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About me
After a painful breakup, I started experimenting with cross-dressing, which led me to transition after learning about it online. I was on estrogen for over three years, but I stopped because the side effects were severe and I never felt like I truly passed as female. Since stopping, my mental and physical health have improved dramatically, and my dysphoria has completely vanished. I realize now that I was trying to escape my own self-loathing, and that I can embrace my feminine interests without being a woman. I don't regret the journey, but I am finally at peace living as a man on my own terms.
My detransition story
My journey with transition started after a really painful breakup. My first and only relationship was with a guy, and when it ended after about a year, it broke something inside of me. I started painting my nails and cross-dressing as an experiment. Then, one day at work, I heard about Caitlyn Jenner, and that opened me up to the whole concept of being trans. I did countless hours of research online and started shopping for girly clothes. I know now that I was just running away from myself.
I was on estrogen for over three years. A big part of my reasoning for eventually stopping was that I never felt I was passing. Even with makeup, I still looked androgynous. But I stopped mostly because of the side effects of HRT and a shift in my life's focus. The hormones gave me intense mood swings and crippling insomnia. I remember once I stopped taking them for just a few hours and the next day was hell; I cried so much. When I finally decided to stop for good, I tapered off, and it was much smoother.
Since stopping, I feel great. It feels like I woke up from a really long dream. My mood has been stable, I can sleep properly, and I've started running to train for a half marathon. The most surprising thing is that my dysphoria is gone. For the first time in my life, I like my body as it is. I realize now that all I wanted was to be seen as a girl, but I knew no amount of hormones or surgeries could mask my self-doubt and loathing.
I don't regret transitioning. It helped me see the world in a more positive light and gave me some fantastic memories I wouldn't trade for anything. Slogging through all of that finally brought me to where I am now. I have to live with having some breast tissue from the hormones, but it doesn't bother me at all. I wear a lightly padded sports bra every day and have learned to love myself. It took me 29 years to get to this point.
I look better as a guy and I don't have to deal with the looming stress of thinking about hormones or surgery. I want to have children someday, something I was unsure about while I was transitioning. I’ve realized that wanting to cross-dress is different than being fully trans. I still wear my panties daily and nightwear when I sleep. I sort of assumed I had to transition because I liked girly clothes and stuff, but I've learned I can be a guy on my own terms without anyone telling me how to act. Now I feel truly free.
| Age | Event |
|---|---|
| 26 | First and only relationship with a guy ended, began experimenting with cross-dressing. |
| 26 | Heard about Caitlyn Jenner, began researching and identifying as trans (MTF). |
| 26 | Started estrogen hormone therapy (HRT). |
| 29 | After over 3 years on HRT, began questioning and tapered off estrogen. |
| 29 | Officially stopped HRT for good. |
Top Comments by /u/Potatos24678:
Not passing was part of my reasoning for detransitioning. Even with makeup I’d still be androgynous. I stopped mostly because of the side effects of hrt and shift of focus in my life style. I feel great now. I’m still very feminine even though I’ve been off for a few weeks. Body fat takes a long time to go back.
This resonates deeply with me. My first and only relationship was with a guy. I was top but it ended poorly after about a year. I think getting dumped broke something inside of me. I started painting my nails and cross dressing as an experiment, then one day at work I heard about Caitlyn Jenner. She opened me up to the trans word. I did countless hours of research and started shopping for girly cloths. I know now I was just running away from my self. Though I don’t regret transitioning. It helped me see the word in a more positive light. Three years later, a few weeks ago I stopped E. Now I truly understand myself, slogging through the muck finally brought me to where I am now. My mood has been stable since I stopped! It feels like I woke from a really long dream. I had some fantastic memories that I wouldn’t trade for anything, but now I know how to move on.
I plan to move out soon. Maybe go backpacking or hiking across Canada. Run a marathon (or half), and write my second novel. Now I feel truly free, when I retire from writing I’ll move to Tibet and live as a monk.
I was questioning for a few weeks after over three years on E. I made an appointment with my endo and he said I could stop any time, tapered off or cold turkey. What inspired me to stop was having intense mood swings and stopping the meds for a few hours. It was hell and I cried so much the next day. Stopping the second time was much smoother. Now I’ve been off of three and a half weeks. I generally feel better. I can sleep without crippling insomnia, I run often to train for a half marathon. My dysphoria is gone. I like my body as it is for the first time in my life.
I realize now it’s going take many months for my body to change back. I still have fat on my thighs and butt. The most pronounced changes are my skin texture and smell. Deodorant and dented lotions smell different. My hair has more oil, which is good because it was dry before. I’ve only been off E for two weeks. Going to try on some guy jeans tomorrow!
How did you access hormones at 17? I was mtf for three years. You never stop being mtf, all I wanted was to be seen as a girl, but I knew no amount of hormones or surgeries can mask my self doubt and loathing. There are so many mental and physical side effects that they don’t tell you about. It’s not worth it. I want to have children, something I was unsure of wile I was transitioning.
I would suggest stopping until you can make an informed decision. Remember that some of the changes are irreversible. I have to live with having a chest, I wear a lightly padded sports bra every day, it doesn’t bother me at all because I have learned to love myself. It took 29 years to get to this point. IMO I look better as a guy and I don’t have to deal with the looming stress of thinking about hormones or surgery. Talk to people who will listen. But most importantly, communicate with yourself.
Close all of your blinds in your room. Turn off your phone and anything that might distract you. Sit in front of a mirror naked and take the time to learn and respect your body. I found my inner beauty, it wasn’t easy but I stopped hrt. Talk to your doctor about stopping, I haven’t had any intense side effects from stopping cold turkey, though you might be different. I am not a doctor, just saying what I went through.
Even if you don’t take hrt, it’s okay to be more feminine, don’t let others tell you what to do, or how to dress. Wanting to cross dress is different than being fully trans. I still wear my panties daily and nightware when I sleep. I sort of assumed I had to transition because I liked girly cloths and stuff. I want to be a guy on my own terms without anyone telling me how to act.