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About me
I'm a male who desperately wanted to escape puberty because I hated becoming a man and just wanted to stay a boy forever. I almost transitioned to female, believing it was my only way out, but I realized my feelings were heavily influenced by a porn addiction. I learned I would never truly pass as a woman and was scared by the serious health risks of hormones. I stopped before doing anything medical and worked on my addiction, which made my dysphoria fade away. Now I see that my discomfort wasn't about being born in the wrong body, but came from other issues I needed to face.
My detransition story
My whole journey with this started with a deep discomfort with puberty. I’m male, and when I began to mature, I hated everything about it. I didn't like becoming angsty, stressed, or horny. I didn't want to look like a man. I just wanted to stay a sweet little boy forever. For a long time, I lived in complete denial that I was even growing up; I refused to let anyone talk about my age or call me a teenager.
To cope, I would constantly look at old pictures of myself from when I was a kid and get completely lost in nostalgia, trying to relive those times. That’s when I found trans content online. It seemed like a way out. I thought that if I couldn't stay a boy, maybe I could become a woman instead and escape growing into a man. I wanted to suppress my testosterone and take estrogen not because I felt like a woman, but because I wanted to reverse puberty.
Looking back, I’m so glad I wasn’t more involved online back then. I later found out there are adults who fetishize that desire to be a child, and it’s absolutely disgusting. I could have easily been pulled into that.
I never actually started hormones or had any surgeries. I got very close, but I realized it wasn't for me. A huge part of my desire was tied to a porn addiction, specifically to sissy and trans porn. I learned that this can create something called autogynephilia (AGP), where you become sexually attracted to the idea of yourself as a woman. It’s like your brain gets wired to pair-bond with yourself. I realized my dysphoria wasn’t some innate thing I was born with; it was heavily influenced by the porn I watched and the online spaces I was in.
I also came to understand that I would most likely never truly pass as a woman. Trans women can look feminine in filtered pictures, but in real life, next to a woman, the differences in voice, body language, and bone structure are obvious. The reality of becoming infertile, having a shorter lifespan from hormones, and dealing with sexual dysfunction also became very clear and scary to me.
When I decided to detransition, my parents were relieved. But a lot of people in the trans community weren't supportive. They either said I was never really trans to begin with or that I was just confused and should keep going. I think they feel threatened when someone detransitions.
I don’t really have regrets about exploring transition because I learned so much about myself through the process. But I am glad I stopped before doing anything medical. My thoughts on gender now are that it’s not as simple as we’re told. A lot of people transition for reasons like trauma, internalized homophobia, autism, or other mental health issues, not because they were born in the wrong body. Clothing and presentation are just social rules; a masculine woman or a feminine man is just a person, not someone who needs to change their body.
I benefited from stepping away from social media and working on my porn addiction with a 12-step program, not just NoFap. That was the real key to getting better. My dysphoria faded when I dealt with the root of the problem.
Here is a timeline of my journey:
| Age | Event |
|---|---|
| 12 | Started puberty, began to intensely dislike the changes and the feelings that came with it. |
| 13-14 | Lived in denial of growing up, heavily indulged in nostalgia and looking at childhood photos. |
| 15 | Discovered trans communities and ideas online and began to identify as trans, believing it was an escape from male puberty. |
| 16 | Researched HRT and seriously considered medical transition, but discovered the concept of AGP and realized my desires were linked to a porn addiction. |
| 17 | Began to detransition after realizing I would not pass and that my motivations were not healthy. Stopped identifying as trans. |
| 17 | Started a 12-step program for porn addiction, which was crucial for my recovery and overcoming dysphoric feelings. |
Top Comments by /u/PorthosMoonPower:
I've given up on civil discourse with most trans people (though there are a couple I enjoy talking to) long ago. They're paranoid and dogmatic. If you aren't with them, you're not just against them, but against them in the worst way possible according to them. I also like how they say "wrong sub" like their statement is an objectively true, be-all-and-end-all, fact. I think they act like this because deep down, they are very uncertain and insecure about their identities, so they need to project strength and block out anything that brings these insecurities to the surface.
You want to transition when you feel stress because your porn addiction has become your main way of coping with stress. You've admitted you have a sissy porn addiction, and so transitioning is an escalation of this addiction. If you don't want to feel the desire to transition, go and work on your porn addiction -- and not through Nofap, but through a 12-step program for porn addiction. Let me tell you that getting to the transitioning-as-a-result-of-sissy-porn stage is already a sign of big porn addiction that needs to be treated with a 12-step group.
I don't intend to scare you straight and be overly dramatic about the realities of transition, but I will be honest. You probably won't pass. You won't be motivated to put in the effort for things like makeup and style because that's not who you truly are; you were brainwashed into doing that by porn. Even if you did pass physically, you will still be clocked by mannerisms, voice, and a male midface. Then, many of the people in your life may not accept you transitioning, which will be very hurtful and cause you to lose several connections. People will only be nice to you out of performative trans allyship, and that will be meaningless because you will be able to tell it's performative. Your love life will be reduced to male chasers, which won't work out because you're a straight man, as most men who get into sissy porn are. All this will cause you to become incredibly isolated and only find company in rare Queer Safe Spaces. You'll still feel out of place in Queer Safe Spaces because you know that you aren't dysphoric compared to the trans people -- people who have been dealing with severe, crippling dysphoria all their lives -- and that you're a cis male chaser who is appropriating their experiences for his fetish. On top of that, you'll almost certainly become infertile, which means you'll never be able to have biological kids, your lifespan will be shorter as a result of consuming all these artificial hormones, and you will end up dealing with phantom erections (where you have sexual tension but are unable to release it as a result of estrogen making your penis non-functional). That is what your life will be like when you transition. It's good that you have enough self-awareness to admit that transitioning isn't for you; you just need to get rid of the urges to transition by tackling your porn addiction and finding other ways to cope with stress.
This is absolutely right. So much transmed stuff I see seems to be pure cope because they see themselves in the "tucutes" and don't want to admit to themselves that they're just flamboyant men who want to conform to society or traumatized women who want to dissociate from themselves. Transmedicalism is, by their own admission, based entirely on conformity, which is why they hate nonbinary people, trans men who are more feminine, and trans women who are more masculine. Transmeds know that they wouldn't conform in society if they weren't transitioning, which is why they so desperately try to paint themselves as the true trans people.
Trans people dismiss detransitioners as a vanishing minority that shouldn't be regarded or accommodated, yet trans people are themselves a minority who want accommodation. Imagine what trans people would say if nobody accommodated them because they're a minority.
I honestly feel the same way about that trans flag. Now that I know what it really represents, I have great disdain for it. You aren't transphobic; you just have trauma that understandably sparks this kind of reaction. Don't feel bad about this feeling.
This isn't a good attitude to have. You shouldn't detransition because of politics. You should detransition because transitioning isn't right for you, not because it isn't right for others. Repression with transphobia isn't healthy, and it will end up with you getting oddly obsessed with trans people and eventually retransitioning at some point.
Transitioning doesn't mean you have to be an extreme queer liberation sex-positive Antifa transfeminist anarchocommunist. Trans people hold all kinds of beliefs, and the ones you see loudest on the internet aren't the beliefs held by most trans people. Plenty of trans people live quiet, normal lives and constructively contribute to society. Transphobes usually don't have a problem with that -- they have a problem with trans people who commit crimes and are clearly fetishistic.
It's hard to say. You'll get a different answer depending on if you ask. Some trans people will say you're trans based on any gender nonconforming behaviour from your past (which we all have) or the fact that you are questioning your gender. Other trans people will say you're trans only if you know you have been dealing with severe, crippling dysphoria from early childhood.
I don't think transitioning should be the first thing you do. There are plenty of people on the tucute/tenderqueer side who detransition once they're tired of trans being their personality and find a fresher fad; there are plenty of truscum who detransition because, despite being so desperate to make transitioning cure their dysphoria, it's not what they needed. You should do everything you can to deal with your dysphoria without transitioning. Discover if your dysphoria is related to trauma, homophobia, mental health issues such as autism or BPD, social pressure/issues, or paraphilia.
It depends. If the trans person is actively against detransitioners and wants to hurt detransitioners, I feel less sympathy and more anger. I also feel anger if the trans person is known to be violent or sexually deviant. However, I also view lots of them as trapped in an unhealthy lifestyle and suffering from transitioning, but that they aren't ready to admit this. I think lots of them are good people who just fell into this and now are either too blind or too stubborn to detransition.
If all the AGPs were to be removed from the trans community, I think that trans activism wouldn't be nearly as big and controversial as it is now. HSTSs comprise 1% of the trans community, and most HSTSs don't like mentioning that they're trans and want nothing to do with the trans community. I think most people, save for a few radical feminists and homophobic arch-conservatives, wouldn't care about trans issues and would happily give trans people the accommodations they want.
However, even before "transsexual" became "transgender", Blanchard found that the majority of transsexuals were fetishistic AGP crossdressers, not HSTSs with lifelong sex dysphoria, so AGPs have always been the majority of the trans community. Plus, most of the prominent trans activists who fought to frame transitioning as lifesaving healthcare instead of elective cosmetic surgery, thereby helping more people transition, were AGPs. This is because the AGPs were most likely to have influential positions from which they could drive institutional change, while the HSTSs were most likely to be sex workers or models. In short, there probably wouldn't be as many transitioning HSTSs if not for the work of AGPs.
Testosterone is a Schedule-III controlled steroid (causes low physical dependence and high psychological dependence), so it is quite addictive.
Have you considered a 12-step addiction support group? Be careful with which support groups and sponsors you choose in case anyone tries to say you're "trans in denial" and get you back on the testosterone.