When we tell narratives about ourselves they can become spirals, self fulfilling prophecies. Instead of focusing on what you hate about yourself, focus on the potential, what you like about yourself and nurture those. Tell yourself a narrative that will uplift you. If you focus on hate, you will find no value, no will to continue.

The DSM-5 estimates that about 0.005% to 0.014% of people assigned male at birth and 0.002% to 0.003% of people assigned female at birth are diagnosable with gender dysphoria. According to Black's Medical Dictionary, gender dysphoria “occurs in one in 30,000 male births and one in 100,000 female births.”

Personally... I think this estimate is too low.

Federal and state population studies from 2016 estimate that 1.4 million to 1.65 million U.S. adults – or 0.6%-0.7% of the U.S. population – identify as transgender, according to the Williams Institute at UCLA School of Law.

This sounds a bit more accurate. Also important to note that gender dysphoria doesn't always need transition to be resolved, I am diagnosed with gender dysphoria (and have had it since childhood around the typical starting age of 4-6) yet I not longer suffer from it.

Yep had ego dissolution and when 'I' came back gender just seemed like a complete meme and i no longer hated my body. This was on LSD. I figured i'd just made associations with certain feelings, opinions and thoughts, and overtime I had attached these to my body resulting in the sensation of dysphoria. Another issue revealed to me post ego dissolution was that I needed to get an autism assessment like i'd considered for a while.

I'm also autistic. My best advice is to challenge your perceptions, when you talk of manhood, what is that? A social concept? A feeling? Is it flesh? If you have a perception of being a male that is beyond the flesh, when you don't meet that constructed standard, you will induce discomfort as a response. When I threw out my perceptions of what is masculine or feminine, and just accepted my form as itself alone, the dysphoria lessened to a great extent. There is nothing tangible about masculinity or femininity. Both are constructions. My gender is so clouded by being autistic that it was easier to let gender go entirely.

Gender deconstruction helped me a lot, probably the most. Experiencing ego dissolution helped me a lot and you could achieve this with meditation. Another commenter recommended time in nature and I agree. I feel like those of us who believe we 'faked' being our sex (I want to avoid using gender because I think gender is incredibly loaded with societal associations that aren't actually tangible things), usually feel this way due some kind of non-conformity going on or shame experienced for being this way.

In my case I was becoming disillusioned with transitioning, since my sense of self was still incredibly muddied. I am diagnosed with gender dysphoria and have had it since I was a kid, but I began to doubt that hormones or surgery would fix it. Then, one day I took LSD and smoked too much weed, ended up giving myself some ego-dissolution. After that gender just seemed like a complete meme. If you forget your human, the concept of time, the concept of a body, memories, opinions, people, places...just everything...coming back, gender seems a bit trivial. I think of it like an alien experiencing being human and how humans obsess over their gender, it felt similar. I think that was my problem, I was forcing myself to conform to a concept I just don't agree with. Even as a kid, I found the societal gender thing extremely unfair and irrational. I am autistic though, after that experience I decided to get assessed and ended up being diagnosed.

My advice is try not to label yourself, if you label yourself then you will most likely end up trying to fit that label consciously or subconsciously, which might not be completely accurate to you. GNC and NB people especially have problems with this since there is stigma around not 'picking a side', so a lot of us feel pressured to go for a regular transition when transition might not be right for us.

People make associations with certain feelings, opinions and thoughts, and can attach these to their bodies, or rather, their perception of their bodies. The one thing that helped me the most was ego dissolution/ego death, because it gave me a clean slate without these associations to damage my psyche. I still don't really enjoy being called a woman (I also do not hate it), but I'm fine with being female sexed and pronouns don't bother me.

I've only ever had one satisfying orgasm, and that was when I was extremely drunk and high. All my orgasms are like a really unsatisfying sneeze, kind of like a build up of pressure that just sadly fades out. No body shaking explosions. I'm not sure what's wrong with me, it could be a mental thing but in general I've just given up hope of achieving that. The most ecstasy i've felt was on the drug MDMA lol. I kind of wish I never started masturbating in the first place. The one good orgasm made me see stars, never had it since

I never went on T but decided not to go on it due to health concerns as well, i'm autistic and the clinician told me it could 'change the presentation of autism', essentially either making my issues better or worse! Barely functional as it is, I chose not to roll the dice. I've been much happier since I desisted and accepted being an androgynous and autistic person