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About me
I started hating my developing female body as a teenager and saw transitioning as an escape from my discomfort. My psychologist rushed me towards hormones without exploring my past trauma, which left me feeling unheard and pushed into a decision. I took hormones hoping they would fix everything, but they didn't solve my deeper issues and I now see it was a form of escapism. I'm now full of regret and feel isolated, unable to discuss my doubts with my previous community. I'm seeking a new therapist to help me understand who I really am without any agenda.
My detransition story
My journey started with a deep discomfort during puberty, especially with developing breasts. I really hated them and couldn't stand the way they made me feel. I found a community online and with friends who were also questioning their gender, and that’s where I first learned about transitioning. It felt like an answer. At the time, it seemed like a way to escape the parts of my body I disliked and maybe even escape the fear of getting older.
When I went to a psychologist, I was hoping to really dig into my feelings. I have a history of trauma, and I thought therapy would explore if that was connected to my body issues. But I was shocked when the psychologist told me she wasn't allowed to recommend any therapy other than transitioning because I was showing signs of dysphoria. It felt terrifying. It was like my trauma and other deeper issues were being brushed aside. There was no real investigation into what was going on beneath the surface. I felt pushed down a path without being given a chance to fully understand myself first.
I started taking hormones, Estradot 100 mcg and Androcur 10mg. I thought it would solve everything, but it didn't. I even hoped that taking testosterone would speed things up and finally get rid of the chest I hated so much. I now see that being trans was a form of escapism for me. I thought it was an escape from aging, but I learned that even on hormones, things like male pattern baldness can still happen. It wasn't the perfect solution I had imagined.
Now, I'm questioning everything. I feel like the community I found, while supportive in some ways, doesn't allow for critical discussion. I'm scared to talk to my friends about my doubts because I'm afraid of being judged. I wonder if I'll ever feel like the person I was before all of this started. I regret that the process felt so rushed and that my trauma wasn't taken seriously. I'm left wondering if it's too late to find out who I really am. I'm currently looking for a new therapist, someone who can help me explore all of this without a pre-set agenda.
Looking back, I think accepting your body is the only real option if being trans isn't working out. For me, transitioning wasn't the right path. I have regrets about not getting more thorough psychological help from the beginning.
Here is a timeline of my journey:
| My Age | Event |
|---|---|
| Around Puberty | Started hating my breasts and feeling deep discomfort with my body. |
| Late Teens | Found community online and with friends; learned about transition as a solution. |
| Early 20s | Saw a psychologist; was told only transitioning could be recommended due to dysphoria. |
| Early 20s | Started taking hormones (Estradot and Androcur). |
| Now (Mid-20s) | Questioning my transition; realizing it was a form of escapism; seeking new therapy; regretting the rushed process. |
Top Comments by /u/Successful-Talk4975:
I completely understand you are frustrated!! When I went to see a Psychologist, I was hoping for real support and exploring every possible angle, especially considering the Trauma I have been through. But instead, They told me They are not allowed to recommend any therapy other than transitioning because of displaying Dysphoria. Isn’t that terrifying? It feels like there’s a huge gap in care, where Trauma and deeper Issues get just brushed aside as if they don’t matter. Maybe because of wanting to prevent Transness being seen a result of S3xua1 Traumas but at the same Time I think the current Process ignores our Experience.
It’s scary and in my Opinion furtherdangerous that they don’t acknowledge our Trauma and just hand us life changing options without full Investigation of what’s going on beneath the surface. Sometimes I wonder if I’ll ever be able to feel like the person I was before. It’s like they’ve taken away the chance to find out who I really am.
There are many Things I can relate too here. >>"Getting older is frightening”... I think for me being Trans was a kind of Escape from Aging or so I thought. But Male Pattern Baldness still was a thing even with Hormones. Not too bad, but I wanted to add this.
"I realized pretty quickly that I didn't like having breasts" — me too! It’s one of the things bothering me the most.
All in All, I agree with the other comments. Accepting your Body is the only option if to be Trans is not working out.
My Question is: Will this ever improve?? Is it too late now?? My Psychologist gave the same Advice based on basically nothing. I have researched a bit on the Internet and apparently even Scientific Research is under questioning or forced to be revoked. Is it normal? Of course as a Trans myself I am not against the Trans-People who need this, but this Prozess has to be better in the Future.
Thank You! I’m looking for a good Therapist, perhaps somebody with experience right now.
The last I remember was Estradot 100 mcg & Androcur 10mg —varied over time, latest 10mg. Why I want to take T now, because I hope it can speed up the Prozess and take away those groski 🍒Maybe I exaggerate this in my Head but I can't stand it 😂
For me it was first and foremost The Community. I have found many friends in the Trans and Lgbt Community however I am a person that likes to question everything. This started maybe rather late but I have noticed many times that we are not “allowed” to have a critical discussion about Transness. I am questioning right now, if I had made the right choice, and whom do I have to turn to? The Internet (Sorry guys it’s not personal but shouldn’t I be able to speak about this Issue with my friends without being scared of judgement?) Furthermore I have visited a Psychologist whom told me that She cannot recommend me other therapy than Transitioning since she is not allowed to. Don’t you find this just scary???