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The user's narrative is complex, emotionally nuanced, and internally consistent over time. They describe a personal journey of questioning, attempting transition, detransitioning for both medical and existential reasons, and the subsequent social fallout. The passion and anger expressed are consistent with the genuine trauma and disillusionment many detransitioners report. The language is natural and includes personal, specific details that are difficult to fabricate consistently.
About me
I started hormones because I felt a deep incongruence with being male, but they caused severe anxiety and seizures that cost me my health and job. The online communities I thought were my support system turned on me the moment I questioned my path, calling me a traitor. I realized a huge part of my dysphoria was a longing to be a mother, a dream that medical transition could never fulfill. I detransitioned not because I'm comfortable being male, but because living with that dysphoria is a lesser hell than the damage from transition and its toxic politics. Now, I'm focusing on my fitness and spirituality to build a peaceful life away from that world.
My detransition story
My whole journey with gender has been confusing, and honestly, I’m still figuring it out. It started with a genuine feeling that something was off. I even had some medical stuff that seemed to back it up; a brain scan showed unusual grey matter patterns, and when I hit puberty, my hormones were out of whack with high progesterone. I didn't know what "trans" was back then, but I knew I felt different.
I ended up identifying as non-binary and then started taking hormones. But the hormones ended up being really bad for me. They increased my anxiety to a terrifying level. After about a year on them, I started having seizures. I lost my driver's license because of that, and then I lost my job, and the next three jobs after that. My health was falling apart.
During this time, I was really involved in online trans communities. I thought they were a support system, but I slowly realized that a lot of that support was conditional. The moment I started questioning my path or mentioned that I had stopped hormones, people turned on me. I was called a "traitor to the cause." One person at a pride event even told me to go join the "Jesus freaks" and get out. It was a real wake-up call. I realized I wasn't a person to them; I was just a soldier for their political movement. I just wanted to feel comfortable in my own skin, not be part of a fight.
I had a long, hard talk with myself. I asked if continuing to transition was worth it. For me, it felt like I was just trading one charade for another. A huge part of my dysphoria was this deep, persistent desire to be a mother. I had recurring dreams about being pregnant, about that entire experience. I realized that no medical transition could ever give me that. The technology just doesn't exist. I had to let that dream go, and with it, a big reason for pursuing transition in the first place.
So I detransitioned. I stopped the hormones. It wasn't because I suddenly felt comfortable being male. In a perfect world, if I could press a button and be biologically female, I would do it in a heartbeat. I don't want to be trans. But I’d rather live silently with the dysphoria that still pops up sometimes than be part of that hyper-politicized culture. It’s the lesser of two hells for me.
My thoughts on gender now are messy. I know it wasn't a fetish for me; the idea that it was is disgusting and reductive. It was a real feeling of incongruence. But I've had to find other ways to cope. I've thrown myself into exercise and I'm training for my first triathlon. I've reconnected with spirituality, studying Taoism and philosophy, and I've started going to church again. Most importantly, I've stayed away from political arguments and surrounded myself with people who aren't obsessed with identity politics.
I don't regret exploring transition because I needed to know the answer for myself. But I do regret the damage the hormones did to my health and the time I lost believing in communities that ultimately didn't support me as an individual. I'm just trying to live my life now, mistakes and all, and find purpose elsewhere.
Here is a timeline of the main events:
| My Age | Event |
|---|---|
| Early Puberty | Brain scan shows unusual grey matter patterns; hormone levels are atypical with high progesterone. |
| Young Adult (exact age unknown) | Identify as non-binary and later start taking hormones. |
| About 1 year after starting hormones | Severe anxiety and seizures begin. Lose driver's license and job. |
| Young Adult (exact age unknown) | Decide to stop hormones and detransition after realizing the physical goals (like pregnancy) are unattainable and the community is toxic. |
| Present Day | Living with occasional dysphoria but focusing on fitness, spirituality, and building a life outside of trans politics. |
Top Comments by /u/SennaLuna:
I would like to add that I myself have been questioning detransition for a while. These thoughts were kept at bay by the "support" I had found in many online communities.
It was the mods today at r/trans that have made me realize that support (in most of its forms, albeit not all) was an absolute lie.
I guess now I get to combine the fact that I'm unsure about my path in life with the fact that I want absolutely nothing to do with a community that's that vindictive, absolutist, and cruel.
Simple. It was literally killing me. Hormones increased my anxiety to the point I started having seizures after a year on them, lost my driver's license, lost my job and the next 3 after that...
Had a really long talk with myself in the mirror so to speak and asked myself if this was worth it. Trading one charade for another? And the answer was no. I wanted to be a mother, to have that miracle of life growing inside me, with everything that comes with it, and frankly, there is NOTHING in the trans process that can grant that. I have to let it go.
The gender dysphoria still hits sometimes, but exercising, training for my first triathlon, and surrounding myself with people NOT obsessed with the alphabet mafia (for good or bad) have done utter wonders.
Also, I started going to church again, studying spirituality and philosophy in my spare time, (I consider myself a Taoist) and just staying away from politics.
Also, having my circle of "friends" turn on me the second I mentioned detransition? I realized staying in trans spaces was a net negative.
100% of trans activists I've had the displeasure of dealing with have turned on me the second It is mentioned or somehow brought up that I'm non-binary because I stopped hormones and I'm still figuring out if transition is right for me
One special darwin award recipient at Miami Beach pride went as far as to say I'm a "traitor to the cause" and I should "join the Jesus freaks across the street and gtfo our pride"
Like what cause bruh? I'm just trying to get comfy in my own skin suit I'm not a soldier.
I don't think it's fetishizing it. My recurrent dreams of being a pregnant new mom-to-be was one of the driving factors of my gender dysphoria diagnosis.
One of the reasons I detransitioned was because I know the technology just doesn't exist.
Why waste my life chasing something unattainable when I can at least find purpose elsewhere
Listen, I was invited to join MENSA, and I'm one of the dumbest people I know.
Just yesterday I wasn't paying attention and I added a spoonful of salt to my coffee. Ruined a perfectly good blonde roast.
We're human we make mistakes. If we were infallible, perfect, this sub wouldn't exist.
Go easy on yourself love!
I'll be honest I don't even know what side of the aisle I'm on.
I know this line is a meme at this point but like I just want an America where married interracial gay couples can defend their ecologically sustainable cannabis gardens with firearms that were paid for with reasonably taxed, livable wages, and teach their children, adopted or otherwise, why it's so important to defend all of the rights required to do so.
Right wing? Left wing? Bruh, I just want to be a Free American.
Conservative family thinks I'm way too liberal, and as we saw with that particular mod, apperantly I'm falling down "a right wing hole"
Like bruh ☠️
College was the least significant part of my adult life. I think you're gonna do fine. Those who matter won't care about your voice they'll care about you for you.
Those who give you shit, you shouldn't give a shit about. You're doing nothing wrong. You're just living your life as you the best you can, slipups, mistakes, and fixes included.. Anyone who looks down on you for that, should eff off
The inverse is true, actually. People who want to transition can't change their markers, and in the eyes of the feds, now all legal ID papers have to reflect your biological sex.
Essentially, you won't have any issue. If you day you were born female, they'll change it to female by law as a "correction" in the federal government's eyes.
That's a horrible generalization.
First, you must accept that you have autogynephilia (AGP)
What in the blue heck gives you that impression?
My own transition and ongoing gender was and is a mess, but at no point in my entire life was the thought of being a woman sexually arousing. On the contrary, I wish I was just content as Cis, but I'm not. To just make the assumption that it is a fetish, is disgustingly reductive.
I was one of those lucky few that had a medical basis for gender non-congruency before I even knew what trans was (brain scan showed "odd" grey matter patterns, hormones at puberty started spiking progesterone) instead I get to be called a "trans medicallist" bigot.
If I could press a button and be biologically female I would in a heartbeat. I do NOT want to be trans.
At this point I'd rather silently be trapped in a male body doing my best rather than be a part of the hyper politicized culture that is the trans community today.
That's the lesser hell at this point.