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About me
I started feeling like I was in the wrong body when I was six, and it got much worse during puberty because of my abusive, misogynistic father. I later identified as trans for over a decade, believing it was an armor to protect me from men after I survived sexual abuse and rape. A severe mental health crisis in my early thirties made me realize I was using a trans identity to cope with deep trauma. I decided against medical transition, seeing it as a potentially life-altering mistake, and I’m now working on accepting myself as a woman. I’m just grateful I woke up before permanently changing my body, and I’m focused on healing with the support of my friends and family.
My detransition story
My whole journey with gender started when I was really young, around six years old. I had this feeling of being in the "wrong body," but it got a lot worse when I hit puberty. Looking back, I know a huge part of that was my dad. He was abusive and had a real hatred for women. I remember him saying to me when I was about twelve, "If your brother had been born first there would only be one kid." That kind of stuff really messes with your head and definitely threw gas on the fire for me.
Luckily, after he was gone, my mom was much more understanding and helped me start to work through my mental shit.
For a long time, I used my art and writing to vent my feelings. Even before I knew what was wrong, most of the characters I created were male. That was the main way my issues showed up when I was a teenager, along with some crossdressing. It took a lot of time, but creating things really helped me immeasurably.
I thought I was trans from my twenties into my early thirties. Before that, I was just a tomboy. The shift happened after some really traumatic events. I experienced sexual abuse starting from the age of three, and then was raped again by a guy in high school. At first, after that, I identified as a "bull dyke." Then I discovered the term "transgender," and it felt like putting on a suit of armor. My logic was that the guys who hurt me wouldn't have done it if I was a boy. It was a defense mechanism, a way to keep men at a distance.
It took a full-blown psychotic break, a real mental health crisis, for me to snap out of it. I realized that being trans was something I was using to cope with the trauma. The solution wasn't to call myself a man in a woman's body; it was to accept that I'm a tall woman and learn self-defense. I'm lucky that I had terrible experiences with psychiatry in the past, so I never went through with medical transition. I researched it and decided that the current technology for transitioning is like barbaric lobotomy, just done to make big money. I decided to wait for better tech, and that decision probably saved my life. If I had woken up from that mindset with a permanently changed body, I probably would have ended my life.
I have strong feelings about kids transitioning. An 11-year-old shouldn't be able to take puberty blockers and ruin their future sex life and health. I was in my twenties and couldn't figure this stuff out for a decade—how is a kid supposed to? I also worry about parents maybe having Munchausen's by proxy, using their kid's transition for attention.
Digging deep to find where your feelings are coming from is so important. Otherwise, you can wake up a decade later, back to normal mentally, but stuck in a body that can never go back. I'll always be nervous around men because of the abuse, but having a few close friends and what's left of my family makes the effort to fix myself worth it. I'm just glad I got out with my body intact. Plenty of people like me aren't so lucky.
| Age | Event |
|---|---|
| 3 | First experience of sexual abuse. |
| 6 | Started having feelings of being in the "wrong body." |
| 12 | Puberty made feelings worse; father made abusive, misogynistic comments. |
| Teenage years | Identified as a tomboy; most created characters in art/writing were male; did some crossdressing. |
| High School | Second rape incident; began identifying as a "bull dyke." |
| 20s | Discovered term "transgender"; identified as trans for about 10 years as a defense mechanism against past trauma. |
| Early 30s | Had a psychotic break/mental health crisis; realized trans identity was a coping mechanism; decided against medical transition after research; detransitioned. |
Top Comments by /u/Rhapsodypride:
A 11 year old should not be able to take Puberty blockers and ruin their future sex life (and ability to transition using penile inversion.) Jazz Jennings is a prime Example of what happens when you LIE to someone during every part of the process. Miserably unhappy and fat. No one cares now that Jazz isn't Kawaii uwu
If I hadn't researched the Barbarism they call gender affirming care and said "I'm waiting on better tech" I would have probably offed myself when I woke up and realized it was all a defense mechanism.
I was in my 20s and thought I was trans for 10 years. How are kids supposed to judge this shit? Do doctors even check for Munchausen's by Proxy in the parents of trans kids? Seems like a get out of jail free card for that mental illness, and transing their kid has the added bonus of Woke points from society in general.
I don't know about studies but I realized that was exactly what I was doing. The abuse started at 3. First I was a Tomboy, then bull dyke after incident 2 with a dude in HS, then Trans when I discovered the term. It took almost a decade to realize all of that was self defense, not some true inner self.
It is disproportionate though... One of the theories I have read, (though I can't speak from experience since I never medically transitioned, I was holding out for better standards/tech) that Tes will to a degree make you more rational and estrogen more emotional. That rational brain speaks up enough and you realize the messed up situation you put yourself in and figure out to get out.
I will say CSA and regular SA, definitely influenced my identity. I started out IDing as a bull dyke, then I discovered transgender and it was like a suit of armor. The guys who hurt me wouldn't have if I was a boy. That whole line of logic.
It took a psychotic break for me to pull out of it all and just accept I'm a tall woman and the solution is learning self defense, not calling myself a man in a woman's body.
Probably because it's what helped her get out and led to the generosity?
As an example, The Twelve step programs like AA have Christian overtones but still try to help people if they're not Christian. I would assume this is the same way, though if I am wrong on further review, I'll take the knocks for it.
I use my art and writing as a way to vent the feelings and have since before I knew what was wrong (75% of my characters being male was the main manifestation of my issue in my teens with some crossdressing on the side). It takes a time investment but has helped me immeasurably. There's the bonus of that little bit of pride in creating something from nothing.
I thought I was trans from my 20s-my early 30s, before that I was just a Tom Boy.
I realized after a mental health crisis that being trans was something I used to keep men at arms length after being r*ped twice and having a shitty misogynist father. Luckily I researched and decided current transition tech is lobotomy-esque barbarism done to make big bucks so I have my old body but a lot of people don't.
Dig deep as to where your feelings are coming from. Otherwise you could wake up a decade later back to normal mentally with a body that can't ever go back
31 over here. So closer to you than not. There was, I am sure a legitimate need. We don't build these shells for no reason. For me, there was stimulus preceding the evolution. I'm glad you got out lightly as far as abuse goes. I'm lucky I'd had terrible experiences with psychiatry so I never went for medical transition. The abuse sucked and I'll be fighting men I don't know making me nervous my whole life but, a few close friends and what remains of my family make the efforts to fix myself worth it. And yeah. We're still here to make choices. Plenty of people like us aren't so lucky
Grew up with an abusive woman hating father. Had the wrong body feelies from around 6, got worse at puberty, that being said he definitely threw gas on the fire. "If your brother had been born first there would only be one kid" was a quote from him around age 12.
Luckily once he was gone my more understanding mother started helping me work my mental sh*t out.