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About me
I started transitioning as a teenager because I was a masculine girl who felt ashamed and thought becoming a man was the only way to be loved. My medical journey was rushed and traumatic, leaving me with serious complications and nerve damage from a mastectomy I now regret. I eventually realized my problem wasn't with my body, but with hating the social idea of being a girl. I'm now off testosterone and learning to embrace being a woman again, which feels like a rebellious act of self-love. While I don't regret the journey that brought me here, I am finally the happiest I've ever been working on accepting myself.
My detransition story
My whole journey started when I was a teenager. I was a masculine girl who liked other girls, and I felt really ashamed of that. I grew up in a misogynistic household where being a girl was seen as a bad thing, and I was convinced that no woman would ever want to be with me if I was just a masculine woman. I thought being a lesbian was embarrassing and that the only way to be accepted and loved was to become a man. That feeling of being inadequate was the main reason I transitioned.
When I was 18, I was prescribed testosterone on my very first visit to a pediatrician who specialized in trans healthcare. I brought up health concerns, but they were all brushed off. I was told it was fine. I started testosterone and it gave me black-out rage, but the doctor just said that was normal, that "boys get angry during puberty." I desperately wanted to be a man.
A couple of years later, when I was 20, I got a double mastectomy, which I now just call a mastectomy. The morning of the surgery, my surgeon tried to change the agreed-upon method after I was already sedated with Xanax. I had to be really firm to stop her. The surgery itself was awful. I have a photo of myself right before they put me under, and I just look angry and sad. I remember thinking, "Why do I have to do all of this?" I had serious complications. I nearly stopped breathing from the anesthesia and had to stay in the hospital with a nurse watching me and reminding me to breathe. I had to go to the emergency room afterwards. I was also pressured by doctors to get a hysterectomy I didn't want, all because I was on testosterone.
For a while, the changes felt like a high. It felt powerful to take control of my body and change the things I didn't like. I passed as a man, and that initial euphoria was strong. But it didn't last. The dysphoria I had before—the hatred for my female body—just went away on its own over time. I realized I didn't hate myself for not having a penis anymore. So why was I still taking hormones that are bad for my body and would require more surgeries?
I tried to detransition last year. I stopped testosterone cold turkey and felt absolutely terrible, both mentally and physically, for months. I got back on it because I felt so shitty. Trying to come off it gave me panic attacks, made me dizzy and sweaty, and I’d get them in my sleep too. It’s been a real struggle, going back and forth, detransitioning and then retransitioning because it felt too hard. My chest is now either completely numb or in pain; the only sensation I have there is pain. I have nerve damage.
A big turning point for me was realizing that my problem was never really with my body itself, but with hating being a girl in a social sense. I had a lot of internalized homophobia and low self-esteem. I thought I had to change my body to be loved, but now I see that if someone wants to be with me, they want me. I shouldn't have to change myself to meet anyone's expectations. I'm trying to learn to love myself outside of anything gender-related, to stop the obsession with my body and identity entirely.
I don't regret transitioning because it led me to where I am now, but I deeply regret the specific medical interventions I had. I regret the mastectomy and the time I spent on testosterone. I wish I had realized that I could just be a masculine woman, that I didn't need to change my body to be valid. My thoughts on gender now are simple: being masculine or feminine doesn’t change your sex. A woman is a woman, even if she's masculine. Modifying your body with hormones and surgery doesn't actually change that reality.
I’m now with a boyfriend who loves me for me, and I’m trying to embrace being a woman again, even though it’s hard when the world still sees me as a man. I’m growing my hair out and learning to do more feminine things, which for me feels rebellious because I spent so long rejecting it. It’s a long process, but I’m the happiest I’ve ever been now that I’m off testosterone and working on accepting myself.
| Age | Event |
|---|---|
| 18 | Was prescribed testosterone on first doctor visit. Health concerns were dismissed. |
| 20 | Underwent double mastectomy. Had serious complications with anesthesia and recovery. |
| 23 | First attempt to detransition by stopping testosterone cold turkey. Felt terrible and went back on it. |
| 24 | Second, more successful attempt to detransition, involving tapering off testosterone. |
Top Comments by /u/Rougesugar:
It's so weird to me how deeply entrenched people are in this ideology, even the people who aren't trans-identified. How can you sleep at night knowing you're defending the mutilation of people's bodies for a delusional fanasty?? You can have all the cross hormones, surgeries, and screaming whatever bullshit pronouns you want but it doesn't change reality. It's already fucked up and evil to spread this lie to people who are miserable with their self-image but it's even worse to do it to kids. Sorry you were a victim to the trans machine.
One that always irked me was "You don't need dysphoria to be trans."
Why else transition? If you aren't absolutely miserable with your body why are you fucking maiming yourself and taking dangerous cross hormones? Not that I even agree that transition is necessarily the right step even if you have dysphoria, but that was always such a dumb argument to me. It's obvious that teenagers are running the trans talking points because they're always completely nonsensical.
I desperately wanted phalloplasty (I refuse to just call it "bottom surgery") when I was a teenager. If I had been allowed to, I would have without any hesitation. I believe that had I gotten phalloplasty, I wouldn't be alive right now.. Not a decision for a kid to make.
I went to a new therapist who told me at the start that she didn't know much about trans issues- I said that was perfect. I didn't want someone who had already formed an opinion on it.
Recently I was talking about some of the negative aspects of the trans community that get glossed over and she said something along the lines of "You're kind of blowing my mind right now." I think a lot of therapists never really see any perspective beyond "transition is the only option and it solves all problems" from their peers and clients so they start to believe it for themselves.
I have this picture of me right before they wheeled me away for surgery. I looked miserable. I look back at that picture today and think of my unhappiness and doubts and wonder why I didn't walk out of the hospital right then and there. I know it's because I felt it was too late to turn back. It wasn't.
Vocal surgery shouldn't be on your priority list right now. Try everything else before that. Commit to vocal training. I think it's a serious issue the way the trans community is so blasé about surgical methods, and I do think that mentality sticks with some of us. 7 months on testosterone is such a short time, if men can train their voices to sound feminine I don't see why we can't utilize that too.
I was told I needed to get a hysterectomy "as soon as possible" at 19 or so years old by my doctors because of the the negative effects of testosterone on the uterus... So no, I don't believe testosterone is even remotely safe for female bodies. There are plenty of other documented issues that can arise from HRT, too.
Not gonna lie that comment had me screaming to my boyfriend. You read some CNN article and now you're an expert, right? Don't mind the people over here desperately trying to shed light on the issue, just believe the media. Oh, and always blame "the right." At least they're actually doing something instead of sticking their heads in the sand..
My therapist tried to convince me I was non-binary. This is coming after me being vehemently against non-binary labels because to me they don't make sense. I can be a masculine woman and not have to be trans or non-binary, or any other label people are using lately. I think, just exist! Stop the pigeonholing.
Don't worry, no one here will scold you for being a misinformed minor led astray by the trans narrative that is dominating the healthcare system. When you have doctors, psychiatrists, teachers, parents, and peers all telling you you're trans and surgical and hormonal intervention is the only path, of course you believed it. Fuck, even the president is encouraging it, if you're in America.
I think I was 20 when I got my mastectomy (that's what it really is, not the sugar coated top surgery). I have this photo of me in the hospital bed just before they put me under with a huge frown and just anger and sadness plastered on my face. I remember thinking "Why do I have to do all of this?" I had surgical complications too, nearly stopped breathing from the anesthesia and had to stay in the hospital with a nurse watching me and reminding me to breathe, and an emergency room visit afterwards.
I wish I had realized I didn't need to get a surgery to change myself. I'm like you too, with nerve damage and a numb chest. I don't mean to be discouraging but it's been a few years and the numbness never went away for me. The only sensation I can feel is pain on my chest now. But, it was all necessary evil for me to be comfortable in my body as a "trans man"... right?
You're far better off realizing you made a mistake and detransitioning now, good luck moving forward with your life.