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About me
I started my transition when I was 19, feeling young and confused. The clinic in Amsterdam assured me surgery was the right path, but it felt like a factory with false promises about the results. I now see that I was born male and that these procedures created permanent, irreversible damage instead of solving anything. I deeply regret medicalizing my body and believe I was trying to escape underlying mental health issues. While I live as a woman because of my appearance, I know the truth and want to help others avoid the same painful mistake.
My detransition story
My journey started when I was very young and confused. I began my social transition at the end of 2015, when I was 19 years old. I started hormone therapy in 2016 and had what they call sex reassignment surgery (SRS) in 2017. I’m now 25, and almost three years post-op, I have a very different view on what I did.
I was told by the gender clinic in Amsterdam that this was the right path. They told me SRS would give me a vagina that was nearly the same as one I was born with, that dilation wouldn’t be a lifelong need, and that I could replace it with intercourse after a year. They never talked about regret. They presented it as a simple neuroendocrine problem and said most people were highly satisfied. The whole process felt like a factory, moving people through as quickly as possible with no real follow-up care. It wasn't the supportive, careful environment I thought it would be.
Now, I see things completely differently. I don't believe people can change their sex. I believe I was born male and will always be male, no matter what surgeries I have or hormones I take. The surgery didn't give me a real vagina; it gave me an imitation. I have to dilate, the sensation is not what I was promised, and it’s visually clear it’s a surgically rearranged penis. My bladder doesn’t feel the same either; I often feel like I have to pee right after I just went.
I see my transition as a response to a mental illness, not a biological defect. I think the concept of gender dysphoria is real, but transition is just a temporary band-aid. It doesn't fix the root cause of the problem. You can’t undo reality. I see now that I was trying to identify out of my sex, which is impossible. I live as a woman socially because I look like one, but I know the truth. Men can be pretty and women can be handsome, but that doesn’t change what they are.
I have serious regrets about the permanent changes to my body. I started this when I was far too young, and I’ve irreversibly damaged myself. The self-hate I felt after realizing this was overwhelming. I felt like I had ruined my body in a way worse than smoking for 50 years. But I’ve had to learn to move forward. I focus on the love I can still give to the world and the good I can do. I want to help others avoid making the same mistakes I did.
I don't think transition is brave or beautiful. It’s a last resort for when there are no other options. The feeling of being different never goes away; it stays with you for life. If you have any other option, you should take it. I see a lot of internalized homophobia and other mental health issues in the community, and I think those need to be addressed first.
My advice to anyone considering this is to think very, very carefully. It’s not a magic solution. It’s a serious, permanent medicalization of your body that doesn’t change who you fundamentally are.
Here is a timeline of my journey:
| Age | Year | Event |
|---|---|---|
| 19 | Late 2015 | Began living socially as a woman |
| 20 | 2016 | Started hormone replacement therapy (Estrogen) |
| 21 | 2017 | Underwent sex reassignment surgery (SRS/vaginoplasty) |
| 24 | 2020 | Re-identified mentally as male, while continuing to live socially as a woman due to irreversible physical changes |
Top Comments by /u/Stuckinmiddleground:
I'm glad that records like this are documented for the future. I hope one day future generations read this and realize how horrifying the 2010s were where people barely legal to buy an alcoholic beverage were able to irreversibly change their lives and bodies under guidance of a misguided medical system.
I'm glad you realized what a mistake this was so young in your hopefully very long life. I'm glad you didn't dwell on this for decades to come. Now you are able to finally focus on the things that really matter in life.
It's posts like yours that make me aware of what a scary, unsound world we landed in. Kids your age shouldn't have to worry about the future of their bodies, their sex organs and the rest of their lives. Kids your age should get chances to study, to come home and have warm meals prepared for them, to invite friends, to worry about what they will be wearing to prom, who they are going to ask for prom night etc.
I'm so sorry this horrible world made this possible.
I have been there too when I was your age. Sadly for me it didn't end as good as for you. It warms my heart that you got out of this mess in time.
Enjoy life and leave this horrible shit behind you. Focus on what truly matters ❤️
It may surprise you but not everyone is the same, even on this sub. There is a heterogenous population of visitors here. Some will be fine with and supportive of trans people, others not so much. The consensus seems to be that transgenderism and transsexuality is always a mental illness rather than an inborn biological physical defect.
I'm MtF, post-op and have no plans to detransition. I do see transsexuality and transgenderism as a mental illness though. Changing sexes is not possible unless one is a fish. Human beings can not change sexes. We can at best pursue cosmetic steps to resemble the opposite sex but even if you resemble the opposite sex, it doesn't make you the opposite sex. A natal male is still a male after HRT and sex reassignment surgery.
I think the truth is somewhere in between.
You will never have a real vagina by means of SRS but sometimes people here also exaggerate by portraying it like a hole full of pus and necrosis.
Most SRS results eventually heal and you have an artificial cavity that is not a vagina but that can accommodate a penis in most cases. The sensations are not the same as a vagina has because it is obviously not a vagina but if everything healed correctly you are able to have an orgasm.
I'm able to orgasm but it doesn't feel like those mythical girlgasms all over your body like fetishists try to claim. It just feels like a less intensive version of the orgasm you used to have when you still had a penis.
Most of the orgasm that comes with sex after SRS is mentally. Some MtFs are telling lies about mythical full body magic girlgasms. Don't believe that. It's just the same orgasm as you had with your penis, just less intensive.
Both sides are not neutral in their description of SRS results. The GC side describes it as a hole full of maggots and pus and the TRA love to describe it as uwu full body glittery girlgasms. Neither is true. It's just an artificial hole that does provide some sensation. It's not a vagina and doesn't function like one.
You are perfect the way you are. You are perfect as the woman you are. You should be proud of yourself. You escaped a horrible faith. I had a ''sex-change surgery'' 3 years ago and I wouldn't wish being stuck in this shit forever on anyone.
Don't ever think less of yourself for being a lesbian or for being butch. You are a beautiful woman. This too shall pass. Life can be rocky sometimes but you are so young. One day you will have a beautiful girlfriend and you will hopefully look back on a world that you helped to make a better place. So that generations after us don't have to go through the nightmares that are being made possible by a backwards medical community in the 2010s - 2020s. One advice I want to give you: stay far away from trans adults who want to give you medical advice about a transition. These people are in a bad place mentally and misery loves company.
I started realizing what the trans community consists of when I was still deep down the '' born in the wrong body '' philosophy. I have never seen so many mentally ill people in one community being celebrated for being mentally ill. So no, my opinion didn't change. I continue to this day to live as a trans woman. I have had irreversible surgery. I will continue to advocate against transition whenever another option is open to you. Transition should really be a last resort. There is nothing brave or beautiful about this path. The sense of being different doesn't go away with surgeries either. It stays with you for life. You never forget about this, no matter how well you think you pass or no matter how other people cheer or applaud. It stays with you like an echo that never ends.
Hello, I think you misread my story. I didn't stop hormones. I said I would be on a unnatural hormone supply for life whichever way I go. I'm still taking estrogen. I re-identified as male on my own terms when I saw how the concept of gender dysphoria is so different than how researchers want to present it and how trans activists want to present it and of course based on my experience by having seen literally tons of trans people who were not helped by transitioning because their mental health was still an earth shattering after it all. I think dysphoria exists. I think transition can work as a temporary band-aid. I don't believe that it can forever eliminate the real cause though. You can dance around reality but you can not undo reality.
If you have any other option than transition, take that other option. Transition is not fun or brave or sparkly or glittery no matter what the alphabet soup tells you. I had a gender reassignment surgery three years ago and I did it because I had no other option. I saw no other way to continue living. I still don't believe sex change is a possibility though. I had a mental illness and a surgery was the only possible medicine available to me to treat that mental illness. Men don't become women. Women don't become men. You can only medicalize your body to mimick something you are actually not. You can't truly change sexes.
So depends about what you want out of a transition. Remember that no matter how well you may pass as the opposite sex, you can't truly become the opposite sex. You will never be more than a heavily medicalized version of your birth sex. If you are okay with that and if all the negatives still sound worth it to you, only then transition may be worth looking into it. It should never ever be a first resort. It should be a last resort and only if you realise clearly what a sub-par option this is. Don't let the alphabet soup tell you fairytales. I have been there. I'm trans. I'm telling. You the blunt truth as it is.
Even in the best possible case, it's only a semblance of a vagina, not the real deal. It will not be connected to other organs like with an actual vagina. I had SRS almost 3 years ago with VUMC Amsterdam doctor Marlon Buncamper, one of the best SRS surgeons in the world. What I have is not a vagina. It's something that imitates a vagina. I still have to dilate contrary to what I had been told, sensation in the cavity itself is not magic and earth shattering like some dreamers on Reddit will tell you and even visually, you don't have to be a genius to figure out that what I have is not a vulva/vagina but a surgically rearranged penis. I have sensation and I'm pain free but my bladder is not the same as before. I regularly feel like I'm holding up pee even after just having peed. It's not as miraculous as trans activists tell you. It's just that people who are deep enough in the delusion love to hold on to the delusion as a form of self protection. Two post-SRS individuals in the comments here are doing exactly that.
I did not detransition. I re-identified. I'm a post-operative male to female transsexual person who has no plans to detransition but who is gender critical. I believe changing sexes is impossible for a human being.
Depends what you mean with detransition in other words. Mentally I detransitioned. Physically the harm has been done and can't be undone so it's more practical for me to leave social stuff as it is.
I stopped giving a rat's ass because passing no longer matters to me. Men can be pretty and women can be handsome. Men can even have breast tissue. That doesn't make males females or females males though. You can't identify out of your sex. You can botch your body strongly enough to delude people into thinking you are the other sex but underneath it all reality still applies. Truly changing sexes is not possible. Politically bullying people into believing you changed sexes is possible though. Only now that I'm making the aftermath, I realize how foolish this whole thing was/is. Unless you are a clown fish and your name is Nemo, changing sexes is nothing but stuff that happens in fairytales.