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About me
I'm a masculine woman who started transitioning because I hated how the world saw me and wanted to escape being sexualized. I took testosterone for a few years, but stopping it was really hard and I went through severe depression. Through therapy, I realized I never had gender dysphoria and was just trying to cope with trauma and not fitting in. I stopped for good last summer and now deeply regret the permanent changes. I've found so much support here, learning there's nothing wrong with being a woman who looks like me.
My detransition story
My whole journey with this started because I never felt like I fit in, especially as a girl. From a young age, people often mistook me for a boy. I had what I call a "40-year-old British man" face even as a teenager, with a big nose, big forehead, and features that people just saw as male. I’d be dressed in feminine clothes and still get called "sir" until I spoke. It made me feel like I could never be a pretty girl, and that really hurt my confidence.
Growing up, I was taught to be afraid of everyone. The message I got was that all men were dangerous and wanted to hurt me, and for some reason I can't even remember now, all women were bad, too. This created a lot of anxiety and made me feel unsafe in the world. As I got older, I was what you'd call a "manly lesbian." I didn't fit in with other girls, and I absolutely hated the male attention I got. It felt like I was being sexualized by desperate weirdos, and I just wanted it to stop.
When I first learned about being transgender, I was in a really dark place. I saw how happy people looked after transitioning online, and I thought it was the solution to all my problems. I believed that if I lived as a man, I could finally feel safe in my body and escape being sexualized. I now realize I never had actual gender dysphoria. I just hated how I was treated by the world.
I started taking testosterone, but I’ve stopped twice. The first time I quit cold turkey was really rough. I had bad mood swings, deep depression, and felt like I wanted to die. I ended up going back on it. I stopped for good last summer. This second time was easier physically; I just felt my strength decrease and had some occasional depression. I think my mindset was different because I was finally figuring things out.
What really helped me realize I wasn't trans was getting older and finding a good therapist. Through therapy, I understood that my desire to transition was about escaping how others saw me, not about an internal sense of being male. If I could go back, I would tell my younger self not to do it. I’d explain that there's nothing wrong with being a masculine woman, and I’d show her how much harder life would become and how much of the medical stuff is irreversible.
Finding this community and reading other people's stories has been a huge help. It made me feel less alone, because I don't really know of any other resources. This place has been the most genuine and accepting group of people I've encountered through this whole ordeal.
Looking back, I don't think gender is as simple as being born in the wrong body. For me, it was a way to cope with trauma, low self-esteem, and not fitting into stereotypes. I do have regrets about transitioning, mainly because of the permanent changes to my body and the difficult years I went through based on a misunderstanding of my own feelings.
Here is a timeline of the main events:
| My Age | Event |
|---|---|
| Childhood - 15 | People frequently mistook me for a boy despite wearing feminine clothes. |
| 15 | Started dressing in hoodies and more masculine clothing. |
| Around 17-18 | First learned about transgender identities during a dark time in my life. |
| Around 18 | Started taking testosterone for the first time. |
| Around 20 | Stopped testosterone cold turkey for the first time; experienced severe mood swings and depression. |
| Early 20s | Resumed testosterone after the difficult first attempt to stop. |
| 23 (Summer) | Stopped testosterone cold turkey for the final time. Experienced decreased strength and occasional depression. |
| 23-24 | Underwent therapy and realized my transition was driven by a desire to escape mistreatment, not by gender dysphoria. |
Top Comments by /u/PM_ME_UR_TF2_HEAVIES:
Yes. It's super frustrating. You have to make a new account if you want a new username, and I don't want to lose all my points every time I do because so many subreddits have such a high karma requirement. I agree with what others have said, let us have a yearly name change so people can't misuse it, but then people also don't have to make a whole new account.
I suppose a mixture of age and proper good therapy is what helped me realize I wasn't actually trans. I don't believe that I ever had dysphoria, I just hated how I was treated by the world. I think that's a big part of why I transitioned, I wanted to feel safe in the world and in my own body without being sexualized. I was also a manly lesbian and never fit in with girls. I positively HATED the male attention I got from absolute desperate weirdos.
I came into the knowledge of trans people and what that meant at a really dark point in my life. I thought it would solve my problems and make me happy aftet I saw just how happy everyone looked after transitioning. If I could sit down with my past self, I would absolutely tell myself not to, I'd explain there's nothing wrong with me and how much worse my life would become if I did.. I'd tell myself just much stuff is irreversible. If I could, I'd show myself my worst memories of how transitioning affected me.
Reading people's replies on here has really helped me understand that I am not alone. I don't know of any real resources outside of this subreddit. Thus place has been the most accepting and genuine lot of people I've dealt with during this ENTIRE ordeal.
That is true. Sadly it wasn't just the clothing that had people thinking I was a boy or a man. Throughout my childhood and teens, I would dress fairly feminine (up until I was 15 and I got into hoodies) and occasionally would hear people ask my folks if Iw as their son. I had the face of a 40 year old British man by the time I was 13, and there was nothing feminine about that at all. Crooked teeth, big lumpy nose, droopy eyebrows, tiny deep set eyes, massive forehead, big chin, and terrible skin all scream 'male' to most people. It wasn't until I spoke, and people were suddenly apologizing for calling me a sir. I really wish I had the advantage of a slightly feminine face, I think it would have definitely given me the confidence to not decide to live as a man if at least one person had thought I was at least somewhat pretty.
I stopped cold turkey last summer. I felt a definite decrease in physical strength over the next few months and didn't have too many mental side effects. A spot of depression here and there. It definitely varies from person to person, though.
This is also the second time I have stopped cold turkey; the first time was much, much rougher, with mood swings, depression, and feelings of wanting to die. I think the mindset you have going into it can potentially affect the way you feel.
Yes. I was pretty much taught that everyone was bad. All men were bad, all women were bad.. just everyone was bad. In the case of men, it was the irrational notion that all of them would want to kill me, and for women, I honestly don't remember the illogical logic of their reasoning for it.