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Reddit user /u/Spicy_matcha's Detransition Story

female
took hormones
benefited from non-affirming therapy
intersex
bisexual
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Based on the comments provided, the account appears authentic. There are no serious red flags indicating it is a bot or a bad-faith actor.

The user demonstrates:

  • Personal experience: They share specific, detailed anecdotes about their own history with testosterone, autoimmune disorders, and their intersex condition.
  • Consistent worldview: Their perspective on gender as a social construct, the harms of medicalization, and the importance of gender non-conformity is logically consistent across many comments.
  • Engaged conversation: They respond directly to other users' points, offer tailored advice, and adjust their language based on the context of the discussion.
  • Human nuance: The comments show a range of emotions (frustration, concern, empathy) and a depth of knowledge on related topics (anthropology, ethnobotany) that would be difficult to fake consistently.

Their passion and strong opinions are aligned with the stated experiences of many detransitioners and desisters.

About me

I was raised in a culture that accepted my androgynous nature, but moving to the West made me feel pressured to medically transition to fit in. I tried a low dose of testosterone for my health, but I stopped because I realized I couldn't change my sex and didn't want to be a lifelong patient. I now see my dysphoria as a mental illness to be managed, not affirmed, and I accept myself as a female person with an intersex condition. I express myself freely without medical intervention and believe the push to transition reinforces harmful stereotypes. I am now firmly against medicalizing children and am living a much healthier life.

My detransition story

My journey with gender has been long and complicated, and it’s rooted in my unique biology and upbringing. I was born with an intersex condition, and I grew up in a culture that had a place for androgynous people like me. I wasn't raised with a strict male or female binary; I was just a person. When I entered mainstream Western society as an adult, it was a huge shock. Suddenly, everyone was trying to fit me into a box I didn't belong in, and that’s when I started to feel real discomfort.

People, including doctors, kept telling me I should transition. Because I look androgynous and didn't fit neatly into their categories, they saw medical transition as the answer. I got caught up in that whirlwind for a while. I have aggressive autoimmune disorders, and testosterone was presented to me as a treatment for both my health and my dysphoria. I was on a low, microdose of testosterone for a time. It was a bizarre experience. I didn't go very far with it because I realized I hated the idea of being a lifelong medical patient. I understood that while T helped my physical health in some ways, it wasn't going to make me a new person. I stopped because I knew I couldn't change my sex, and I didn't want to be dependent on hormones forever.

A big part of my realization was understanding that gender dysphoria is a mental illness, and I don't treat my other mental illnesses by feeding into them. I'm bipolar, and I wouldn't treat my mania by encouraging it. I’ve come to see that transitioning wouldn't have cured my dysphoria; it would have just made it worse, leading me to constantly pick apart my features. Instead, I've learned to manage it. I accept that I will always have dysphoria, but I can express myself however I like. I dress androgynously, and I live my life accepting that I am a female person with an intersex condition. Expression doesn't equal sex.

Looking back, I see how many factors pushed me and others toward transition. I think a lot of young people, especially girls, experience a deep discomfort with puberty because of the sudden sexualization they face. Instead of society addressing that, it's easier to say, "Maybe you're not a girl." This is a form of internalized misogyny that isn't talked about enough. Trans ideology, in a weird way, reinforces the very gender roles we spent decades trying to dismantle. It says that if you're a girl who likes boy things, you must actually be a boy. It’s a new form of conversion therapy for gay kids. I’ve also seen how fetishization plays a huge role, like autogynephilia in men or autoandrophilia in women, where people transition because of a sexual fetish rather than a true identity.

I have serious concerns about the medical side. Hormones like testosterone and estrogen are powerful. They increase your risk of cancer and other health complications. They can sterilize you and force you into early menopause, which completely changes your personality. I watched family members die from cancer, and I don't think young people understand the long-term consequences of these treatments. Their brains aren't even fully developed to make such permanent decisions.

I don't regret exploring transition because it led me to where I am now, but I am firmly against the ideology and the push for medicalizing children. I benefited from non-affirming therapy, where my therapist helped me work through my issues without just affirming a trans identity. That was crucial for me. I think if we had more spaces for gender non-conformity and better mental health support, far fewer people would feel the need to transition.

My thoughts on gender are clear: gender is a social construct, not something innate. Sex is biological and immutable. You can't change your sex, but you should be free to express yourself in any way that feels right without needing to medically alter your body. I'm bisexual, and I've seen a lot of biphobia and infighting within the LGBT community, which is why I mostly avoid it now. I believe in fighting for basic rights for everyone, but the current movement has lost its way.

Here is a timeline of my journey based on the ages I can piece together from my experiences:

Age Event
Childhood Raised in a non-Western culture with androgynous gender roles. Felt comfortable and without dysphoria.
Early 20s Moved to mainstream Western culture. Felt pressure to fit into a gender binary and began experiencing dysphoria.
Mid-Late 20s Doctors recommended transition due to intersex condition. Began microdosing testosterone for dysphoria and autoimmune disorders.
Late 20s Realized the medical path was making me a permanent patient and would not change my sex. Stopped testosterone.
Present (30s) Living as a detransitioned, gender non-conforming female. Managing dysphoria through self-acceptance and expression, not medical intervention.

Top Reddit Comments by /u/Spicy_matcha:

94 comments • Posting since December 2, 2022
Reddit user Spicy_matcha (desisted) comments on Noah's desire to remain prepubescent, suggesting it may stem from early sexualization of young women or a fetish, and expresses concern over societal pressures pushing GNC women towards transition.
85 pointsJan 30, 2023
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Isaac uncooked has an excellent breakdown/ response video to this.

Noah is trying to to hold onto the “safest” means of remaining prepubescent or adolescent in their development. I’m not sure if it’s a direct result of the early sexualization young women face so early on or part fetish.

I feel like society still pushes an anti female or sexualized female mindset in many areas and this why for many GNC women, they feel this is the safest choice. It’s sad, there’s so little research on this type of situation Noah is in. I hope that the medical pitfalls aren’t too harsh for them later in life.

Reddit user Spicy_matcha (desisted) explains how a partner's identity can be tied to a fetish, suggesting the boyfriend may miss feeling 'special' as a gay man or have misogyny issues.
73 pointsFeb 1, 2023
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Unfortunately, when it comes to the trans sphere the fetish works both ways. Many times partners virtue signal by piggy backing on the supposed sexuality and identity of their partners.

He prefers the female body, but has a problem with dating women. Whether this is rooted in the fact that he no longer feels “special” (identifying as gay without being gay) or a deeply rooted misogyny are both possible.

Unfortunately, you no longer fit his kink or fetish. I would take a long look at your relationship and determine whether or not being with this person is actually good for your journey.

Reddit user Spicy_matcha (desisted) comments on the harm caused by AGP, sexual violence, and the social recategorization of the female experience, expressing understanding for TERFs.
72 pointsJan 1, 2023
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I think that as a male, it’s difficult for you to see how AGPs, sexual violence and a continuous social need to recategorize the female experience as anything other than female continues to harm women.

I have nothing against terfs, I can understand the struggle.

Reddit user Spicy_matcha (desisted) comments on the historical parallels between opposing male genital mutilation and the promotion of sex reassignment surgery for feminine boys, offering support to suffering young men.
70 pointsFeb 3, 2023
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Exulensic had a series on exposing these complications.

In a sad way, it’s fascinating how we’ve come full circle from convincing cultures to give up male genital mutilation (like in the form of eunuchs for a variety of reasons) to considering it “safe” for feminine boys. We spent so long trying to prevent this happening to young boys and know you can find much of general society promoting it.

My heart goes out to young men suffering. Your body is beautiful the way it is. You’re allowed to be feminine and express yourself as you like.

Reddit user Spicy_matcha (desisted) comments on the core misogyny behind some young women transitioning, explaining it stems from being taught they cannot be gender non-conforming and are made for marriage and men.
69 pointsFeb 16, 2023
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Oh it 100% is, but there’s merit to a lot of it.

Many women or young girls are taught they cannot be gender non conforming. They’re taught they’re made for marriage and kids. They’re taught they’re made for men. That only boys can be with girls.

There’s a LOT that goes into young women transitioning, of course, however a piece of its core deals with thinking whatever makes them up is not female (for whatever reason).

It’s not conscious, but it’s there. There’s a constant in belittling the female experience in all forms.

I don’t think it’s everyone’s experience but I’ve seen this trend among younger women (especially those who grew up in western gender ideals). So, I saw the meme and thought it a good share.

Reddit user Spicy_matcha (desisted) comments on how the trans community's focus on transition as the only treatment for dysphoria reinforces biological determinism and gender roles.
57 pointsJan 17, 2023
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I wonder if they realize that they’re actually trying to confirm the notion of biological determinism and innate gender roles that people spent decades dismantling.

They think transition is the only treatment of dysphoria and it really isn’t, but apparently cancer is a better option.

Reddit user Spicy_matcha (desisted) comments on Utah's new law, arguing that minors cannot give informed consent for medical transition but supporting social transition and therapy while calling for increased youth mental health funding.
55 pointsJan 31, 2023
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Saying children have “informed consent” as a minor will bring up even more issues in the legal system.

However, I am happy for this. Social transition, therapy and allowing themselves to grow is best for very young people. I don’t this was truly for reasons of child safety though (like I would hope)

The only way this will make a real difference is if we see funding for mental health in our young people.

Reddit user Spicy_matcha (desisted) comments on a study about detransitioners, arguing that voluntary participation and fear of judgment from doctors skew the data, highlighting the unreliability of trans healthcare research.
51 pointsJan 15, 2023
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Word usage is key here. This is also voluntary. We also have to consider most detransitioners don’t see their doctors after because they’re often judged.

ETA: if that’s the most extensive and longest study then that just show how unreliable trans care is.

Reddit user Spicy_matcha (desisted) explains that the desire to be male may stem from feeling trapped by societal gender roles, not from being born in the wrong body.
42 pointsJan 8, 2023
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But you were never male.

Those moments you felt strong- you were still you. You had this body, you had those feelings.

Do you feel trapped in gender roles due to society or/and religion? That could possibly be why you’re feeling this way. You don’t have to be a certain way as a female, yes females have more difficulty in some things but it’s unfortunately life.

No one is saying you can’t be masculine and present in masculine things. Don’t let the rules and rigid of cultures dominate you if you fit elsewhere.

Reddit user Spicy_matcha (desisted) explains how puberty sexualizes young females, links sexual assault to bodily dysphoria, and advises waiting on testosterone due to health and personality changes.
39 pointsJan 2, 2023
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Your mother is right in some things-

-bodily dysphoria is fairly common for pubescent young females. This is because (generally) as a children we’re not sexualized and during puberty- the heavy discomfort toward sexuality that is IMMEDIATELY thrust upon females is fairly overlooked.

You have to immediately be comfortable with being sexualized and now there’s going to be people attempting to take advantage of that.

Sexual assault can absolutely add to this bodily discomfort and cause you to want to seek safety away from the body that you feel discomfort in.

For me, I still have gender and body dysmorphia but I grew up in a unique situation and can work through it in other ways.

I do think you should wait on testosterone and perhaps give yourself time to adjust to adulthood.

There’s a LOT of health repercussions to testosterone (I was on a low dose) and I don’t think many young peoples realize that they’ll also have major personality changes by going through menopause due to these decisions if they continue