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There are no serious red flags suggesting it is a bot or an inauthentic detransitioner/desister. The comments display a highly consistent, personal, and detailed narrative about the user's experience with testosterone, top surgery, detransition, and the psychological and social challenges involved. The writing style is natural, with personal tangents, emotional depth, and a coherent timeline that evolves over the two-year comment history. The user's passion and criticism of trans ideology align with the stated reminder that detransitioners can be very angry about the harm they experienced.
About me
I started transitioning because I was a masculine woman who felt pressured by society and thought becoming a man would solve my problems. I was on testosterone for four years and had top surgery, but I always had a nagging doubt that I was living a lie. I stopped hormones when I realized I was isolating myself and could never truly be a man. Now, I see my transition was driven by internalized homophobia and a desire to escape being a woman. I've accepted that I'm just a masculine female, and I'm finally living an honest and peaceful life.
My detransition story
My whole journey with this started because I just didn't fit in as a girl. I was always more masculine, a lesbian, and I hated the expectations that came with being a woman. I looked at how men were treated—with more respect, listened to, and just left alone—and I wanted that. I envied my brother and the freedom he had. I thought if I could just be a guy, all my problems would be solved. It was sold to me, and to so many of us online, as this magic solution.
I started taking testosterone when I was 23. For a little while, there was a sense of relief, like I was finally on the right path. But that feeling didn't last. Deep down, there was always this tiny voice wondering if I was wrong, but I’d just brush it off. Denial is a powerful thing. I was on T for about four years, but I got really lazy about taking it the last two. I also had top surgery in 2019. I don't regret the surgery itself; I like having a flat chest, especially for sports and not dealing with bras. But I regret taking testosterone way more.
What really made me start questioning was dating. After an eight-year relationship ended, I tried dating as a guy, but it felt like I was living a lie. I’d get close to someone and then pull away because I couldn't bring myself to tell them I was actually female. I realized I’d never truly be a man, and trying to meet those expectations was exhausting. I was isolating myself. I stopped T in February 2023, when I was 28. I didn’t make a big announcement; I just stopped and let my body and appearance change naturally.
Detransitioning has been a process. My face has softened a lot, and I get called 'ma'am' now even when I'm dressed the same. The hardest part is my voice; I have to consciously try to speak from my throat and not my chest to sound more feminine. I’ve gained some weight from the T that I’m now trying to lose, and my family is constantly on my case about it, which is frustrating. It’s a stark difference from when I was seen as a man and no one cared if I gained a few pounds.
Work is tricky. I started there presenting as male, so I’ve just kept up the act. I leave my legs hairy and hope nobody notices the changes. But it’s getting harder to hide as I look more feminine. I’ve started using the women's restroom again because I'm tired of the men's room, but I get nervous if I see a mom with her kids go in, worried I might startle them.
Looking back, I see now that a lot of my desire to transition came from internalized homophobia and a deep discomfort with the social pressures of being a woman. I wanted to be "normal" and straight. I also used it as an escape from dealing with my real problems, something I’ve done my whole life, starting with drug use when I was younger. Transitioning was just another way to run.
My thoughts on gender now are that it’s mostly nonsense. You can be a masculine woman or a feminine man; it doesn’t change your sex. I think the trans ideology has actually made stereotypes worse, pushing this idea that if you don’t fit a rigid box, you must be the other gender. I believe only a tiny, tiny percentage of people actually need to transition. The rest of us were lied to and sold a delusion that our lives would be perfect on the other side. They’re not. It’s lonely and complicated.
I’ve been incredibly lucky to have a supportive family. They were relieved when I detransitioned. And now, I’m in a happy relationship with a woman who loves me for me, flat chest and all. I’ve accepted that I’m just a woman who is a little more masculine. I wear what I want, and I’m not pretending to be anything I’m not anymore. The constant dysphoria I felt while transitioning is just gone. I’m finally just living my life.
Here’s a timeline of the main events:
| My Age | Event |
|---|---|
| 23 | Started taking testosterone. |
| 27 (2019) | Had top surgery (double incision). |
| 28 (Feb 2023) | Stopped testosterone. |
| 28-30 (Present) | Detransitioning; physical changes reversing, navigating life as a woman again. |
Top Comments by /u/Ozarkasprings23:
It’s 100% censorship, honestly I commend you for even having the guts to try posting that there. I would already have know only one of two things would happen: A: gets removed like in your case or B: gets downvoted to oblivion while simultaneously getting attacked from all fronts.
They don’t want to even remotely think about there being any possibility they could be wrong and post like yours make them face that which is why it’s removed so quickly. So many of them have questioning their decisions and one point or another only to be coddled by subs like ftm or trans telling them no this in normal you’re okay that’s nothing to worry about we all go through that etc.. only to re deceive themselves further into the abyss.
I agree. Not a day goes by that you’re fully aware you’re not a man even when the world treated u as one. You really get sold this entire delusion that this is the core reason for all ur problems and ur life will be better as the other gender. There’s always that tiny thought deep in the back wondering what if im wrong but u quickly brush that off claiming there’s no way anyone can be truly sure. At least this was my experience. Now would I have chosen to be a boy at birth given who I am and my family….yes…1000% but that’s neither here nor there you can erase 20 years of being raised female by chopping ur hair off…
Exactly. So many young kids that are stuck in this ideology don’t want to listen to anybody and like you said anyone who questions them or disagrees is a transphobe and “don’t understand”. Nobody want to lose their livelihood by being the one care provider trying to do the right thing when the system is stacked so far against them it’s not worth it. I has to start with the therapists but that’s a PIPE dream. It’s only gonna get worse in the coming years with detransitioners and slowly more speaking up. There should be such thing as “gender affirming care” all care should be as unbiased as possible and actually attempt to solve the underlying issues before jumping to hormones and surgery. Finding the right balance though is so unlikely.
My advice: don’t get caught up in the whole idea of gender fluidity. Men and woman have always had masculine and feminine qualities, sure in the past it was pretty much beat out of you as much as possible at an early age thus any future feelings were shoved down so deep and never spoken or thought of again. It’s kinda new territory here as never before in history have we had the freedom to be who we want without the fear of being thrown into the looney bin by your husband or “burned at the stake” for other words.
But just because you have a lot of characteristics deemed more masculine still doesn’t make you not a female. You’ll always be female as will I. Doesn’t mean you have to be a certain way or present a certain way. I personally feel like trans ideology has had a horrible effect on societal progression and open mindedness it’s almost brought us back to these very ridged ideas of what man and woman are or should be. If you enjoy appeared androgynous go for it if you like people not knowing what you are you do you, now people will still have an idea if they spend a few min with you as we all gender someone within the first few seconds of speaking to them/ seeing them.
Avoid getting sucked into subreddits about being non binary or being gender fluid or ever ftm/mtf ones, they generally only have a negative impact.
Typical haha yeah having a conversation with any of them is next to impossible. Probably easier for Mormon missionaries to covert people than it is to have a civil conversation with someone deep into trans ideology or “wokeism” .
Also, off topic, how’s Alaska? Do you live in a house or a cabin or what? Just curious pretty unique way of life.
Just remember you’ll never “be a girl” the best you’ll achieve is “looking like a girl but technically a guy”. All anyone is saying is if you’re not actually trans don’t transition medically. Honestly I’d wait till you’re 25 before making any surgical decisions, you don’t wanna end up chopping off your manhood and regretting it later, you’ll never get it back.
So as someone who is female and grew up female and dressed like every other girl just happened to be gay and tried for the longest time to suppress it, my best friend growing up way a gay guy one that didn’t appear super flamboyant but was very much do gay. Yeah we took bubble baths together and did weird shit but there’s was zero like sexual attraction so it didn’t matter. What you’re doing is weird tbh you don’t have to be female, gay guys have these same experiences only difference is there’s no chance they’re there to creep on you. Sounds like you didn’t quite cut it as a typical straight guy and the only way to even remotely compete is as a “trans woman” and I say that very loosely. After high school the world is much different even college is different. Being trans is way more of a disadvantage in the real world. Last thing you want is to stain your name as “the trans person” I assure you. When I was in high school it was definitely not cool to even be gay really, well it was really dependent on the person but a lot of gay guys that were closeted af got picked on. Some didn’t just like anywhere. And being a lesbian was definitely something you didn’t want people to know. And this was like 2012. Life only gets harder the older you get. Work on yourself, work on your personality the best you can, get in shape, all these things make your social life easier. Being a non passing fake trans woman isn’t it bud.
I felt all the same types of feeling just opposite at your age even waited a few more years and sure in the beginning there’s this false sense of relief like I’m finally on my way to happiness but you never quite reach it. You realize you’ve now isolated yourself further from society, you no longer have a group of are one of the girls/boys and you’re not quite one of the other sex either you’re just alone. You never quite fit in with the sex you’re trying to transition to. Sure some do better than others and fully passing has a lot to do with it, but even passing isn’t always enough to hide those deeply ingrained mannerisms you can’t shake. You kinda become people’s token trans friend if you hang out with normal people and they know.
Years go by now you’re 27/28/29 and you’ve wasted your twenties trying to be something you’ll never quite be. I’m not saying it doesn’t work for some people but even those people have their struggles with it and have to sacrifice quite a lot to lead the life they live. You are now dependent on the medical system and if you go down the road of SRS you’ll always be a patient you can never leave, well you can but idk the long term effect of having no dominant hormones in ur system, pretty sure osteoporosis is one. You just kinda realize that while sure some things are easier being perceived as a “cis straight person” you’re kinda of traded having an easier public life for a harder personal life. And honestly I think id rather have a more difficult public life (the occasional homophobe etc..) and a simpler personal life.
As others have mentioned finding love as a trans person especially as a trans woman can be tough if you don’t want to date those who are interested in dating a trans woman, those are typically chasers/ fetishist (not always but…) or just creeps. Sure if you pass immaculately you might find some guys that will look the other way as long as it’s kept secret. Idk it’s just harder is my point. And for some people all that’s worth it I guess. But it does get lonely sometimes. And at the end of the day even if you change everything your social security number never changes (if ur from the US of course) and to get a job you always give us S.S and boom all your info is found.
Stop hyper fixating on it and live your life. Just like transitioning was toxic the same can apply to detransitioning if you’re not careful. Yes there’s differences but my point is if all you do every day is focus in on the small changes T might have done (and based on other posts it seems you were only on T 5 months) yeah your gonna be miserable. It’s one thing to talk about it and find others going through similar things and it’s another thing to only focus on what can’t be changed and let it consume you. Some people are bald have tons of body and facial hair have super deep voices had a phallus plopped onto their body their breasts removed etc…
All I’m saying is you’re going to be just fine if you work on accepting yourself and not living in the past. That’s a recipe for disaster. You can’t change it so why continue letting it control you? All you can do is move forward, change what is changeable and do the best you can. That’s all any of us can do. Consider yourself lucky you had the wherewithal to stop when you did, many aren’t so lucky.
Yeah…poor comparison imo. Women from those countries don’t have the option or choice to “transition” to escape their heavily sexist societies. They also don’t always have the same access to the same brain mush internet content we do from a young age. Ironically if we’re on this topic some Islamic counties I’ve seen actually rather men transition into woman than be openly homosexual.. like to them that just makes more sense than for a man to like another man. Yeah…