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- Personal, detailed narratives about surgical experiences, hormone use, and emotional struggles.
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- Complex, nuanced opinions that reflect the passionate and often angry perspective common among those who feel harmed by their transition.
- A clear personal journey from identifying as trans to a radical acceptance of their biological sex.
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About me
My journey started as a teenager when my severe period pain was dismissed, making me hate my female body and leading me to online communities that promised transition was the answer. I took testosterone for five years and had surgeries, including a mastectomy and hysterectomy, which I now deeply regret as I was pressured by doctors and chasing an impossible ideal. I realized I wasn't a man; I was just a woman who couldn't accept the pain and misogyny that came with being female. I've stopped all of that and am now focused on accepting myself as the woman I am, planning reconstructive surgery and working to repair relationships with my family. While I carry grief over my lost fertility, I'm finally looking forward to a future where I just live my life.
My detransition story
My whole journey started when I was a teenager. I was really struggling with being a girl. I had terrible period cramps that no one took seriously; my teachers and even my doctor told me I was just being dramatic. It made me hate my body and my uterus so much that I literally wanted to rip it out. I felt completely failed by the adults in my life. That deep discomfort with puberty and the pain I was in was a huge part of why I started looking for a way out.
I found that escape online. I got really deep into gender ideology and social media communities that celebrated transition as the ultimate solution. I convinced myself I was a man. I started by identifying as non-binary, but it quickly escalated. I was so desperate to erase my past feminine self that I deleted photos and tried to cut off anyone who knew the old me. It was a really unhealthy need for escapism, a way to try and become someone else entirely because I was so unhappy with who I was.
I ended up taking testosterone for about five years. I got top surgery—a double mastectomy—when I was still very young. I even had a hysterectomy to remove my uterus. I remember feeling pressured by the hospital; they kept calling and rescheduling, making me feel like I would lose my spot if I didn't go through with it. Now, I'm furious looking back. They saw my hesitation and pushed anyway. There are so few safeguards in place for people who are questioning.
I didn't go through with bottom surgery, though. I saw the results pictures and the list of horrible, lifelong complications—nerve damage, painful dilation, fluids that aren't right—and something in me just snapped. I listened to that little voice telling me it was wrong, and I'm so grateful I did.
My detransition began with a slow, cold realization that I was chasing something impossible. I thought, "just a few more years on hormones and I'll pass," or "just one more surgery and I'll be a real man." But it's a lie. You can't change your sex. Transitioning is like wearing a costume; it doesn't heal the reasons you feel dysphoric in the first place. For me, a lot of that was internalized misogyny. I didn't want to be a woman because of the pain, the beauty standards, and the way society treats women. I didn't want to be a man; I just didn't want to be a woman.
Coming back to myself has been about radical acceptance. I am a woman. That's it. Not detrans, not non-binary. A woman. I have a deeper voice from the testosterone, I'm muscular, and I have a flat chest, but none of that changes my sex. Being a woman isn't a performance or a feeling; it's a biological reality. Letting go of all the labels and boxes was incredibly freeing.
I have a lot of regrets. I regret the permanent changes to my body. I'm now infertile and I'll never be able to have my own children, which is a grief I carry every day. I regret the way I treated my family, bullying them into using a different name and pronouns and throwing tantrums when they messed up. I was a bad person, and I have to live with that shame. I’ve apologized to them, and we’re slowly working our way back, but it’s awkward and they still slip up.
I'm planning to have breast reconstruction surgery soon, but I'm trying to be realistic. It won't give me real breasts back; it's just more plastic surgery. My body isn't a toy to be constantly modified. I’m also doing voice training, and it’s going surprisingly well. I’m learning to use my female voice again.
My sexuality was also confused through all of this. I denied my attraction to men because of silly ideas I picked up online. Turns out, I'm just a straight woman who loves men. Dating and realizing I enjoyed being feminine and wanted a relationship with a man was a big part of my awakening.
My thoughts on gender are simple now: a woman is an adult human female. All the other terms are just noise that keeps us trapped. Life is so much better when you stop viewing everything through the prism of gender. I'm looking forward to my future—maybe becoming a firefighter, getting my driver's license, going to the beach in a bathing suit, and just living my life as the woman I am.
Age | Event |
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~13-16 | Struggled with severe period pain and puberty discomfort. Felt failed by adults who dismissed my pain. |
~17 | Found online trans communities. Identified as non-binary as an entry point. |
18 | Started taking testosterone. Began socially transitioning and trying to erase past feminine identity. |
19 | Underwent double mastectomy (top surgery). |
20 | Had a hysterectomy, removing my uterus and ovaries. Felt pressured by the medical system to proceed. |
22 | Stopped testosterone after nearly 5 years. Researched bottom surgery complications and decided against it. |
23 | Began the process of social detransition, reverting to my birth name and female pronouns. Apologized to my family. |
23 | Started estrogen hormone therapy and began voice training to regain a female-sounding voice. |
24 | (Planned) Scheduled for a two-stage breast reconstruction surgery. |
Top Comments by /u/Sad-Comedian-5747:
also on bottom surgery: neovaginas lining are created from either skin or portion of the intestin (and sometime buccal mucosa). It's hollow and needs to be manually dialated everyday, otherwise it closes up on itself. They don't create any semblance of a female orgasm, it lacks the muscle spasms, the cervical fluids, and the cyprine. Some can get """"wet"""" but it's either seminal fluids having been rerouted during the surgery or intestinal fluids when made from a portion of intestin.
A HUGE majority of patients report never getting feeling back, they often suffer nerve damage, neuropathyand other array of issues. Surgeons sometimes try to preserve the glan and turn it into a clitoris, but here again with all the cutting the sensibility is pratically null and nothing like the sensation of a clitoris. Penetration is often painful or unconfortable. Oh and a very cute fact but sometimes, surgeon leave behind erectile tissue, which do get engorged when arroused. It's at the very least unconfortable, and at worst painful. Ah and of course life long issues, and urinary problems.
I hate how these surgeries are advertised to mentally ill people and sexual deviants, it's a joke of the female genital, it's such a great risk with so many complications.
I'm so glad to see so many people being uncomfortable with the "egg" thing. To me it always reaked of social contagion, kinda like when one person decides they're autistic out of the blue and starts to diagnose their entire friend group with autistic traits. It feels yucky and disrespectful to the entire thing.
I think it's because of the way the gender movement appeals to women differently than to men. From what I saw most of the times women don't really wannt to be men, they just don't want to be women. You then have a lot more women who can be considered trans if "not identifying as your biological sex" is considered trans, you don't even have to go very far in transition.
"What does this make me?" a woman.
Not detrans, not non-binary, not whatever else, just woman. We're getting so tangled up in labels and boxes and definition when it's so, so simple.
You don't have breasts? You're still a woman. You have masculine features? Still a woman! It's not an insult, and it's not bad to be a woman. You don't need to fit in a box or stick to stereotypes to label yourself as what you are. It's so freeing when you start to realize that being a woman isn't an act or a performance, it's just being your authentic true self, even if it's sometimes androgenous, or masculine, you're still a woman.
At the end of the day you call yourself what you want, but to me going above all those stupid categories and made up terms helped me so much to make peace with myself and what I went through.
Kinda disagree on that one, at least romantically speaking. Sexuality and attraction isn't really something you can control.
It's like when a middle aged married man turns trans, you can't blame his wife for struggling with it, not being attracted to the concept or even to him. She can be supportive and be there, but it doesn't negate her feelings, her confusion and her lack of attraction.
If the partner is gay, is attracted to masculinity, likes to go out with what appears to be a man, you can't fault him for that. He might have been ok with being with a female to male and what it might entail in their relationship, but being with a female that is presenting female is very different.
absolutely. I'm starting a biology degree next year and i'm far from savy in this departement but it always angered me how smug they'd be saying to very rational people who'd challenge their bullshit : "it's basic biology, go back to 8th grade". UH??? I'm sorry but either we didn't have the same curiculum in middle school, or you're just talking out of your ass, because at no point in middle school did the teacher tell us a human being could change sex like a fucking frog
Yes I have. I think it comes down to the reason as to why we transitioned in the first place, for FTM it's often due to struggling during puberty, societal pressures surrounding feminity, beauty standards, feeling unsafe because of womanhood, sexual trauma and sometimes not feeling special enough.
Detransioning in this fashion is to learn to overcome all of our biases towards what being a woman is, diconstructing our internalized misogyny and gender normes.
For MTF there seems to be more often than in FTM the fetish aspect, especially for AGPs, and internalized homophobia for homosexual males. I'm not as well versed on the reasons that push MTFs to detransition, but there's also the big fact that in most cases passing is nearly impossible, and being transexual in an adult active life is an obstacle.
i truly believe that as much as some doctors are shady as fuck and really don't give a fuck as long as they keep making banks (especially the plastic surgeons), the majority of doctors don't have much of a choice but to "validate". validate, validate, validate. We see it regularly, therapists can no longer challenge a patient's delusion regarding gender without risking backlash when it should be the center of the therapy. We don't encourage people with body integrity disorder to chop their limbs the minute they express the desire to do so. And it's scary because the less pushback there is with medical professionnal, the more people like you, like me, and many more will be allowed to make irreversible damages to our bodies, and once we wake up it's too late the damage has been done.
Doctors are not all knowing deities, they just go with the flow to keep their job. If the medical consensus is that furthering a mentally ill child's delusion, sterelizing and putting it on cross sex hormone when they haven't even finished puberty is the right thing to do, they'll do it. Nowdays even saying that is considered horrible and transphobic, hopefully in a few years things will have changed, and less people will have to suffer the same path.
If anybody answers to "what is a woman" with anything other than "adult female" i don't even want to hear it. It's not to diss anybody, it's just facts. Trans women are not women, they're trans women. Trans men are not men, they're trans men. The moment we blurred that line it went downhill.
Also yeah, that's to be accepted, sorry you're facing it. Either blindly agree and affirm or "shut up biggot".
It's never too late. You're never too far. Don't let the sunk cost fallacies drag you to the bottom. You're young, you have life ahead of you, you can enjoy existing and figuring out who and what you are without going against your biology. As much as I'm against medical transition, you can exist outside of the traditional female standard. It doesn't make you any less of a woman because you are one.