will eventually yield consequences although how severe is not fully understood. I feel that a lot of detrans mtf feel that they either need to be transitioned and able to explore their femineity or detransitioned and forced into the box that created the dysphoria to begin with. I think that trying to integrate both of these sides into your life may help alleviate some of your dysphoria and help you deal with making your decision, but I can never say say that I think hrt is a good idea. As much as I'd love to be able to put a estradiol path back on and get the body I always wanted I recognize that it's not worth my health and once you realize just how bad the health consequences of long term synthetic hormones can be not only physically but mentally the risk will outweigh the benefit.