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The comments display a consistent, detailed, and nuanced personal narrative of detransition (FTMTF) over time. The user shares specific medical details, emotional reflections, and practical challenges that align with the experiences of genuine detransitioners and desisters. The tone is passionate and critical of medical transition, which is consistent with the warning about users being "pissed off about this topic."
About me
I started testosterone at 20 and had top surgery because I was deeply uncomfortable with my female body. I later realized my issues were more about body dysmorphia than being transgender, and medical transition was just a temporary fix for me. I stopped hormones at 22 and now regret the permanent changes, especially my flat chest from surgery. My body is still masculinized in some ways, which makes it hard to pass as female again. While I don't regret the journey of self-discovery, I deeply wish I had tried to find other ways to cope first.
My detransition story
My transition journey started when I was 20 years old. I began taking testosterone because I had a lot of discomfort with my body, specifically my breasts, and I didn't feel like a woman. I was on T for two years, and during that time, I also had top surgery to remove my breasts. For a while, this made my dysphoria disappear. I felt like I had finally fixed the problem.
But after a while, the dysphoria came back, just in a different way. I started to feel uncomfortable with the permanent changes from testosterone and the fact that I had removed a part of my body I now wished I had. I realized that medical transition had only been a temporary solution for me. I stopped taking testosterone when I was 22, in early December.
Looking back, I believe my issues were more about body dysmorphia and a general discomfort with puberty rather than being truly transgender. I think I could have learned to live with my body the way it was if I had gotten the right kind of support. I didn't strongly identify as a man socially; my main drive was to change my body to escape the discomfort.
Another big part of my experience was my sexuality. I have always only been attracted to men. I didn't realize how much my transition would affect my romantic relationships. I was lucky to have a bisexual boyfriend who stayed with me, but we struggled a lot and nearly broke up twice because of my transition. It's a harsh truth, but if you're a female who is attracted to straight men, transitioning can make finding a partner very difficult.
Since stopping testosterone, some things have changed and some haven't. My facial hair still grows just as fast, which is unfortunate. I've lost some muscle mass, but my body shape is still pretty square and masculine. The biggest change has been in my face; it has feminized a lot and I barely recognize myself in old pictures. My voice, however, still throws people off. I don't pass naturally yet, but with some makeup and by growing my hair out to cover my male-patterned hairline, I can pass as female.
I had top surgery, and I do have some regrets about that because I now miss having breasts. I've noticed a tiny bit of regrowth, but it's very minimal. The flat chest makes it harder for me to pass now.
I don't regret exploring my gender because I needed to go through it to understand myself, but I do regret permanently altering my body. I wish I had tried to find other ways to cope with my discomfort first. My advice to anyone questioning is to really try your best to live with your body the way it is. Medical transition should be a last resort.
Here is a timeline of my journey:
| Age | Event |
|---|---|
| 20 | Started taking testosterone. |
| 21 | Had top surgery (double mastectomy). |
| 22 | Stopped testosterone in early December. |
| 22 | Began socially presenting as female again about 7 months after stopping T. |
Top Comments by /u/PlasticHouseplant:
Im an ftmtf and I've always been attracted to guys only. What I didn't realize going into transition is that your romantic relationships will suffer. I was lucky to have a bisexual boyfriend who stuck with me through it all but we did have a lot of struggles when I identified as male, and we nearly broke up twice because of my transition.
If you currently have a partner, they might not want to stick around if you transition. And if you don't have a partner and long for one, do know that it would most likely be very difficult to find a match with a man who will be attracted to an ftm. It's the harsh truth and really something to consider if a romantic relationship is important to you.
I took T for two years and had top surgery, it made my dysphoria disappear for a while and then later it came back sort of in the opposite direction? Medical transition was only a temporary solution to my discomfort, and now here I am with permanent changes to my body that I wish I could reverse. When I think back at myself I do believe I could have learned to live with my body dysphoria without medically transitioning.
I would absolutely recommend to do your best to live with your body the way it is. I know it's hard, truly. But I believe medical transition should only be a last-resort option for people who strongly socially identifies as the opposite sex. Having body dysphoria and "not feeling like a woman" are not reasons enough to permanently alter your body. You can never really know how you will feel about the permanent changes before it's too late.
Thank you for commenting! I have some questions if you're OK with answering.
Do you have any issues with weird movement of the breast when flexing the muscle? I've heard some people get that when you put implants under a muscle.
How does the implant feel inside your body, are you "constantly aware" that there is a foreign object or does it feel quite natural?
What kind of implant do you have? Silicone/saline? Round/anatomical? smooth/textured?
How long ago did you have your surgery, and how is your sensation around the breast today?
If you kept your ovaries you shouldn’t need to take any estrogen, but it’s definitely recommended to monitor your levels for a while so it’s great that you’re still in contact with your endo.
As others have stated already, hair changes reverting or not is very individual. I took nebido for 2 years, and I'm about 10 months off. My facial hair has not reduced at all, and it still grows very quickly unfortunately. However, my body hair has definitely reverted a bit, and I think it will probably reduce more with time. I even have a couple of bald spots on my legs now, which is pretty weird. Not sure if that’s related to T or not. My hairline also changed a bit on T, but I can’t really tell if it’s growing back or not. I’ve heard it could take years to revert, but in some cases it might not revert at all unfortunately. Only time will tell.
I also had top surgery, and have noticed a bit of regrowth, though very minimal.
I changed my name after coming out at work, about 7 months off T. I “pass” okay if I make an effort, it’s mostly my voice that throws people off. The biggest change since going off T in my case has been how much my face feminized. I honestly can barely recognise myself in pictures taken a year ago lol.
The most unexpected thing is that I naturally lost 5kg when I stopped T, but the shape of my body actually hasn’t reverted much. It’s still quite masculine, but I have definitely lost the muscle mass I naturally gained on T.
For the record I started T when I was 20, stopped after two years and have now been off for about 6 months. I still don't "naturally pass", I think it's mostly because of my flat chest and male-patterned hairline combined with my short hairstyle. However my face has definitely feminized a lot, and with the help of some eyeliner and a brow pencil I pass pretty easily as long as my bangs cover my hairline. I am also growing out my hair and I think that will be very helpful too.
My body still hasn't reverted much, I'm still pretty square shaped and slightly muscular. I've heard it can take a long time for fat to redistribute unless you gain/lose a significant amount of weight. I don't see my current body shape as an issue though, it's just the lack of breast that affects my ability to pass.
I stopped T in early December last year and I don't plan on going back. Facial hair still grows as quick and I've lost some muscle mass, but not much else has changed yet. People at work know me as a cis guy so growing my hair out is a bit hard, I don't plan on ever coming out there since this job is temporary until I figure out what I want to do next. I don't even know if I want to grow my hair out, I know it will help me "pass" as a female easier but I don't know if it's "me"..