Sharing experience from my coworker who spent years in prison.

He pointed out that there is abuse of prisoners by other prisoner for being weak, effeminate or gay. But thoes that embraced their femininity could actually gained respect and protection. They become mother like figures taking care of "adult" men that never learned to take care of them selves in many ways. Also those that basically sold thier bodies rather than being forced.

Perhaps this information may be helpful to you.

I hope you safety and healing. Finding your way past criminal actions and the reasons that pushed you to them.

Its the assumption that other people think about gender as much as they do.

I was a having a discussion with my friend that detransitioned after joining the LDS christian church. Her family assumed she got indoctrinated by a cult. But according to her she dose not sit there thinking about how to be female or what it means etc etc. Like she did with male.

She just doesn't think about gender much anymore.

Only a couple years later I learnt that people actually FEEL their gender, as in identify as something

This is not true. It seems you are chasing something imaginary that you will never be able to reach.

Stop doing that.

As far as identity first thing first is to separate the things that can't be changed and the things that you control. You are female, much of what that means is up to you, and many of the hard biological facts are unique to you.

For your appearance, consider do you like how it looks, do you care what other people thing about your looks, its it functional, is it comfortable? How much do you value each of those?

So you're psychiatry student. But the way you said that, it sounded like you working in the medical field for years and haven't seen anything.

For an example, look at 2 of the heads of WPATH (World Professional Association for Transgender Health) Marci Bowers a doctor who preforms trans surgeries and Erica Anderson, clinical psychologist. They talk about the physical and mental downsides of puberty blockers.

They are both obviously still pro-transition, So them admitting the downsides of puberty doctors is significant. They had high hopes for it making the lives of trans people better.

https://www.thefp.com/p/top-trans-doctors-blow-the-whistle

The some of the effects you are feeling are not going to be long lasting. the will diminish as you body adjust to them. exogenous estrogen creates a dependency over time that if you stop will lead to osteoporosis. even staying on them there are negative effect of a male on estrogen long term. primarily cardiovascular risk.

it might be the case that you have a hormone imbalance in the first place and seeing an endocrinologist to look at that with you and getting to a healthy balance for your body will be far better in the long term.

Something worth pointing out is that most the time medicine attempts to move people towards an expected balanced state. Not change it to a new one.

For example bring a person with low or high hormones back to expected. ( if the low or high amount is causing problems)

Basically under the idea that the body is complex and capable of mainating itself in many ways. But when you try to change to a new we don't know all the potential consequences.

Disclaimer to what I say after, I genuinely am disgusted by false love bombing and praise that happens from the trans cult when people show transition photos. So I'm am very cautious about telling someone they look good when detransition cause I don't want to fall into the trap of doing that.

With that said. You do look good, and me saying that should not matter but I know that it does.

Please work to love yourself reguardless of what others say, and also to feel joy from people giving you compliments. Embrace the contradicts XD

With regards to rule 4 it gets used as ammunition to say this sub is just "anti-trans"

People are free to present their experiences but they are discouraged from straight up telling someone to go on cross-sex hormones or surgery.

This here is really the point. We want the sub to be a place where people can share their experience particularly people that are detrans.but not a place for telling other what to or not to do with regards to a final dscision as we really just don't know a stranger on the internet well enough.

Perhaps making the rule work both ways. Share experience but don't be pushy as people are in a vulnerable place. Non-detrans People that push the idea that transition is ALWAYS wrong are a problem also.

It could also be reworded to be a bit more targeted. "Never promote cross-sex hormones or surgery" ---> "never promote cross-sex hormones or surgery as the only option"

or "Never try to push another to do cross-sex hormones or surgery"

Just some thoughts for your consideration. Thank you for asking and doing the work you do.

If they're going to either believe anyone can be whatever they want, or that detransitions happen so this whole woke ideology that tells girls they can look like boys and other way around is leading to degeneracy in the Fallen West,

It's not an either or. That's a false dichotomy thag makes it clear you didn't watch the video, because that's not what hwr message is.

Her primary focus of the video

•Recognition and awareness of detransitioners.

•The need for people that detransition to be able to access medical care.

•For that medical care to be better informed

•For a federal ban on minors transitioning.

•Good mental health is most important at home and community, (call to action) individuals can support those direct around you, being supportive loving empathetic.

At no point does she call it degeneracy or the fall of the west.

Don't fight against people that agree with you.

I usually go with the word “nonbinary” because it’s everything that isn’t a stereotypical man or woman and it is easy to navigate.

I still don't understand why. Does it make your life easier or harder?

From my observations identifying as non binary just adds a layer of social fiction.